Your head shook as you threw your head back in response to another joke that Jeno told you, holding onto your side to try and stop it from hurting. You were in fits of giggles as you sat with the members of Dream, struggling to keep your composure.
After heading to the studio to visit Kun, you couldn’t help but be pulled by the boys as they saw you pass by, keen to show you what it was that they had been working on. As ever, you couldn’t say no to the two of them, taking a seat on the floor.
“So, what did you think of the routine?” Jisung asked you once the laughter finally subsided, “you’re one of the few people who have seen our choreography to this song so far,” Jisung smiled, watching as your grin grew.
As staff passed by around the studio, word soon got to Kun that you had been spotted walking around. He waited and waited for you to show your face, eventually feeling as if he had no choice but to go and look for him yourself.
“You guys are incredible dancers, it’s great.”
“Are we the best dancing unit in NCT?” Renjun teased from beside you, nudging into your side. Your head shook back at him as you remained quiet, refusing to give into the boys, knowing that you could never side with any other unit other than Kun’s.
You were unaware that Kun even knew you’d arrived as you continued to mess around with the boys. He was a little lost as he looked around for you, glancing in just about every room until he eventually arrived at the dance studios, hearing a loud chorus of laughter coming from the last room along the corridor.
“I bet that routine is going to look so good up on stage,” you proudly told all of the boys.
You fell silent just as head peered into the window of the studio door, noticing the boys of the unit, with one addition sat around with them too. A sigh came from Kun, taking just a moment to compose himself before knocking on the door.
“The competition has come to check us out,” Donghyuck teased as Kun walked in, eyes immediately looking in your direction. Your smile dropped as you saw him, almost as if you had forgotten the real reason as to why you went to the studio.
“The second-best unit in NCT, how are you guys doing?” Kun joked, watching as you stood up from the studio floor, “do you fancy not stealing the people special to me too?”
You apologised to the boys before standing up and walking across to where Kun was. There was no reaction from him as you walked across to you, letting you know silently that he wasn’t impressed that you’d ended up at the studio.
“Y/N knows deep down that we’re her favourites,” Jaemin called out to Kun, “we gave her a spoiler because she’s such a big fan of ours.”
You could feel Kun staring at you from your left, trying to figure out what exactly was going on. You didn’t know what to say or do as the Dream boys continued to mess with Kun, sensing that they were getting under his skin too.
“Come on, let’s head up to your studio,” you suggested, not wanting to let the boys push Kun’s buttons too badly. “You can show me a spoiler too,” you tried to joke with Kun, but he wasn’t having any of it.
Just before you left, Mark ran over to you with Chenle following behind, wanting to see you off properly. Kun was already well on his way as you hung back, knowing that they knew that something was up to.
“Just ignore him, I think he’s a bit annoyed I didn’t say hi first.”
“We shouldn’t have kept you here for so long.”
“Don’t worry, you weren’t to know.”
You smiled back at the boys before racing up to where Kun’s studio was, knowing that he was already on his way there. He was quick as he walked, wanting to shut himself off in his studio and not let others see how annoyed he was.
Once you were both in the studio, with the door shut behind you, you finally let go of a sigh. “You didn’t need to act like that, they’re your friends Kun,” you reminded him as he threw himself down in his desk chair.
“Friends who you seem to like more than you do me.”
“That’s not true,” you quickly established with him, “they just managed to catch me as I was making my way up and asked to show me their routine, it doesn’t mean that they’re my favourites, you should know better than that.”
You could tell straight away just by the expression that was on Kun’s face that he was jealous. He wanted you all to himself quite a lot of the time, or at least hanging out with the unit that he got to spend time with too.
“Just tell me what you’re thinking,” you asked of him.
“I just wish you’d come here to see me.”
“Is that all that you’re thinking?” You pushed, “you’re all members of NCT Kun, you’re all friends, or has something happened here?”
His head shook back at you, knowing that as he calmed down that he had perhaps overreacted a little. Once you were finished with the boys, Kun knew that you would make your way up to him, but when any of them said hello to you, you just weren’t able to ignore them, you loved getting along with all of them and making an effort.
Kun knew that you were onto him too, he was far from subtle about how he was feeling, dropping plenty of hints your way. By the look on your face, he knew that you were aware that he was jealous that they’d grabbed you before he got the chance.
Admitting that he was jealous was something that he struggled with, he hated being jealous over things, especially when he knew that the only people that you had been spending time with were his friends too.
“I’m sorry for coming down there and acting like I did,” Kun told you calmly, “when I heard that you were here, I just wanted to see you and give you a hug, but instead I found myself waiting and twiddling my thumbs.”
“I would have come here when I could.”
“I know, I should have known better.”
You smiled weakly back across at him, “the boys did nothing wrong down there either, they were being friendly, and didn’t think they were doing anything wrong.”
“I know, I’ll go back and apologise to them when I next see them,” Kun assured you, “I should like the fact that you get along with everyone but having to share you with twenty-two other people sometimes is tough.”
“You don’t have to share me, I’m only yours.”
“I know, but sometimes I’d still just love to bundle you up and have you all to myself.”
Your head shook back at Kun, “unfortunately you won’t be able to do that, as much as you want to do so.”
⤷ synopsis. y/n is a first year psychology student who is a helpless romantic, johnny is a second year photography student who has a messed up view on love after a toxic relationship and nasty breakup with his ex. when the two meet they instantly click and their future together is looking bright until someone from the past comes back and tears them apart. now everything is messed up and johnny has to work to fix his mistakes before it becomes to late.
y/n got no real sleep last night, her anxiety getting the better of her as she thought of every bad case scenario.
When she finally did wake up in the morning she was met by breakfast in bed from Johnny.
“Good morning.” He smiled softly as he gently set the plate down on her nightstand. “Happy birthday.”
“Thank you.” She smiled slightly. “You didn’t have to come over and make me breakfast.”
“I wanted to.“ He shrugged before sitting down on the bed next to her. “I have a whole plan set up for today, so eat up.”
y/n gulped back the lump in her throat before she picked up the plate of food. Slowly she ate, trying to postpone the events of today as much as possible.
After an eternity of her eating, y/n kicked Johnny out of her room to allow her to get dressed. She didn’t bother to dress up as she slipped on Jaehyun’s hoodie she stole a while back. His cologne was still on it and it helped calm her nerves.
“You look good.” Johnny stood from the couch when y/n walked out.
“Thank you.” y/n fiddled with her sleeves a little as she got shy, a small genuine smile on her face.
“That hoodie looks familiar though.” Johnny frowned a little in concentration as he tried to determine where he'd seen the hoodie before.
“oh.. yeah it’s from uh, H&M?” y/n become very conscious of the idea that she was wearing another man’s hoodie while in the presence of Johnny.
“Huh.. Well, it looks good on you.” Johnny smiled and walked over to y/n to grab her hand. y/n gently squeeze Johnny’s hands before making eye contact with him.
“So, where are we off to today?”
“Me and the boys are going to take you to lunch but first we’re going to go shopping and then after lunch we’re going to go see a movie. Then we’ll go to my place so you can get ready for the party.” Johnny smiled as he led y/n to the front door. “Win said he will put your outfit together and bring it to you at lunch.”
y/n nods as she slowly slips her shoes on. Today was going to be long and she wasn’t ready for it.
———————— party time ————————
The apartment was filled with loud music, alcohol, and neon lights. The boys went all out in decorating the place to make the experience better for y/n. She appreciated their efforts but she stayed in the corner for most of the night with her soju bottle.
She slowly slipped on the alcohol as she watched the boys dance with the girls that they invited over. Her eyes scanned for Johnny but he wasn’t anywhere to be found.
Sighing quietly she pushes off the wall to go to the kitchen to get some chips. The second she walked in she squeaked in shock as she collided with Johnny’s body.
“Sorry.” She mumbled as she gently patted at the soju she spilled on his shirt.
“It’s ok love.” He smiled gently. “Did you need something?” He tilted his head.
“Food.” She forced out a smile as Johnny led her over to the counter full of snack foods. She watched as he filled a plate full of fruits and chips for her. It was obvious he had quite a bit to drink as his hands shook a little.
“Here you go love.” He handed her the plate, spilling a couple chips.
“Thank you.” She giggled a little as Johnny led her out of the kitchen to the small dining room table that sat in the corner of the living room. Slowly she ate as the world drowned out around her, Johnny was talking to her but she paid no attention to the slurred words that slipped out of his mouth.
She nodded every once in a while to allude that she was paying attention but her attention was on the food she was eating. Somewhere in the middle of her eating Johnny got up to go get another drink but when he came back he had a birthday hat in his hands.
“Here you go.” He hiccuped a little as he slipped the birthday hat onto her head. She smiled a little as she laughed at the crooked hat on his head.
“Thank you.” Johnny nods as he smiles and stumbles off to go talk to yuta and mark who are in the corner with their dates. y/n sighs and drops the fake smile from her face, her eyes scan the room again and she frowns. Jaehyun wasn’t there, and it made her heart drop. Was her birthday not important enough for him?
Shaking her head to rid the tears from her eyes, y/n continued to eat and sip at her soju. Tonight barely started but she wanted it to end already.
About 20 minutes passed and Jungwoo had convinced y/n to join them on the dance floor. For a second y/n let the thought of her birthday leave her mind as she had fun with her friends dancing to the music.
Winwin went to answer the door after a loud knock sounded over the music. y/n watched him, expecting Jaehyun to be behind the door but her hopes were crushed again when Winwin moved to the side to show a girl.
“Rica?” Taeil mumbled to the side of y/n, causing her eyes to widen.
“You made it!” y/n smiled a little, her cheeks slightly flushed from the soju.
“Hey!” Rica smiled excitedly as she accepted the hug from y/n. “Happy birthday!”
“Thanks.” a bitter taste settled in y/n’s mouth as she forced her smile to stay on her face. “Food and alcohol is in the kitchen right over there, and the bathroom is right down the hall.” y/n pointed in across the apartment.
Rica nodded at the info she was given before excusing herself to go get a drink. y/n went to go join Taeil and Jungwoo on the dance floor again but this time it didn’t feel right.
Excusing herself y/n went to go to the bathroom, giving herself a breather from the party. After a couple of minutes she went back out to join her friends.
Scanning the room she frowned, Johnny and Taeyong were arguing quietly in a corner.
“Hey what’s going on.” She mumbled as she popped into their conversation.
“Nothing-“ Johnny was cut off by Taeyong.
“He invited Rica to your party.”
“No he didn’t.” y/n frowned, why was Taeyong angry?
“What?” Taeyong asked, confused.
“I invited her.” y/n shrugged as she looked off to the side, her eyes landing on Rica talking to Yuta’s date.
“Why?” Johnny was the one to ask this time. y/n shrugged again.
“I wanted to, I didn’t think anyone was going to bring a date and I didn’t want to be the only girl.”
“But.. You don’t know her?” Johnny mumbled.
“I kinda do.. We met a while ago after she messaged me on instagram.” y/n sighed, this conversation making the bitter taste come back.
“y/n I don’t think you understand who she is.” Taeyong frowned.
“Why does it matter who she is?” y/n groaned, she was getting irritated by this conversation.
“y/n..” Taeyong’s eyes softened in worry.
“Tae leave it alone, obviously she doesn’t want to talk anymore.” Johnny put his hand on y/n’s lower back, leading her away from Taeyong.
“Johnny.. Why does it matter who she is?” y/n finally looked up at Johnny.
“I don’t know.” Johnny didn’t dare meet her eyes as he led her to the kitchen where he grabbed them more alcohol. He handed one of the bottles to y/n before he finally smiled at her. Leaning forward he gave her nose a little kiss. “I’m gonna go back out there now, do you want to join me?”
“Maybe in a little bit, I’m gonna just sit in here and drink.” Johnny smiled and nodded before he walked out to the living room to join the dancing.
An hour passed before y/n decided she’s drank enough to join everyone on the dance floor. Tipsy, y/n laughs and dances with Doyoung, who was one of the only sober people at the party.
Her head was fuzzy as she moved around to dance with some of the girls, stealing them away from their dates. Finally she was deciding to enjoy herself, but once her eyes landed on Johnny and Rica dancing her smile dropped. A lump formed in her stomach as she watched the two laugh with each other.
“They’re just friends.” One of the girls noticed where y/n was looking. y/n’s eyes snapped over to the girl in shock.
“I’m sorry-“
“I noticed you were staring. They’re just friends.” She smiled reassuringly. “I mean sure they used to date but they broke up a long time ago.”
“Eight months isn’t that long ago.” Another girl mumbled from behind y/n.
“They used to date?” y/n frowned, all of this information was giving her a headache.
“You didn’t know?”
“Yikes.”
“I think I’m going to go to the bathroom.” y/n whispered as she sped walked down the hall, the alcohol and food she had was coming back up her throat. She barely made it to the bathroom before her stomach emptied itself out.
After spending half an hour in the bathroom crying and throwing up, y/n decided to pull herself together and go back out to get some water to help sober herself up.
“y/n are you ok?” Winwin frowned as he noticed her leave the bathroom after spending a lot of time in there. “You’ve been crying.” he mumbled when she got closer to him.
“I’m fine.” She forced out a smile. “The alcohol just got to me that’s all.”
Winwin nodded slowly as he watched her walk to the fridge to get a water bottle. Chugging it quickly, y/n throws the bottle in a garbage bag before she gets another bottle.
“Hey birthday girl.” Rica smiled, slightly tipsy.
“Hey.” y/n forced a smile as she sips on her water.
“I’m not big on celebrating my birthday.” She mumbled as she sat at the island. Rica joined her and frowned, wrapping her arms around her in a hug.
“I'm guessing this wasn’t your idea then?” y/n shook her head. A put formed in her stomach before she found the courage to ask Rica the dreaded question.
“Did you and Johnny date?” y/n felt Rica tense a little before she sighed.
“Yes we did. Did he never tell you?” y/n shook her head, tears filling her eyes again. “Hey, hey don’t cry.” Rica pulled y/n into her as she started crying again. Her makeup had since been removed from the first bout of tears she let out earlier.
“I’m sorry for crying, I think I’m just emotional tonight.” y/n sniffed as she pulled away from Rica.
“It’s ok.” Rica smiled reassuringly. “Oh! I almost forgot why I came in here. Johnny said it’s almost time for presents and cake.”
y/n nodded as she rubbed at her eyes. Rica seemed to bounce back to herself as she almost glided around the kitchen, grabbing another drink and some food.
“Are you going to be ok?” Rica stopped in the door and tilted her head back to look at y/n.
“Yeah I’ll be fine.” her voice was soft and a little hoarse from all the crying. Rica smiled at her before leaving.
y/n sighed to herself and stared at the ground. Quietly she mumbled to herself, trying to give herself a pep talk before she went out to join everyone again. However her eyes began to sting again as her eyes landed on Johnny dragging Rica to go dance again, both of their drinks spilling on the floor.
“Great.” y/n mumbled as she went to sulk in her corner again.
“y/n! what’re you doing in the corner!” Haechan giggled loudly as he practically jumped on y/n, drunk out of his mind.
“I’m just not feeling the music right now.” y/n smiled at her friend whose face was flushed with alcohol.
“I can change it!” He frowned. “Please join me.” He pleaded with a pout.
“Ok Hae.” She sighed before letting him lead her to dance to the loud EDM music.
What seemed like an eternity later, Winwin finally called for cake and presents as the clock struck 11pm. The lights turned on for a couple minutes as Doyoung and Taeyong rearranged the living room to accommodate for everyone to stand around the table to watch her open her gifts.
Delicately y/n ripped through the wrapping paper as everyone chatted around her, wishing her more birthday wishes as they continued to chug their drinks. Their words fell on deaf ears though as she fixated on her own thoughts.
What felt like a hundred presents later, but was only 10 minutes, the lights turned back off. People started pulling their cameras out to record as Winwin went to fetch the cake. Bike began to form in y/n’s throat as everyone started singing happy birthday.
The saliva that was once in her mouth had disappeared as her throat closed up. Taking as deep a breath as she could muster, she blew the candles out.
Everyone around her cheered, but no happiness settled in her body. Her breaths were rigid as she tried to calm herself down, she didn’t want to ruin this for everyone. They all looked happy when the lights turned back on so Winwin could cut the cake for everyone.
“First slice for the birthday girl.” Winwin set the plate down in front of her. She smiled weekly as she picked up her fork to take a bite.
Everything began to drown out around her again as she ate her cake slowly. Everyone was laughing and having a good time around her, time seemed to slow down however when a slice of cake made contact with her face.
The room went silent for a second before people started to laugh. In a fit of anger and sadness y/n started to laugh with them, the tears threatening to spill because she was so tired of the party.
y/n wiped her face off in the kitchen as everyone shuffled around in the living room, getting ready to leave.
“Hey..” Winwin popped up behind her. “I’m going to take some of the girls home because they’re too drunk to drive, do you want to come with me? We can get McDonald's after.” y/n sniffled a little and shook her head.
“No I’m ok, I’ll stay here and clean up.” Winwin frowned a little.
“Are you sure? And you don’t have to clean up, I’ll do that when I get back.”
“I’m sure, and I feel bad leaving you with all this work.” He smiled softly at her as he walked up and helped pick some of the frosting out of her hair.
“It’s ok, it’s your birthday. You shouldn’t have to clean up anything tonight, ok?” y/n sighed a little before nodding.
“ok.” her voice was soft but she gave him a weak smile.
“I’ll be back in a little bit ok?” y/n nodded again.
“Be safe please.”
“I will be.” he smiled before leaving her alone in the kitchen.
“y/n.” Johnny hiccuped before he stumbled into the kitchen. “Happy birthday again!” He threw his arms around her in a hug.
“thank you Johnny.” she mumbled before returning his hug.
“Johnny!” Rica giggled as her and Taeil stumbled into the kitchen. “We’re leaving!”
“Ok,” Johnny gave y/n a kiss on her cheek before pushing away from her. “Call me later!” he called over his shoulder before wrapping his arm around Rica and following his friends out the apartment.
“I will..” y/n’s voice was soft as she watched them stumble out of her place. She was trying so hard not to cry again.
“y/n.. i’m so sorry,” Taeyongs eyes were soft with sadness as he walked into the kitchen. “I’ll talk to Johnny tomorrow when he’s sober.”
“It’s ok Tae.”
“No it’s not, first he pushed to have this party for you and then Rica showed up and his whole attention was on her, and then the cake in your face…” Taeyong trailed off when he noticed the tears in her eyes.
“Oh honey..” he whispered as he pulled her into a hug. “Why did you invite Rica?”
“Because she seemed nice.. And I didn’t want to be the only girl.” she hiccuped quietly as she clutched onto Taeyongs shirt.
“She is a nice girl until you do something she doesn’t like.” Taeyong sighed as he squeezed y/n tighter. “Just, please don’t get too close to her?”
“I won’t..” y/n’s voice trailed off. “Did you know she was his ex?”
“I did, and I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. But I thought I was doing the best thing for you by staying out of yours and Johnny’s relationship.”
“It’s ok, but if there’s anything else you’re keeping from me please just tell me now.”
“I’ll tell you later.” y/n nods before pulling away and sniffing.
“Please make sure they get home safe.”
“I will,” Taeyong smiled and wiped the tears off her cheeks. “Call me if you need anything ok?”
“Ok.” she smiled slightly. “Now get going.” she ushered him out the kitchen and to the front door.
“I’m going, I’m going.” he laughed as he struggled to slip his shoes on. The sound of loud voices and giggling could be heard down the hallway as everyone waited for the elevator.
“Happy birthday y/n!” multiple voices called down to her as she poked her head out of the front door. Waving down to them she laughed and called out a thank you.
Once she was back in her apartment she closed the door and sighed. Sliding down to the floor she finally let loose the onslaught of tears she had been holding in.
“Happy birthday to me.” She sobbed out as she clutched her hands tightly in her lap. After allowing herself to cry for a couple minutes, y/n finally got herself together enough to stand up.
“Time to clean.” She whispered to herself, the mess was going to drive her crazy so with puffy eyes and a running nose she got to work on cleaning the mess.
The party hat sat crooked on her head as she sat on the floor, slowly cleaning up the soju bottles and confetti that littered the living room. The music continued to play softly in the background, filling the empty apartment with “pity party” by Melanie martinez.
“Today couldn’t have been any worse.” She mumbled, a frown settling on her face. Memories of all her past birthdays came flooding in as she cleaned. Despite her sour attitude she appreciated all of her friends' efforts, she really did but there was no fixing the trauma that her birthday had caused her in the past.
Losing herself to her thoughts, tears began to unconsciously stream down her face. Today was supposed to be a special day, but not for her.
“Stupid birthday.” She mumbles almost angrily before, clutching the handful of confetti in her hands. Soon enough silent sobs begin bubbling through her chest as she tries to force her tears down.
In the middle of her internally fighting with herself, a knock sounded at the door. Slowly getting up off the floor, y/n walks to the door, assuming it’s just a neighbor asking her to finally turn the music off.
“I’m sorry Mrs O’neil I’ll turn the music off.” Her voice cracked as she opened the door, expecting to see her elderly next door neighbor.
“Are you ok?” Jaehyun’s voice is filled with panic as he drops the box he was holding to gently grab ahold of her face. He cradles it as he wipes away some of the stray tears in her eyes.
“Jae...” Her voice trailed off in shock, she wasn’t expecting to see him there. “I’m fine… I just..” Her voice trailed off as more tears fill her eyes. She was tired of pretending she was ok, the one person she had been wanting to see all day finally showed up.
“I’m not ok.” She sobs out before throwing herself into his arms. “My birthday was a disaster and Johnny didn’t even give two shits about me.” She stuttered out as she cried harder, not caring if she looked or sounded ugly.
“Sweetheart..” Jaehyun felt his heart break a little at the sound of her crying. “It's ok, I’m here now..” he whispered softly as he stepped them both inside her apartment and closed the door behind him.
“Was I not good enough for Johnny tonight?” she hiccuped out between her sobs. “Why did he have to pay attention to her?”
“Don’t say that, Johnny is just an asshole sometimes.” He gently rocked her side to side as he ran his fingers through her knotted hair, knocking the party hat off her head. “I don’t know who she is, but you’re so much better than her.”
“How do you know?” She’s so perfect! She’s tall, has beautiful hair. For fucks sake they used to date so obviously he had some kind of attraction for her!” y/n started to get a little hysterical as all of her emotions came crashing out.
“Rica was here?” Jaehyun sounded a little angry.
“Yes! But I invited her because I thought we could be friends but I didn’t expect her to steal Johnny's attention from me the whole night!” She cried even harder, snot starting to run out of her nose as her breathing became labored.
“Hey sweetheart I need you to breathe ok?” Jaehyun pulled her away from his chest to wipe the snot off her face. “Breathe with me ok?” Jaehyun started doing breathing exercises with her.
“Why wasn’t I better than her Jae?” She finally whispered after calming down.
“You’re so much better than her.” Jaehyun mumbled as he pulled her back into his chest. “So much better than her..”
“I’m so tired Jae..” she whispered, “I want to go to bed.”
“Ok, we can do that.” He stands there, waiting for her to make the first move.
“But I need to shower, I’m all sticky.” She hugged Jaehyun even tighter, her voice becoming muffled by his chest. “But I don’t want to let go.”
“I’ll be here when you get out of the shower sweetheart, I’ll stay all night if you want me to.”
“Will you?”
“Of course.” He smiled at her as she pulled away.
“Ok, I’ll be quick then! Oh, and don’t worry about cleaning. Winwin will take care of it.” She sighed a little, her mood already feeling better now that Jaehyun was here.
“Ok.” He watched her with happiness in his eyes. She was already feeling a little better, which put him at ease.
y/n grabbed ahold of Jaehyun’s hand and led him down to her room. Once they were inside she got to work grabbing clean pajamas which consisted of spandex shorts and the same hoodie she had worn earlier in the day.
“I guess, I’ll just wait here.” He sat down on her bed.
“I’ll get you clothes from Winwins room!” She left the room for maybe a minute before returning with sweats and a plain t-shirt. “He’s a little smaller than you but thank god he likes baggy sleeping clothes.”
“Thank you sweetheart.” Jaehyun smiled gently as he took the clothes from her.
“Please make yourself at home! You’re welcome to anything in the kitchen and you know where the bathroom is. “ Jaehyun nods as he watches her leave the room, a small skip in her step. It was crazy how much her mood changed in the matter of 10 minutes.
While y/n showered, Jaehyun changed into the clothes she brought him. He sighed in content, finally out of the clothes he had been wearing all day.
“Shit,” he whispered to himself as he got up off her bed and went to get the box he had dropped out in the hallway in front of her door. “Good it’s still here.” He picked it up and examined it to make sure it was still intact.
While he was up, Jaehyun grabbed a bottle of water for himself and y/n before returning to her room. The house was quiet now, the only sound coming from the water running. Minutes passed by before he heard the front door open.
“y/n?” Winwin called out softly.
“She’s in the shower.” Jaehyun popped his head out of her bedroom door to look at Winwin down the hall.
“Oh hey Jae.” Winwin smiled. “Are those my clothes?” he tilted his head slightly.
“Yeah.. y/n said I could borrow them since I’m staying the night now.”
“Oh you are? That’s nice..” Winwin took a pause in his sentence. “Is she ok?”
“She wasn’t when I got here.” Jaehyun’s voice dropped slightly, a frown settling on his face. “Today was really hard on her.”
“I figured.” Winwin sighed. “I knew this whole party was a bad idea. Taeyong had texted me just a couple of minutes ago saying that we needed to talk in the morning and now I’m nervous.”
“Did something happen at the party?”
“I mean, a lot did but I think the thing Taeyong is talking about has to do with Rica.”
“Yeah.. I could only assume it was a mess with her here.”
“It took a toll on y/n I could tell.” Winwin frowned himself.
“The cat is out of the bag now about Ruca being Johnny’s ex,” Jaehyun sighed. “Of all days for her to learn it had to be on her birthday.”
“Wait, him and Ruca used to date?”
“Yeah, did you not know that?”
“No.. That asshole!” Winwin grumbled angrily.
“Trust me, Johnny is going to have a lot more than Taeyong to deal with tomorrow.” Jaehyun ran his fingers through his hair.
“I don’t understand why y/n invited her..” Winwins voice trailed off as he stared behind Jaehyun. “Hey y/n..” he smiled nervously as Jaehyun whipped around to look at her.
“y/n..” Jaehyun mumbled. She smiled back merely.
“Hey Winwin.. Can we not talk about the whole Rica thing anymore please?”
“Yeah of course.” He whispered, worry setting in his eyes.
“Thank you.” She turned to walk into her room, leaving the two boys to worry out in the hallway.
“Well, I’ll leave you two to sleep now. You must be tired after working all day and I know y/n is ready for this day to be over.” Jaehyun nodded.
“Yeah.. If you need help with anything out here just let me know.”
“Ok, I will.. Goodnight Jaehyun, goodnight y/n!” Winwin called out.
“Goodnight!” y/n yelled out to her roommate. Jaehyun walked into the room right after and gently closed her door.
“What’s this?” y/n holds the present up in her hands.
“Oh, it’s for you.” Jaehyun rubbed his neck nervously. “For your birthday.”
“You didn’t have to get me anything.” y/n mumbled as she held the present delicately in her lap.
“I wanted to,” Jaehyun sat down on the bed next to her, watching her every move with worry. “It’s not much but it made me think of you.”
y/n was slow to open the present. Once all the wrapping paper was removed it revealed a small jewelry box from pandora.
“Jae..” y/n’s voice was filled with a lot of warning.
“Just open it.” Jaehyun sounded a little stressed out now as he began thinking that she doesn’t like jewelry.
“I..” y/n’s eyes widened in shock. “Jae! It’s beautiful!” She pulled the delicate necklace out of the box.
“It’s a snowflake.” His voice was soft. “You remind me of a snowflake, you’re unique and perfect in every way like one.”
“This is the most thoughtful gift anyone has ever given me.” her voice was soft as she stated at the necklace. “Can you put it on me?” She handed the box over to Jaehyun.
“Of course.” y/n turned her back to him and held her hair up, allowing him to slip the necklace around her neck. Once it was secured, y/n turned around and launched herself into Jaehyun’s arms.
“Woah!” he laughed a little as he tossed the box off to the side to wrap his arms around her waist.
“Thank you so much.” She whispered into his neck. “You’ve made this the best birthday I’ve ever had.”
“You’re welcome.” He mumbled into her shoulder. “I know I wasn’t here for most of the day but I want to take you out to dinner to actually celebrate your birthday with you, if that’s ok with you?”
“I’d love that.” she sighed tiredly. “but not tomorrow please, I just want to relax.”
“Of course, we can go whenever you want.” Jaehyun tried to move around a little to get more comfortable.
“Sorry.” y/n moved off of him, allowing him to lay comfortable in the bed. Once he was settled down he opened his arms for y/n to lay back down with him.
“Goodnight y/n.” He mumbled into her hair as she snuggled deeper into his chest.
“Goodnight.” she mumbled back tiredly, her body and mind finally relaxing after the long day she’s had.
Seconds turned into minutes that turned into an hour and Jaehyun was still awake. He sighed quietly to himself as he continued to run his fingers through y/n’s hair. She was fast asleep, laying on top of him with her face squished into the crook of his neck. He didn’t mind the slight tickle of her breath or the little trail of drool that drizzled onto his collarbone. He was just glad that she was able to finally relax and fall asleep.
As the silence creeped up on him, he began to replay the last hour in his head. It broke his heart that she could hurt so much from just her birthday. He hated seeing her like that, so distraught and in pain. He also hated Johnny for putting her through that, sure his intentions were good but he should’ve respected that y/n didn’t like celebrating her birthday.
A quiet knock brought Jaehyun out of his thoughts. Slowly winwin opened y/n’s bedroom door and peeked his head inside.
“Is she asleep?” he whispered. Jaehyun nodded.
“Yeah, she was so drained after all that crying.”
“I’m glad she’s finally able to relax. And I feel like shit for leaving her here alone..” Winwin took a pause as his eyebrows furrowed. “I thought she would be ok, but I should’ve known better.”
“It’s ok, don’t beat yourself up about it.” Jaehyun mumbled as he looked down at y/n who was shifting slightly in her sleep. “There was no way for you to know that she was going to have another breakdown.”
“Another? She had more than one? God I’m such a fucking idiot of course she did, I should’ve known after the first one.” Winwin groaned in frustration before sighing, “Anyways, thank you for being here for her. And for taking care of her.”
“You don’t have to thank me.” Jaehyun smiled a little to himself. “I’ll always take care of her.” This caused Winwin to smile softly, a knowing sparkle settled in his eyes.
“Well I'll let you sleep now. Please help yourself to anything in the apartment.” Jaehyun nodded as Winwin slowly closed the door and shuffled over to his room.
“Goodnight y/n.” Jaehyun whispered as he gently kissed the top of her head. Closing his eyes, Jaehyun allowed himself to finally fall asleep.
He hated seeing her like this and it broke his heart to see her in such distress over her own birthday. He also hated Johnny for putting her through this, sure his intentions were good but he should’ve respected that y/n didn’t like celebrating her birthday.
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“You don’t have to thank me.” Jaehyun smiled a little to himself. “I’ll always take care of her.” This caused winwin to smile brightly, a knowing sparkle to his eyes.
genre: fake dating; the title speaks for itself; smut
word count: 18.9k (i restrained myself as much as possible)
summary: The moment you saw Johnny on his motorcycle in all black leather, you knew he was just what you needed to exact revenge on your holier than thou parents. Surprisingly enough, Johnny has the personality of a cloud and the longer you pretend to date him, the more you realize he brings out the best in you.
warnings: mild language; recurring alcohol use and brief mentions of marijuana and cigarettes; potentially triggering elements that involve negligent parents; explicit sexual content
a/n: listening to daddy issues by the neighbourhood; this is a one-shot, there will be no sequels; check the masterlist in my description for other one-shots in this collection; happy reading!
⤷ synopsis. y/n is a first year psychology student who is a helpless romantic, johnny is a second year photography student who has a messed up view on love after a toxic relationship and nasty breakup with his ex. when the two meet they instantly click and their future together is looking bright until someone from the past comes back and tears them apart. now everything is messed up and johnny has to work to fix his mistakes before it becomes to late.
Ma Johnny è proprio str*nz*. Ao. Come ti permetti? Quel povero cristo ha unsolved issues e tu gli giri il coltello nella piaga così? Ma JAE CHE DICE "SONO IO QUELLO CHE STA NEL LETTO CON LEI" che dire, folletinI e folletine. HO GRIDATO.
every lie you type - johnny suh ??? ( or jeong jaehyun? )
⤷ synopsis. y/n is a first year psychology student who is a helpless romantic, johnny is a second year photography student who has a messed up view on love after a toxic relationship and nasty breakup with his ex. when the two meet they instantly click and their future together is looking bright until someone from the past comes back and tears them apart. now everything is messed up and johnny has to work to fix his mistakes before it becomes to late.
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