Theory of MIND

This is a personal blog. I write about my interpretation theories, my feelings and my analogies.

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Loneliness is often a subconscious creation, feeling of mind. It is a conflict of interest on how things should be but how it really is.

Utilisation of time productively can often help us to deal with things. Also, acceptance of reality will help a great deal to not sulk and be good even in not doing anything.

[sub-consciousfiction]

the ant sense the fear ahead

and run to reach for their home

at times, the heart is no different

its craves for you when world around it

crumbles, all the ghosts in the head

goes away when you keep your hand

in the forehead and in that blissful moment

the ant reaches its pleasant home.

[sub-consciousfiction]

There is fine line between Self Respect and EGO.

We often mistake self respect with ego. Ego in itself is not bad but it is a dangerous tool. People say I don't have Ego but we all have. What makes a difference is the awarness and the ability to exercise ego to benefit.

People mistake bothering much about self respect while it's the ego that drives us, and there we make it all go wrong. Self respect is very vital for us. But in order to protect our self respect, we let our ego drives us. Maybe it isn't about self respect but our ego makes it about self respect unless we are clear on head of that fine gap.

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Today I was talking to someone (who I don't know at all) over a call for the very first time and only after exchanging few texts. And on the go she talked like she knows me or catching up after a long time. And I was caught off-guard as I anticipated a whole different approach, on my mind I thought it would likely be slow. She was continuously asking me questions one after another, maybe trying to know me and maybe that's how she function. I gradually leveled up but it was mostly she, asking about myself and I was answering and I made it both ways by knowing bits of her.

But what happened it the process, she felt like what happened why am I so quite on call but it was non stop conversation and two ways and not like she is the one speaking most.

What I think is that our perception, our mindset or what we think how it is actually plays a major role in how we behave or come across. We often create a sense of things by ourselves and believe it's how it is and that is how it's gonna play. So when it differs there is a deviation from how things have been anticipated and get too consumed by it and maybe right there, is that disconnection we feel.

[sub-consciousfiction]

I had so much to talk about

But you didn't have time

I waited for too long

But you didn't arrive

Now that I know you won't

I really will not cry

You see, I have a part of you

that I have created on my mind

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Kolkata, West Bengal, India

When I statrted my MBA journey, it was Feb'21. I could have taken admission right then for Winter batch but chose to go for Summer batch starting from Aug'21 thinking by then situatuon would be normal and I can have offline classes. BUT there second wave happened and I was back into online famework.

16th Nov'21 Govt. announced partial offline classes and I was ecstatic. Hardly it had been 30 days I visited campus and here I am again back to Online mode until further notice starting today, owing to restrict third wave, the daily positivity rate has gone up to 23% only in kolkata, due to people's irrational behaviour on Christmas and New Year .

Restaurants are opened, theatres/cinema halls are open till 10PM. Only educational institutes are restricted. Why it has to be like this?

Not going into the things we are missing out on, the MENTAL ENERGY has got affected. It is difficult to attend online sessions coming from having however little but significant offline on-campus classes that had been held.