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[streetlightsystem]

yet another system sideblog. expect comics and other various posts. we're happy to chat!

call us streetlight or traffic.

more about us under the cut:

there are more of us than shown in the above image - i will make a more detailed post (here!) and update it as needed, but the ones pictured here will be the most featured in the blog.

if you're wondering about DID / OSDD, here is a good starting place.

we use both "i/me" and "us/we". you don't have to refer to us in the plural either

we refer to ourselves as alters or parts.

we are an adult.

feel free to ask questions! if we don't want to answer we simply won't.

due to the nature of this blog, it may occasionally contain triggering subjects. we will tag and warn as necessary. any tags will be written in plain format. (eg. #death) if i forget to tag something, please let me know and i will do my best to remedy it.

[streetlightsystem]

Projects period cramps onto one of your system's alters but I'm not telling you which one

parried #notmyproblem

[streetlightsystem]

[pluralpupkin]

I need every system comic ever. If you are a system comic maker and your asks are open tell me. I may or may not have an ask for you. Don't check my reblogs

[streetlightsystem]

sometimes being a system means that you're a living theseus's ship metaphor and the planks you're replacing are alive

[streetlightsystem]

i'm a new split isolated from the rest of the system and im studying this blog like it'll somehow help me communicate with everyone (IT WONT)

this suuuucks. i don't want to be here. i don't think anyone else wants me to be here. finally get to see fish and i'm like "hey sorry i kind of took over your life" and not only does he get furious at me anyways but he starts going on and on about the most negative downer shit ever. though from what im reading here and getting in general thats just how he is.

fumbled my interaction with the other guy who was actually nice but i said the wrong thing and now he just . REFUSES TO SPEAK TO OR ACKNOWLEDGE ME! Thanks!

i get none of us wanted this but im here now and it'd be easier for everyone if we were able to communicate and collaborate but apparently my expectations were too high with that.

it's so hard to find good resources about how handle a system that just doesn't get along. like am i doing something wrong. im trying to be nice to them but idk. very frustrating

oh and i accidentally got attached to a name im too embarassed to even share with anyone so thats just great too. all good stuff.

[drv3ch5]

how it feels trying to hold back the mean alters from saying mean shit

[transientsatellite]

Ok stream of consciousness

[that-dreaming-dragon]

How is the relation of the system and the body?

Body is shared across the system

Body belongs to whoever feels claim over it

“Body” is a shared vehicle for the system

“Body” is a vehicle that is under someone(s) name(s)

Others (feel free to comment)

Voting ended onMay 10

Strictly for this earthly realm and this physical reality, to keep things simple.

You are still welcomed to talk about your experiences if you are parallel lives sharing a mind, or each having your own body, or a hivemind structure, etc.

[mindnagerie]

A Drop in the Bucket.

[streetlightsystem]

hanging out with a friend who knows you're a system truly just becomes a game of "how many times do we end up switching because EVERYONE WANTS TO SAY HI"

[streetlightsystem]

trying to work with each other is so genuinely frustrating. our host hasn't been fronting for a while, which is fine. but it'd be cool if he came back. and he's clearly not doing well, and he's spiraling, and none of the things i'm trying to do to help are helping. and all he does when i try to help him is insult me. i tell him i'm concerned as a friend and he says we aren't friends. he acts like we all hate him and we don't. there's just so much self loathing there and it's like trying to grab a hot object. i just can't. i wish i could do more. idk its late at night and im not explaining this well it just sucks.

[xitsensunmoon]

People with DID, be honest does it feel similar to having a twitch chat in your head

[xitsensunmoon]

Ty for answers everyone!! With all your descriptions I got more curious, hope none of these are insensitive: Do your alters feel like separate people? Or do they feel like a different version of you? Or maybe like strangers? Is there even such a thing that feels like "you"? Like a alter that "pilots" the most maybe? Is there any amount of distrust or nervousness between alters or do you all just feel like you've known each other for ages?

[streetlightsystem]

obviously with all of this i am answering for our system specifically, but here goes:

1. sometimes, yeah. when the others are quiet or we aren't having much communication it's not as much. and sometimes the other parts communicate in ways that arent word thoughts, so that isnt much like twitch chat. but when it is, it is. we have called each other "chat" before on a frequent basis. i like calling them the peanut gallery.

2. varies. most of us acknowledge ourselves as parts of one person, though definitely distinct parts with our own preferences. and we like being identified, even if we all are one person in the end. some parts, though, feel like they are seperate entirely. a good example of this is the rabbit. the rabbit believes that they don't own the body or our life, and just step in to help sometimes. we're trying to help them understand that they're allowed to "own" our life and our body also. and then there's another part who genuinely believes that they are our brother and thus doesn't identify with us. these are exceptions, though. generally we understand ourselves as parts.

3. yes, and yes. we have certain parts that feel more like our "true" self. they are much more stable and long lasting. they are also much more internal—the rest of us kind of protect them, and they look out for us. cephy is probably the most significant example of this, but we think ram is, too. others, like me (fish), feel much more... transitory. i express a fragment of us, a specific set of coping mechanisms and beliefs and all that. i am also our current host, which means i am either "piloting" (in front) or in "co-pilot" (co-con) most of the time. occasionally i sit further back, but it's rare that i'm able to leave front entirely.

4. varies. overall, our system doesn't get along well. but there are parts who are closer, or have known each other longer. usually this comes with frequently co-conning or communicating, but in rare cases we just Have that closeness. we have a lot of different relationships in system. ram is kind of my mentor, for example, and ghost is kind-of-sort-of my partner (but more of an emotional support animal than anything haha). new splits often end up having to get through a lot of distrust and resentment before they're incorporated. it's something we're trying to get better at, but it's hard.

[streetlightsystem]

who's on the struggle bus todayyyyyyy meeeeeeee its meeeeeee

[streetlightsystem]

trying to get anyone else in system to post on this blog is damn near impossible. cmon i know i'm not the only one who wants to complain to the internet right. i can't be the tumblr user alter that's so embarassing. cmon.

[streetlightsystem]

ok first "intro" post i guess. for me. hi.

[streetlightsystem]

ok so we're making something kind of like individual intro posts? basically the task is to include

- name

- drawing of yourself

- whatever additional text / drawings we would want to describe ourselves. free reign.

it's kind of fun so far honestly. we're working on finishing a few before we actually post any and it's interesting seeing how different parts organize their page / what they include.