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BLOCK DON'T REPORT recovered and pursuing healthy weight loss I'm 19. I will not interact with you if I know you are under 18

[strwbrrypoundcake]

Finally free

This blog is now about my overall journey improving my mental and physical health. I will still post about weight loss sometimes but it doesn't control my life anymore.

I eat 1800 calories a day and put a focus on balanced meals and nutrition

I am also growing my hair out, trying to improve my skin and trying to fall in love with movement instead of forcing myself to do it because I eat.

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The holiday was rough, I enjoyed them but I won't lie, getting on the scale is disheartening. I want to be 235 by my birthday but as it gets closer it's getting more unattainable. It's really hard not to beat myself up about faltering and think that I would be so much farther along if I didn't make certain decisions. Hopefully I can get back into the swing of things.

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Tw mia, binging

I binged and purged. I feel so out of it, this week has been stressful for me, I mini binged last night and thought I had worked through it but I woke up and blacked out into a binge. I was so scared of losing my progress I purged for the first time in months. This sucks, I'm trying so hard to balance everything but if I can't figure out why I'm feeling the way I do I give up and go on destructive autopilot

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Started jump roping again, omg I forgot how much of a workout it is. My abs hurt lmao

In other news I gained a little bit but 1. I'm still not back in the 250's so meh, don't care 2. It's kinda my fault I still weigh myself multiple days in a row sometimes. It's a habit I'm trying to break but at least it doesn't affect me too much anymore. I want hula hoop so bad lol, also a good workout.

Today I'm going to the mall, so lots of walking. Still gonna bring my water jug. I'll also bring a tumbler so I can drink while I'm in the mall, I am not carrying that big ass thing around.

Still not sleeping the best but it's okay, hopefully getting back into regularly exercising will help. And I'll try to take more short walks throughout my day to hopefully help as well.

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Goooood morning :)

Today is a rest day so only walking for me. I still try to get 30 minutes of walking every day because it's good for mental health.

Reminder to take your meds, vitamins, have water and do some low impact movement you enjoy on rest days

If I get this Walmart job I think I'll get some roller skates, I've always wanted to try it. Maybe as a reward for hitting 230. I am still doing rewards for weight loss because shit is hard and my motivation falters sometimes

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I think I accidentally recovered? I started going to the gym and I wanted to start eating more so I didn't lose as much muscle and it just started gradually going up as I realized I felt so much better. I'm ready to lose weight the right way, I need a job and my ed was majorly impacting my ability to work. I can't go back, especially since it wasn't working anyway. I saw more weight loss when I started eating more because I was able to exercise and move more in general. I also realized I will never look like the pictures I would save, sure I could look emaciated but I don't want to, the whole point of me wanting to lose weight was to never be called ugly again, I want to look feminine and what I'm doing now will be how I achieve that. I still struggle a lot with wanting to lose weight quickly but I can't go back to how I felt, it made my borderline so much worse. I'm going to miss the community, it was a way for me to feel less lonely. But I'll be posting about my health journey sometimes. I'm done with the mood swings, the fatigue and the brain fog. I've been at this for a while now and can confidently say it was a good choice.

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I love that he loves me at my fattest but I can’t wait for him to love me at my thinnest.

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the money skull, reblog for money and or skulls

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Here we go, going to the gym. Not gonna let laziness stop me

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Every morning I wake up

Every morning I fight with my brain about going to the gym vs going back to sleep.

No no, the gym is happening, nothing you can do to stop it. You wanna sleep so bad, you do it after the gym and breakfast. The bed will still be there, not like I have work or school to stop me from honk me me meing the rest of the day.

It's just because it's legs today, I hate leg day. I thought I would love it because my legs are the strongest part of me but for some reason I dread it

Too bad, it's happening. Then I shower, breakfast and then I can go back to sleep. No if ands or buts. I always feel better if I go

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I miss pole dancing so much, but I just can't afford it right now. But it's okay, I can prepare myself in the meantime by losing weight and getting stronger so it will be easier for me next time

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Mini omelette!

Tw food and cals under the cut

It's 54 calories, if anyone wants the recipe let me know!