StXrving Angels

Please don’t use my pfp because it is me...

[stxrving-angels]

5’9

129 lbs

*You can reblog:)*

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Morning body check🥰

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I haven’t eaten in like a day in a haft... and I didn’t eat for over two days before that... the only thing that separated that fast was less than 700 cal.

I just took melatonin to sleep. I instantly start trying to puke when it hit my stomach. It was so empty my body just rejected it... but the thing I’m most happy about. Is seeing how I dry heaved for 10 minutes and nothing could come but saliva.. I didn’t even mind it because I know there is nothing in my stomach

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Before my eating disorder kicked in full force again. I was getting so fat because I was binge eating 24/7.

My stomach was so stuck out. It was disgusting...

It’s been 5 days... my stomach is completely flat again and without sucking in my ribs stick out and I can see every bone.

the only food I have consumes in 5 days was this...

1- plain ham sandwich. *cal about 200*. (Breaking a 22 hour fast. Than fasted for 41 hrs after this)

3/4- chocolate croissant *cal. 350*

1- 6 in Italian BMT *cal. About 430*

Both the crossbar and 6 in broke my 41 hour fast and I’ve been fast for 25 hours since.

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So I’m 5’9, 130 pounds.

My BMI is 19.2

At 125. I will be boarder line underweight.

Any pound past that... I will finally be underweight...

I just need to lose 5 pounds....

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I still don’t have a thigh gap....

My stomach isent flat....

Doing body checks every 5 minutes and being dissatisfied every time sucks...

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So who knows how many calories are in male cum....

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Any men with Ana I need some advice🤦🏻‍♀️

So, I’ve had my Ed for years. I’ve gotten better for a couple months and every time it comes back it’s stronger right....

This is nothing new to me. I’ve had so many friends with eds I’ve been studying them for years.

My boyfriend we haven’t been together very long but this is the man I’m gonna marry. We have been talking and since day I’ve suspected he had an ed too and I think that’s part of the reason he gets me so well....

We’ve been talking and he starts talking about how he he used to binge and purge and he describing everything to me.. I tell him I was like you had and eating disorder than and you still do. He knows about mine

He didn’t believe it at first than I start showing him all the studies, all my research and showing him how he literally shows every trait. I tell him I can’t tenically tell you you have one. But, you fit the cards.

He realized that he might actually have one because he still does very much all of those habits.

Me and this man are in such a healthy relationship.... we understand each other so well that we never even argue anymore. But the thought in my head. When he doesn’t eat I feel like I have to go longer without eating. I always feel like I have to eat less than him to be lady like.

I guess I just worry that what if he does the same thing and instead of keeping each other in recovering.(which he thinks I’m in) I’m scared I will push him back to his Ed habits bc I can break mine....

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Morning body check

(Can repost for body inspo if you want since I’ve already gotten asked)

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He knows I haven’t been eating so I wake up to this at my door step. I feel bad not eating it but I feel so fat

I love him . I’m so great full but eating LITTERALLY scares me

[skinnycigarettesandtea]

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

[canibesk1nnypls]

🧸 you’ve got this!

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Body check🥰

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I need to starve...

I need to suffer for the things I’ve put every body for.

I’m taking away everything and forcing my body to suffer off of everything it craves... it’s better than the blade. But it’s different when my thigh gap shows...

When everyone says I’ve gotten so so skinny.

I’ve “lost my shape”

I’m suffering. I’m caught tangled. This is how I will punish myself today.

I’m so sorry for anyone that find this account.

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I was getting ready to eat... I was so ready to just shove my face full of food....

Boom something happens with one of my friends I’m getting bags packed for her my food comes I tell my self I’ll eat it later. I’ll eat it later.

Later never comes, now it’s sitting in the corner of mood room untouched. Like it will stay. It’s cold now anyway. And I was trying to fast so why would I wanna eat cold food when I can fast and already have one going... the idea was nice when it was hot I guess.

Is it bad I’m happy that life got to busy for me to enjoy a meal once again...