Oh My. What Happend To You?

one big mess

[sugarr-andd-spiceee]

Some days I do wish a big ass wave would just take me down but others I just want a little life boat to come and save me. But I don’t think it’s going to happen nothing is helping

[sugarr-andd-spiceee]

I don’t know what I’m doing wrong I’ve tried everything I’m trying to be happy and get better but everyday I can feel the waves piling me down a little more and everyday it’s getting harder to keep my head above water and I’m scared that eventually i won’t have any energy to swim any longer and I will slip under water and eventually drown

[sugarr-andd-spiceee]

But no one can’t drag me out because the waves are to dangerous, they will get pulled in too, but I don’t know how to swim back I just don’t know

[sugarr-andd-spiceee]

All I want is someone to drag me out of the water and pull me to shore because I’ve tried to swim back but evertime i get a little closer to shore the current and waves pull me back even further, and my little body can’t handle the huge, harsh, dangerous waves I’m so tired of swimming

[sugarr-andd-spiceee]

I feel like I’m on a ghost Train at the funn fair and all these scary things keep popping out at me and I’m going round in circles and can’t get off, sort of like the saw maze but the exit has been shut and I can’t get out, sort of like I’ve fallen of a ship out at sea and I’m going under the waves and I’m trying to swim but I’m getting to tired to swim so every so often I’ll sink a little and this drowning feeling creeps up on me and I can feel this monster pulling me down but I’m trying so hard to swim but no one can help me or save me because I’m all alone out In the open water drowning.

[sugarr-andd-spiceee]

I can’t even do my fucking work like it’s becoming impossible to even live. I’m trying to get my shot done but she’s always speaking and I can’t think clearly

[sugarr-andd-spiceee]

I Literally can never escape she’s always here with me just casually sitting next to me even at school trying to kill me :) ha ha ha haaaa

[sad-cold-bitch]

[sunhazeys]

u ever wake up from a dream like “damn i guess i’m not coping with THAT as well as i thought i was”

[sugarr-andd-spiceee]

Not only is she hurting me but I don’t understand why I can’t be normal and think straight and control myself. My emotions are all completely fucked i go from super happy like nothing can go wrong and it’s all so nice and great and but then all that comes crashing back down to a really sad, empty, numb horrible feeling that just lingers and stays for ages then all of a sudden I’m back up to that’s amzing happy state and like it’s fine ya know because you can’t control your emotions but I wanna feel normal sometimes and I just can’t and it is actually quite hard to keep up and it’s not only hard for me but other peeps don’t get it either and I feel any bad for others because I can’t keep a hold of my emotions MSJENSHSISK my fucking goshhh whyyyyy do I have to be a weirodoooo

[sugarr-andd-spiceee]

Dmksixksgziskshxisjd everything is all so fucking loud all she does is torments me and controls me as if I’m some sort of puppet, sounds a bit cleashay but it’s true like I can’t shut her out and if I try it just gets worse so I gotta listen and accept it. She wants me to die but half the time I kinda also wanna die because it just hurts so bad and I can’t stand all of this

[livingfortherainydays]

[futureendevours]

damn can i just go one (1) day without feeling overwhelming burning anger and hatred towards everyone who breathes like pls calm down u stupid walnut brain

[filth-glam-horror]

[survivourinthemaking]

me: watching supersize vs superskinny

“our superskinny only eats a shocking 1400 calories a day!!!!”

me: lol fuckin amateur

[timbllr]

via weheartit

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