đWhy I ULTAmately Quitđ
I always asked God to show me my purpose, what talent have I been blessed with? I always knew it had something along the lines of creativity, just didn't know what exactly. He told me to look a little deeper and see what it is I'm most passionate about. It was beauty, makeup to be exact! I took heed to that calling and TheSunKissedBarbs was born! With the intentions of becoming a budding MUA, landing a job at Ulta and all the benefits and being amongst other MUAs, Ulta was the IDEAL place to work. That wasn't the case for me.... This is in no intention to bash or dishonor Ulta in anyway. I still love this store the same as I have before. When going into the interview, I was beyond excited and literally thought, if I was to get this job, soo much would be lifted off my shoulders, however I did not think it would cause me so much stress. My first day at Ulta, I felt out of place and overly exhausted. I brushed it off as normal because it was my first day at a new job. Each day, week, shift, I felt more and more down and out. My spirit wasn't sitting right, I was growing mean and grouchy by the day, my personality just wasn't shining brightly as it could. Every day I had to come in, it always seemed like I had a little rain cloud above me. I would literally fight with myself to pick up my head before walking in and coach me to remain positive. It was indeed a struggle. My interpersonal skills were shot, i hated having to talk to people and always tried to isolate myself. I was frustrated with the job, management, overall I came to just REALLY hate it there. I hated it soo bad that I started to hate makeup. Say what!? Went days without wearing makeup, even though it was kind of apart of the dress code. The environment was just so negative to me my spirit just could not take it. *see "I'm Hearing His Voice."* It came to a point I resented every reason why I was there. I resented everything I loved. I resented my passion for all things beauty, I resented TheSunKissedBarbs. I just couldn't believe that I would HATE a job that I was dying to have. It took every little bit of me to hold on to that job as long as I could for the many benefits I could reap with my MUA goals, but I ULTAmately quit. I thought I would regret it but, it was the best decision I ever made. Right upon quitting, I felt myself becoming more lively and noticeably less depressed. Ulta taught me a lot within the few months I worked for them. I learned to be still and listen to yourself and understand that what you think is for you is not always meant for you.
