Not to be scandalous but can we get hand holding headcanons for boys that would break down/ malfunction if we rubbed the back of their hand with our thumb or Hell, even kiss the back of their hand?
Just touching you makes Touru nervous… in both the best and worst of ways. Holding your hand is such a soft, fluffy gesture that it leaves butterflies in his stomach and his heart in his throat. The feeling of your fingers against his shaking hands has Touru feeling like he’s going to pass out, and going so far as to kiss the back of his hand ends in tears spilling over. He really can’t handle the gentleness or care from someone he loves.
There’s an instinctive revulsion at the idea that you’re touching him despite how inherently filthy and impure he is, but Kegare doesn’t protest. His hand twitches like it wants to pull away at first, but all it takes is a stroke of your thumb, and he’s blushing and finding it suddenly hard to meet your eye. Kissing the back of his hand has him going so red-faced and frozen that it really does seem like he’s malfunctioning somehow.
Just feeling your hand in his has Yasha flustered. His hands are big, scarred, and calloused from a lifetime of hardships, and yours, so much smaller and softer, feel like something that he shouldn’t be allowed to touch. It feels precious to be able to touch you. And of course, gentleness wrecks him. Rubbing the back of his hand with your thumb makes Yasha look like he’s close to tears. He’s visibly, painfully emotional because of it.
As your boyfriend, he’s supposed to be the one doing the cute, fluffy things and making you blush! But Ryoushi is also a sucker for tenderness, and all it takes is taking his hand in yours and stroking over the back of his knuckles with your thumb for him to feel his chest going tight. All he can do is stammer and blush after that. And if you tell him how cute his red face looks, he’ll just break down into even more of an embarrassed mess.
His hands have killed people. More people than he’s ever going to tell you about. Having you hold them like he’s a person hurts in ways that he doesn’t know how to process. Kai doesn’t usually let himself look his self-hatred in the eye, but when it comes to you treating him gently… he can’t help it. If you kiss the back of his hand, he’s going to cry– and be furious about it, but so unstable and caught off guard that he can’t stop.
Xane isn’t used to being treated like the small, protectable one. No matter how much pain and anxiety he’s gone through, it’s always been him placing himself right between a problem and someone weaker. His hands shake horribly when you hold them, and he’s horrifically embarrassed by you being the one to hold and stroke his hand, but at the same time, the gentle contact comforts him in ways that he can’t put into words.
