hunger

俺だけはオマエと生きていける 18↑ and profic. i write fics sometimes

[sukuita]

are people on ao3 aware that everyone can see their odd/rude bookmarks lol

[conalvenn]

what if Yuuji had just... eaten him?

text: "Annoying brat..."

[jihikoseseki]

[sukuita]

sukuna hits so well for me when he *is* capable of love but experiences it as this alien, corrosive force... it's self harm to him but without catharsis or satisfaction he could derive from it. there's this foreign matter stuck in his chest that longs and longs and it is yuuji who galvanizes the abandoned impulse to identify and pursue it. that pursuit is another, seemingly private stage of conflict among the myriad they share and over the course of it, whether it is marked by single minded determination or a stoic awkwardness, it dawns on him that his quarry demands an intolerable sacrifice which is the surrender and disintegration of his self, his nature; before yuuji, sukuna is the lamb, and by that some token, yuuji is the only one who is able to intrude upon this inner struggle and influence its progression as his shepherd

[sukuita]

it's me and my 5 ao3 accounts against the world

[cocoamuc]

[cocoamuc]

Reincarnated Sukuna and Wasuke (twins)

with Modulo Yuji

[estrixart]

lemme see

[estrixart]

bleh :P

[patricidemutual]

Hey, don't cry ok ? So much Dadson in this world

[gluci]

Hugs?

[sukuita]

it's interesting how much more candid people are about their judgment of the fics they read when they think the author can't see it..

[sukuita]

in the process of writing this toji and gojo scene in my tjgm fic and the seductive pull between them might be stronger than i originally intended...

toji being this freak mutt of a dog given to gojo and doing his bidding although he despises him, always justifiyng the forfeiture of dignity with the paycheck (and megumi, bc that is his center. his kid, abstracted, existing as a concept. he cant think of him as his Child, in the flesh.) fleeing into self-objecrification and erasure to cope.. he thinks of himself as a thing without the burden of pride.. aww.

but their dynamic is predicated on this particular, inescapable kind of mirroring where gojo is around meg's age (in wolves) so the sheer proximity to his youth makes toji associate him with the idea of a son. but whereas toji has stripped his rs to meg of sentiment and emotional weight (or attempts to), he doesn't have access to that abstracting veil with gojo, because gojo is not his son or some kid, he's his employer, he is forced to engage with a vivid embodiment of Child he cant relegate to a more palatable role, and thus gojos more effective in the way he exploits this mesh, this loop of connection and estrangement between them due his station and temperament*

bc while toji sees in gojo the projected image of his son, gojo encountes in toji the Institution of Father but made accessible. he sees toji as a hypothesis of what paternal authority looks like when stripped of grandeur and seen as a fallible man. but instead of recoiling or being unsettled by this alien connection between them (like toji does), gojo leans into it and indulges, toying with toji and his contradictions and nudging him all the while hes using him as a piece on the board to undermine his actual father who looms as this faceless system that perpetuates gojo's lack of power within his clan

(*although meg possesses his own rebellious streak. gojo is brilliant n self-possessed while meg maintains this sullen, more acrid attitude.. its just as effectivr in wearing toji down but toji doesnt admit it. lmao)

[1singulargrape]

something something soulmates

[estrixart]

greedy 🕷️