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for sunsun (rps)

[sunsunies]

my take on “sun fell first and hoon fell harder”, but in platonic way:

Around the end of iland, Sunoo witnessed Sunghoon’s fragile side for the first time when he cried, reading a letter from his parent.

Sunghoon, a normal teenager in a harsh and stressful survival show, he might be doubting his choice of leaving figure skating, wondering if his parents, and he himself, are proud of his own decision in pursuing as idol career.

Sunoo, who had always tried to get closer to Sunghoon because he was handsome and sunghoon recommended Sunoo when they’re deciding parts, realized then that Sunghoon is just a normal boy like he is, maybe with more anxieties than he thought he had, plus the fact that unlike Sunoo who joined many extracurricular activities and has many friends, Sunghoon couldn’t spend his youth like normal teenagers do.

So he made it his secret mission to make sure Sunghoon is enjoying his idol life after debut: being all clingy and always entertains him by constantly bickering.

“And even if we’ve gotten closer, I want to get much much closer with you, so I absolutely will never give up and run, understood?” - Sunoo, 2020

Two years have passed, and he observed how Sunghoon is a lot more comfortable in expressing himself, letting himself loose and has completely moved on from his first love that is skating.

This explains how now Sunoo no longer feels the need to crave for his attention, no need to entertain him with childish bickering again, and he chose to subtly watch him over with a tender smile behind his back. Ending his ‘happy crush’ phase.

… which left Sunghoon questioning many things. And now it’s Sunghoon who keeps stealing glances at him (as if he didn’t already!), wondering what’s inside Sunoo’s mind.

[sunsunies]

[eatcerealwrites]

I See Love; formerly a Twitter thread AU

Sunghoon's entire life's been a lie. Sunoo is apparently dating someone (was dating someone) for two years and he had no idea—he only found out when his group mate broke up with said boyfriend and is going through the wringer because of it.

The revelation is hard on Sunghoon, yes, but the realization of his feelings for Sunoo at the same time might just be harder.

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 |

[eatcerealwrites]

Dive into you

"It's burdensome," Sunghoon finally gets out, equally relieved at voicing out what's been on his mind for weeks and terrified by the reaction of the boy in front of him at the harsh words. 

"What is, hyung?" a tremulous voice asks him needlessly. 

Sunghoon almost backs off, insists to the other to forget it, but he steels his resolve. It's for the best.

"Your feelings for me," he says, voice ringing painful in the silence of the practice room. "It's burdensome for me that you have feelings for me."

He expects the boy in front of him to protest loudly, to stammer nervously, to shyly look away at Sunghoon's accusations, but he does none of those things.

Instead, he holds Sunghoon's gaze unwaveringly, eyes glittering under the LED lights. 

It takes a moment for him to realize that the shine in his eyes are unshed tears and not their natural light hue. 

When the other doesn't say anything, Sunghoon balks.

He had expected a fight back, he had come up with all these logical arguments as to why both needed this thing between them to stop. He is not sure what to say now.

"W-we," he starts, voice catching in his throat embarrassingly, "we are in the part 2 of this survival show. We need to focus on getting better and better every day. Our singing, our dancing, our performance — they have to be better than the rest of the remaining contestants or we won't make the cut for debut. You know this, right?"

Silence. Sunghoon is growing frustrated. At himself, at the situation, but more so at the boy in front of him.

"We can't be wasting time in things like these," he chides, gesturing abstractly with his hands. "You understand, right?"

A baleful blink of those eyes that have followed him everywhere lately is all he gets.

"We are going to work hard," he persists, "and make it to the final line up, you and I, and then we'll look back to this and realize that we did the right thing by putting this to rest."

"You," the other boy finally says after a long pause, "want me to stop?"

Something deflates inside of Sunghoon's chest. He thinks it's relief.

"Yes. I want you to stop, Kim Sunoo. Please stop liking me."

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A lightning-quick tear streaks down Sunoo's cheek and he shuts his eyes tightly, long eyelashes trembling. 

The sight strikes Sunghoon terribly; he does feel sorry, after all, but he needs to nip this on the bud for both their sakes.

Sunoo spends a lot of time around Sunghoon, bickering with him, yanking stories from him that he wouldn't have shared otherwise, getting ready for the day next to him on the bathroom mirror, sharing both meals and exhausted smiles after a full day of practice — and Sunghoon is increasingly spending more and more time of his day thinking about this than he should. 

That is his sign to put a stop to this budding thing that, Sunghoon thinks resentfully, Sunoo took care to coax all on his own when he decided to approach him that fateful day and tell him that he wanted to be closer to him like Jake was.  

Sunoo wetly shudders and jerks his head in an approximation of a nod before all but running out of the practice room. 

Sunghoon does everything in his power to keep his hand from reaching out and squeezing Sunoo's shoulder consolingly or something equally terrible.

When he'd told Sunoo to meet him in this practice room after lights out during dinner, he'd known there was no turning back after that. Things could potentially be awkward between them for a while, but time would surely take care of soothing any lingering hurt away.

Sunghoon has to believe that or else he could've just ruined any sort of relationship with Sunoo for the foreseeable future, and that's not what Sunghoon wants at all. 

Sleep doesn't come easily to him that night. Being in the right feels everything but right.

[eatcerealwrites]

When he opens his eyes the next morning, very much against his will, he has a peaceful few moments where he doesn't recall what happened last night until reality cruelly crashes down on him like a ton of bricks. 

He forces himself out of bed and shuffles groggily to the restroom. It takes him a moment to realize that he's looking for a certain someone amongst the boys still loitering in front of the mirror before he shakes himself.

Hurrying to get ready so he can catch a quick bite before he's required to be at the practice room in seven minutes, he bursts into the open dining room and kitchen area and unfortunately makes eye contact with Sunoo first thing. 

The other looks at him paralyzed for a second before abruptly standing up, stool almost toppling over. That catches the others' attention, asking him what's wrong. He mutely tells them something, too quietly for Sunghoon to hear, and briskly leaves the room through the other door; Sunghoon is still standing stiffly there before Heeseung prods him, waving a granola bar in his face.

Sunghoon swallows the lump in his throat and accepts it. He had known this would happen, yet it's still awkward. He berates the small part inside of himself that is hurt at Sunoo avoiding him especially since he is the one that (kind of sort of maybe) told Sunoo to do just that, so he has no right to feel this way.

He wonders how dance practice is going to go if this is how they're going to be acting around each other.

He can't help but seek the younger out with his eyes once they're in the practice room—thankfully a different one than yesterday's. He's already warming up next to Jay, the other murmuring something to him. Sunghoon can see Sunoo's expression in the mirror; he looks gaunt, lips unnaturally curled down. 

He doesn't expect the other to suddenly lift his eyes up and find Sunghoon's in the mirror. Once again, they're paralyzed at the sight of one another.

It is Sunoo who once again breaks the stare down, busily tying his shoelaces with his head lowered. Sunghoon starts his warm ups in silence, the distance between them like a gaping chasm.

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It is surprisingly easy, Sunghoon thinks as the day goes on, for Sunoo to ignore Sunghoon despite being in the same room, covered in mirrors, and being part of the same performance team. 

He doesn't look in Sunghoon's direction once for the entire ten hours they push through the grueling choreography, and when they are allowed to take a break, he chooses to leave the room instead of collapsing on the floor like the rest of them. 

No one's commented on Sunoo's strange behavior yet, despite it being so obvious to Sunghoon. When they tiredly drag themselves to dinner, Sunoo snags an apple and heads out of the kitchen without a word.

"Sunoo, aren't you eating anything else?" Geonu yells after Sunoo, who's almost out of the room. He half-turns his face and throws them a tepid smile, waving the apple in his hand. 

"I'm not that hungry," he blithely declares. "I'll take this apple so i can go talk to my sister for a bit."

"Don't forget you're on dish washing duty today," K threatens lightly, though not jokingly. 

Sunoo agrees faintly and leaves, the darkened corridor beyond the kitchen swallowing him up whole.

They all resume their assigned dinner activities, chattering and jostling each other here and there as they prepare and eat dinner.

Sunghoon also happens to be on dish washing duty today. He dreads having to share the space with the other after the day they just had.

He can barely eat before he gives up, happily giving up his portion to Jake and Jay. They enthusiastically dig in as he silently lets the others' conversations wash over him. He's usually one of the more quiet in the bunch, so he's not expected to talk much.

It may be his imagination, but everyone else seems kind of muted today as well.

Finner ends and there's still no sign of Sunoo. Sunghoon resigns himself to having to wash all the dishes and pans on his own when Yang Jungwon suddenly appears next to him, putting on the rubber washing gloves seriously.

"Uh, it's Sunoo's turn to wash the dishes with me, not you," he points out intelligently.

"I know," Jungwon says simply, taking the plate Sunghoon had clutched in his hand. "i'm taking over his duties for today."

Sunghoon simply ohhs, silently scrubbing and rinsing while Jungwon dries and stacks the clean dishes. Sunghoon's head is buzzing with thoughts, resembling a frenzied beehive. He can't get Sunoo's despondent expression out of his mind.

They perfunctorily put away the dishes and are free to do whatever it is they do after dinner.

Sunghoon usually lets Jay tug him back to the practice room, but he is not in the mood today. As he walks to his room, he can't help but slow his pace when he spots an unmoving shape in one of the beds. 

It's Sunoo's bed. Sunghoon looks at the time; it's barely eight o'clock. He bites his lip but continues on to his own room where he throws himself on the bed to stare at the ceiling. 

It stings, this silence between them. If Sunghoon could fast forward things to where they can exchange words as colleagues, dare he say even friends, he would. 

Sunghoon knows he's going to debut, and he thinks Sunoo is too. He reminds himself that his words were a long-term investment in their relationship, and that any initial hurt would eventually pass. Sunoo would thank him later.

With a troubled heart that refuses to be soothed, Sunghoon closes his eyes. The last thing he sees before he loses consciousness is Sunoo's tear-stained face from last night. His own eyes sting.

[bellflowergender]

enhypen's angel ♡

[jebiwons-deactivated20230505]

sunsun food buddies 🥙

[jebiwons-deactivated20230505]

im fking crying ?? i waited for a sunsun moment like this at every concert ♡ finallyy

sunsunaa lloren conmigo

[tristezabsoluta]

ㅤㅤ𝖤 𝖾𝗎 𝖿𝗂𝗊𝗎𝖾𝗂 𝖺𝗊𝗎𝗂 𝖺 𝗉𝗋𝗈𝖼𝗎𝗋𝖺𝗋, 𝗆𝗈𝗍𝗂𝗏𝗈𝗌 𝗊𝗎𝖾 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍𝗂𝖿𝗂𝖼𝖺𝗌𝗌𝖾𝗆 . . .

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ𝘈 𝘵𝘶𝘢 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘢 .

[frillyladyinwaiting-deactivated]

pink and blue tangerines

The music in his ears suddenly feels so painfully loud. Sunghoon stumbles to tug the earphones out of his ears by the wires, using way too much force than intended. He blinks at the boy as his arms hang uselessly at his sides.

Wow. Who are you?

or; a paint-splattered kim sunoo stuns park sunghoon beyond belief so he paints him for an art assignment.

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

AAAAAAA!!!! WHY! This is too good 😭 AUGH MY HEART, this fic gave me heart palpitations.

(If the author would like this post taken down, contact me!)

[sunsunies]

"one of the reasons why people look at certain someone when laughing is because they admire that person and wish to please them."

[parksnghoon]

his smile<3

[sunsunies]

[jebiwons-deactivated20230505]

😭❤

[dreamofbona]

sunghoon: did it hurt? sunoo: what? sunghoon: did it hurt? sunoo: did what hurt? sunghoon: when you fell from heaven? sunoo: sunoo: did you just call me satan?

[leeheeseunq]

＼(≧▽≦)／

[heeseunq]

sunghoon ♡ 230128 live

[sunsunies]