A personal aesthetics and mental health blog for my mental health stuff. Trauma recovery and DID especially. You may call me Bunny unless stated otherwise. She/her, 27
It's been eleven years (wow) since the original 30 Days of DID ask meme was created, and there Still isn't one that is not largely parts-focused. So I made my own.
Some questions still pertain to parts but they are much more few and far between than the original ask meme. Answer what you want to, skip over what you don't like. This is all in the name of getting to know yourself better and sharing only what you feel comfortable sharing.
To be clear because unfortunately I have to be, this ask meme is for those with a complex dissociative disorder (so not just DID!) whose experiences with parts are inherently disordered.
When and how did you find out you have DID?
How do you experience DID? Do you find your symptoms manifest more physically, emotionally, mentally, etc?
What does healing look like for you?
Do you have a specific type of therapy that is your favourite and that works best for you? What types of therapy haven't worked in the past?
Have you shared your diagnosis with anyone outside of your care team? If so, who and why?
Are you, as a whole, in a relationship? How does romantic partnership work for you?
How long have you been in treatment for DID?
When did you first learn/hear about DID, if it was prior to your diagnosis?
What misinformation about DID irks you the most?
What are some ways that depersonalization and derealization appear in your day to day life?
Do you have a favourite model of dissociation (eg. BASK, ToSD, 4D model)? Why?
How do you keep track of your symptoms and experiences?
What was your last therapy session like?
What is your favourite sense to ground yourself with? Olfactory, tactile, auditory, etc?
What are some ways that memory gaps appear in your day to day life?
Prior to your DID diagnosis, had you been misdiagnosed with other conditions?
Do you have a favourite movie, TV show, book, or video game that has a character with DID, or one that you believe has DID?
How do you experience emotions in relation to your DID? For you, how are emotions affected by dissociation?
How much internal communication do you have with parts? How do you, as a whole, prefer to communicate?
What are some ways that identity confusion appears in your day to day life?
What songs or specific lyrics do you relate to your experience with DID?
Are you diagnosed with other conditions? How do those conditions affect your DID, and vice versa?
Where is the safest place you can imagine for yourself as a whole?
How do you experience passive influence? How are you able to identify passive influence now, vs. when you first discovered your DID?
Have you read books on DID? If so, what are some of your favourites? What are some books you would like to read in the future?
How do you experience denial in relation to your DID? How do you deal with it?
Do you experience variation in skill correlating to levels of dissociation? If so, what skills stand out as most affected by dissociation?
In your experience, what are the hardest things about having DID in your day to day life?
Do you have a common trait amongst parts, such as a trauma response (or if you want to be less personal, hobbies or interests, etc)?
What is something you feel should be written about that was not asked here?
30 days of DID thing because my friends are doing it like this even tho I answered some asks already: day 29
29. Do you have a common trait amongst parts, such as a trauma response (or if you want to be less personal, hobbies or interests, etc)?
Fawning -
seems like fawning worked the best for me, because most of my parts - no, I think all my parts have some sort of instinct that when pressed hard enough, they go to fawning.
2. Fight -
Fight responses are almost always represented as being male in our system, or masculine-leaning, and separate from what the overall whole. they're disowned, and the parts struggling with a fight response often feel like they're 'doing it to themselves' or it's a choice, like 'fine I guess I'll just become the bad guy, then'.
3. Freeze -
Freeze responses are connected to being children, or childish. The inability to speak or move often has R asking how old I am. I cant really deny its true though, most of our kids freeze up. It feels very vulnerable, and like being hurt as a response to my freezing will be inevitable.
These are things I've observed anyway. There are probably others, but the way these trauma responses are represented in our system is pretty consistent. I feel like it tells the story of my life: nothing stopped even when I gave up my personhood for it.
can never relate to those posts about mother trauma where people are like "she tried her best and i love her but she accidentally hurt me </3"
shoutout to all my bitches with evil fucking mothers. people with sadistic mothers, sexually abusive mothers, mothers who had no good reason for their abuse, mothers who commit torture, mothers whose crimes would nauseate the average person
because jesus christ this shit quickly devolves into mothers being portrayed as innocent nurturing angels who could only ever harm a child accidentally
30 days of DID thing because my friends are doing it like this even tho I answered some asks already: day 28
28. In your experience, what are the hardest things about having DID in your day to day life?
Just fuckim. living with this much trauma is really hard. Sometimes I wake up and wonder how it is I keep going. I wonder how I was so much stronger as a child as I am now.
I think actually, I really don't mind the parts and their complex relationships, nor the switching or dissociation.. In many ways, I'm not ashamed of having split, and for so long, DID has been the only thing that makes my life able to be lived.
I do feel like I'm in a different world from other people a lot of the time. And that might be the dissociation talking, but it really all comes down to trauma. Everyone else gets to have relationships with their families and I don't. I've cut off most of mine because they're all fucking garbage human beings who hurt me. It's not even a consideration on the table that I had a family once, and thats fine but sometimes it hits pretty hard. I feel really different and far away from my peers, even when they understand me.
I guess I'm putting the blame for my issues where it belongs; trauma and the people who gave it to me. My DID is fucking fine
