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#points haha thats me playing vidro games next to my cute husband #and i have my CURLS !!!!!#(ive been restoring my curls the past few months)

iwait4youalexg

Oh!

doh007

Thank you all, i needed further explanation - And i do find it might help me!

#if you rub your arms for comfort too long and too harsh the skin will turn raw

jpinesart

hey so im sorry to do this its kind of embarrassing. but my fiance and i are in a really, really bad financial spot right now.

she was just forced to quit her job and my job has cut my hours down to 12 a week. we've been leaning on our credit cards to pay rent and can only do that one more time before they're all maxxed out. we're both drowning in debt due to medical bills, car repairs after my engine gave out back in november, credit card debt from rent payments, etc. we could be homeless by the end of march.

we can lean on credit one more time to pay rent, but need help for a few other things like electricity, gas, internet, car payments, etc. you can help us out right here on my ko-fi if you're able. im trying to raise $500 by the end of february for some of my medical debt, car payments, and our utilities at the start of the month.

you can support us right here, thank you if you do or even if you just share this around.

im sorry to keep doing this and i promise ive looked into organizations that can help and we're both trying to find more work right now but this is the best we've got in the meantime. ill keep the amount we've raised updated on this post and turn off reblogs if/when it's been met. thank you.

$0/$500

#[waving a white flag] hi pls help us VVGBFJFJG

jpinesart

showed a script from one of the most harrowing scenes in tip the ferrymen to selene, my fiance and beta reader, who has ocd and um. well this revelation was the result:

stygiuscantus

this is the funniest thing to ever happen in ferrymen

#like it genuinely makes me so happy to see a character who experiences ocd almost exactly like i do.#but also how did ut take me 4 years to clock it LMAO

voidsentprinces

Fuck it, was there any book on the "required" school reading list that you did enjoy? (Part 1...I guess)

The Great Gatsby

Of Mice and Men

To Kill A Mocking Bird

Animal Farm

Brave New World

Catcher in the Rye

Old Man and The Sea

Lord of the Flies

MacBeth

Fahrenheit 451

The Grapes of Wrath

Beowulf

Voting ended onJan 28

#out of This list #beowulf #mostly bc my teacher was rlly coll abt explaining it to us essntially as a gigantic exaggerated boast #and one of our assignments was to then write our own verbose boasts abt ourselves #basically write our own epics #i dont remember much of it but its the only one on this list i had a remotely good time with VVGHGBFBF #outside this lis tho. the giver and inherit the wind #ive genuinely never had a class more excited to read a book in class than the giver #which i think is s testament to how well written it is #and inherit the wind was a super fun piece of court drama that had gotten to me specifically in the middle of my AA hyperfixation #HCFHCHJFHCGBFY

i hate the term "passed away."

eight years ago, my father did not "pass away." he fell unconscious from drinking outside of our home in the February cold and froze to death overnight. he collapsed on the ground and hit his head and never got up. his corpse still had the cuts and bruises from hitting the concrete. there was no "passing." just a slow death that he thankfully was not awake for.

three days ago, my mother did not "pass away." she had a slow, painful decay of her mind and body over the past few months, culminating in a rapid decline over the week before my fiancee and i found her on the brink of death. she was septic, and had severe liver disease. she was barely coherent, talking about things she had been hallucinating and screaming in agony. she had lost significant amounts of her hair, was extremely frail and skeletal, had her eyes bulging out of her skull, and her skin was sallow and sickly looking. my last impressions of her were her screaming and crying in pain as doctors struggled to find veins to stick her in and get her pain meds to prep her for surgery and get her under. she spent her last days sedated and struggling to stay alive. there was no "passing." just a horrible, ugly death.

my father died. my mother died. why is it considered such a harsh word? it's simply the truth. they died. they are dead. why do i have to sugarcoat it for grown adults? children i can understand. introducing the concept of death to them is something that has to be done delicately. but i dont understand why there's such pressure to use "passed away" when talking to other grown adults.

"another angel gains her wings." "she was such a kind person." "she was an incredible woman and i'll never forget her kindness." "she was a special person."

no she wasn't. she was an abusive piece of shit. but she can't hurt my sisters anymore. she can't hurt the animals under her care anymore. she can't hurt me anymore. she can't hurt herself anymore. maybe she was a good friend to you, but she was an awful mother to me and my sisters. it's better for everyone that she's gone now.

i'm not glad my mom "passed away." i'm glad she died.

#vent ;#ish #ive been having a time folks #when i joked 'cant wait to be an orphan before 30' i didnt mean that as a challenge #parental death ;

theminecraftbee

been playing z-a a lot and gotta say my favorite thing is how actively disgruntled so many people are by the state of lumoise. battle zones are initially portrayed as a somewhat frightening inconvenience. there are so many npcs complaining about pokemon, let alone the actual wild zones. pokemon game where you’ll find npcs expressing annoyance because personally they aren’t huge fans of pokemon and people just assume they have to be. game where you’ll find an npc complaining they got caught in a shopping mall when a battle zone showed up and now they’ve gotta deal with that shit. game where the professor complains that the government isn’t doing this whole wild zone thing with any kind of scientific rigor and also she has no time or funding. honestly it’s 10/10 for feeling true to life. yeah sure the world of pokemon is cool. tell me about all of its annoying inconveniences tho,

#pokemon legends za #I LOVE IT SO MUCHHHH #the incredibly mixed opinions of the 'renovations' and the worries and distaste over the wild zones #bc when will another area become a wild zone?#when will people's businesses and homes become inaccessible without actively putting yourself in danger?#you're going home late at night but your apartment is caught in a battle zone #and you just want to go home but the royale fighters refuse to take no for an answer #so you either have to fight or run for your life #pla showed a world that was mostly pokemon with a few human settlements and little understanding of what pokemon are like #plza shows us pokemon overtaking a human settlement and being allowed to run wild at the whims of an uncaring government #it shows us how Awful living in this world would be if there's no proper safeties or regulations #and how corporations can just. start doing shit and the massive consequences that leaves for everyone else #IT'S SO GOOD. I LOVE IT SO BAD

mr-jaybird

pictured: nerd to nerd friendship

#jox tag #we do this

bugjolteon

i have a genuine quashtion dont make fun of me.

are sex talks real did your parents give you a sex talk?

yes they did give me a sex talk

no they did not give me a sex talk period

no but they gave me a book about it (and didnt talk about the book)

orphan button

nuance??????????????????//

Voting ended onOct 28, 2025

#i very vaguely remember sitting down with my mom to talk abt it but i do Not remember what she said #surely this means nothing

mamawasatesttube

his swagless mental breakdowns this, his homoerotic patterns of grief that. what about HER grief-stricken moments of extremely poor decisionmaking? what about HER incredibly alarming isolation and trauma-driven life choices?!?!?!

#ALLISON MCROBERTS

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#undertale #napstablook #mettaton #hapstablook #human soul undertale

IT' S TV TIME!

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new fabulous ghost added to the etsy store and wont stop playing death by glamour please take him off my hands so i can sleep properly

#undertale #mettaton #amigurumi #crochet #artists on tumblr #deltarune

NEW KEYCHAINS ADDED! These cute little stars are imbued with protection magic to keep yoirself safe from wayward spirits and energies as the veil thins this upcoming October!

#witchcraft #witchblr #keychain #protect your energy #small business

ok im gonna complain abt silksong under the cut. it's solely gameplay mechanics but if you dont want spoilers for even that then it'll be hidden.

i am trying so, so hard to love this game. i love the exploration and (once you actually get hornet's dash ability) the movement is very fun. i don't hate the game, not at all, but the difficulty is BULLSHIT. every single boss hits you for two masks, meaning you effectively have only 3 hits for EVERY FUCKING BOSS BATTLE until you get 8 masks shards to get two more masks. You can't heal until you fill up your silk spool, which you can only do by hitting enemies, so if you're on the brink of death you have to risk getting hit. and you can't even keep yourself alive on a couple of masks bc again, you can't heal until you fill up the spool. unlike the Knight's mothwing cloak, hornet's Swift Step has a curve at the end of her dash, meaning she can very well fall into enemies she's attempting to avoid. some bosses and enemies have attacks that can hit you without ANY FUCKING INVINCIBILITY FRAMES, meaning they hit you twice and you can't escape it until it's done.

only certain huge enemies and special bosses in hollow knight (including the FINAL FUCKING BOSS) hit you for double damage, and you couldn't even get to most of them until mid-late game. THE HALL OF GODS HAS A COMPLETELY SEPARATE MODE FOR FIGHTING BOSSES WITH DOUBLE DAMAGE. IT'S SOMETHING YOU HAVE TO SEEK OUT YOURSELF FOR THE MOST PART. UNTIL YOU'RE EXPECTED TO HAVE NAIL UPGRADES AND MORE MASKS, YOU DON'T REALLY ENCOUNTER THOSE THINGS.

maybe it gets easier when you get more silk spools but ive only found one piece of the next one. i really, really fucking hope they patch this or something, because it is damn near impossible to learn the bosses' attacks when they attack hard and fast and kill you within ten seconds. this just feels like artificial difficulty, where you just ramp up the damage to make it harder instead of presenting you with a harder challenge. it sucks. it really does. i want to love this game so fucking much but i can't if i can't fucking access the rest of it because I can't kill the bosses. it's unfair and unbalanced. hollow knight balanced itself just about perfectly (with some exceptions) so i don't know why team cherry felt the need to make this artificially harder for no reason. unless i'm just missing something completely that makes things easier.

and before anyone is like "git gud" i beat hollow knight 112% percent more than once, the most recent time just before silksong came out. i'm not the best player, but i feel like i'm a damn good one.

i'm disappointed. i really am. this sucks.

it's a beautiful game and i'm very intrigued and i want to keep playing but i can't keep throwing myself at a wall until i get lucky. that's just not fun. and i want to have fun when i play games. considering that when hollow knight was first released it was patched A Lot, i really hope that they patch this.

#genuinely really disappointing #i want to have fun i dont want this bullshit #silksong spoilers

cryptotheism

Till the room smells like crystal surgery

chimaeraundying

"Doctor, he's leaking vital essence from his root chakra!"

"Push 100mV of orgone PR, stat."

#NOOOOO NOT THE ORGONE

tyrannosaurus-rex

"Lol gifted kid burnout? You mean youre just sad you cant say youre better than other people anymore."

Hey thats a funny joke about how the pennsylvania department of education used my test taking ability as a statistic for better federal funding.

Very funny joke about how they put proverbial horseblinders on me at age 7, showed me one path to survive, pointed me down it and said "the only way you can survive is sprinting as hard as you can. Dont stop."

Hilarious jab about how when me and most of the other "gifted" kids inevitably were mentally debilitated by highschool and asked "dont we ever get to stop? Is there a different path I can try?" our questions fell on absent ears or worse, were only met with deliberate misunderstanding, shaming, and more pressure, and we had to either push further and hope it got easier (it never did) or be brave enough to take off the blinders ourselves and wander off into uncharted territory 10 years later than our peers, already worn down from chasing an impossible goal, just to start figuring out the rest of our lives on our own after all that.

Fucking knee slapper about how they took kids and told them, they could lean on their academic skills, exposed them to no other options, and then shrugged their shoulders when the advanced placement system just exhausted most of them and left them lost and without direction or future.

🖕

#POINTS!!!! THIS!!!!#do you know how many of my peers in ap and honors classes joked abt having mental breakdowns from stress #how when big tests came around they were on the verge of completely cracking under pressure #but they cant. thats not an option.#the only option is to take that pressure and consider it a good thing #when i was in my junior year i tried to balance:#1) marching band 2) dance lessons 3) a part time job 4) honors classes #and i justified it to myself by saying 'well my peers all handle this stuff and more so i can do it too!'#and then proceeded to have one of the worst years of my life mental health wise #we're told that we need to take the massive weight of all this extra work #and if we cant well then Clearly we were just stupid all along #and its our fault we cant handle it #i remember feeling humiliated when i had to drop out of the gifted program in 5th grade #(that i had been in since 2nd)#bc my grades started to slip from the amount of wirk i was doing #i felt stupid. i felt like it was my fault. i felt i wasnt good enough.#and not to mention the social element #all my friends were in those classes. those i was familiar and friendly with #the people who i shared a bond with over the fact that we were all under so much pressure and had to deal with so much work #what happens if you drop out of those honors classes? what would your peers think? what would they say about you?#we were told that the pressure we were under was good and that it would prepare us for college #and we were told that its fine if our bones crack and break from holding up the weight #because theyll heal even stronger and make it easier #while adding more and more weight so that new fractures form and the old ones heal wrong.#it never got easier. in fact it got worse. especially in high school with the financial incentive from college scholarships #and just pressure from college in general #these grades decide the course of the rest of your life.#if your actions as a teenager aren't up to par with the impossibly high bar we've set then you'll be left behind.#and if you dont have your academic skills youre nothing. because they never let you form anything else.

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