His seriousness lasts briefer than a second, dispelling as swiftly as a thing woven of air & wanting. The greenhouse gardens have been infused with fluorescent tinges, cicadas and chrysalises that go pink in the night, cobalt blue, seared umber. His face is dappled with canyons of floating light, where new lines are buried and rewritten. On its surface, gravity breaks in waves. He smiles, brimming, boundless. As though he is amused to no end at the knowledge Mattaeus possesses about him: no, not possesses, hoards. Accumulated over the years and wrapped in even bundles, a taxonomy of his silly deeds, his offhand remarks. Not only analyzed, but preserved. Pinned somewhere close; every now and then held up for inspection. In the fact that Mattaeus can summarize him up, render his measure with a single word, he finds a sort of metamorphoses in itself. A transformation. The fact that one person, just one person in the whole known world, has known the dark and linear trajectory of his becoming â and knows it intimately enough to explain it: that makes the becoming bearable. Even if the end result is not. Theirs is the kind of memory that does not elude, resist, distort attempts at touching it. If no other touching, then that. If no other stepping into the light, if no other consortium with the past, then this.
        Warmth clings to him in fluttering touches, a half-dreamt thing, a swarm of dragonflies. If not tender, then his smile is still the closest mirage of it, the second best refraction.
        Around his friend, he can rarely sustain hauteur at its full intensity. The bite and blood of it. This thorn in the side routine, the defiant and prodigal son, thirsting on habitual cruelty â this act which is no more an act than a pelt heâs hunted down and earned. Iron knows heâs doing it with everyone else. Has been doing it ever since the world was still holy.
        But if the otherâs eyes say: well, thatâll do now. If they say: your anger is the kind that lights empires on fire. mine is the kind that builds them. If they say: well, are you? In those moments, Isaliendrin can only laugh, or drink, or leave. If he stays, heâll yield to it. Lest it be said that Isaliendrin couldnât dance to anyoneâs tune: they simply hadnât seen Mattaeus playing it.
        With the Sun-King, he is never as dire as he could be. Recalcitrance is a rare thing, a comet compared to the usual starfall. With an entire court, he is catastrophic, devouring, a scorching wildfire in either desire or in rage. With some select few, he is merely eager to share the flames. With one â with one, he is light. Light, or its absence.
         â And would you stint on a riot or two, as long as youâre the one leading it ? I wonât buy that. â The fae winks, pointedly to the mark. He wants to be sure the word is taken for what is is, no double entendre, no hint of courtly politics. Itâs not exactly rebellion theyâre discussing : itâs not something heâd put Mattaeus through the pain of considering just yet. But even so, it manifests itself in a sort of double-sight, a facade inlaid with deeper marquetry. Should there be a riot â should there be a riot, heâd yearn to see Mattaeus in its forge, at the forefront of it, and his own teeth ready to bite into any throat that would oppose him.
       He turns away by the slightest amount. The corner of his mouth perks up.  â You wound me, pal. Iâd never repeat my old tricks on new targets. Rest assured, my brazenness was born and broken in by you alone. â
there is great depths of knowing between the two of them, a dark and whispered history, only a select few passages in all their centuries of being that would be polite and predictable enough for the likes of a tapestry. for what artisan would not blush at simply their beginnings, two bright, young stars brought into orbit parallel to one another, curved by their own paths, intersecting by luck, by cosmic will, by desire. how marred theyâd become - one with the burnt ashes of the bright lights of his revels, the flame burning high in his soul, the other with the shadows he casts, all the bitterness he has swallowed in trying to give his court what it is due.Â
he remembers yet when their purity overlapped with each otherâs. it had only been brief - perhaps lasting only just a moment when he could say he believed - not that theyâd been untouched by their burdens nor their keepers - but that theyâd elected to forget them. âbend for me,â heâd said, green voice still slick with a summer youthâs unabashed wildness, giddy with fruit wine and an unrelenting notion of godhood. âbend for your king.â nevermind he was only a princeling, then.
and, watching his friend prostrate in play, he imagines he is a mortal - for what is more human than playing at things just barely beyond their reach?
how unyielding they burn. how much they have yet to shine.
âmy friend, i have enough to worry about simply trying to find a regent. and i have no taste for the energy required of insurrections of any kind.â to an ignorant spectator, his smile might appear weary, his voice appeasing. but he has always bitten his tongue numb to acquaint himself with the taste of blood, and he dreams of surpassing the winterâs curse and attaining a higher power - through merit, rather than station.
rest assured, my brazenness was born and broken in by you alone.
ah. could even a god hope to hear such acclaim from one of their own acolytes? how heavy with liquid lasciviousness, his heart could lay its stake in all the courts as its monarch with this absolution. âyour new targets then - they are fortunate enough to receive your modern deceits, your conspiracies? pray tell, what do those entail?â briefly, he thinks of florence, of whoever else isaliendrin has preoccupied himself with, and he tastes ash. âi bid you not forget it.â therein lies jest, yes, but nothing like jest at all. âjust as i wonât soon forget my appetite was weaned off your own.â