And you're asleep. Exactly a year ago, I felt robbed. I was robbed of the experience of labor and holding you for the first few seconds of your life. My 9 months was summarized with a cut in my tummy which is a reminder of your former home, how it used to be your safe zone. I have no recollection of the actual birth just the fact that I was supposed to wait for your dad before going to the hospital. Next thing I knew, I woke up choking since I have a tube down my throat. After bring me to the room, I cried knowing that you are in the NICU. I didn't get to see you immediately with my situation. I was left with photos and videos when Daddy visits you. After sometime when I first laid my eyes on you and I was able to touch you, it was love. The small smile, you being stretchy, it made me complete. I forgot all the sadness I felt for the first few_ days. I love you Lucas. More than you'll ever know. Happy birthday! #BabyBurrito #DanielLucas