bonybunny|5'2|cw:110 lb|gw:66 lb|

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Sunday: breakfast: fasting for 14 hours. snack: lunch: snack: dinner: exercise: total calories: I didn't count calories but it wasn't much, I finally ate guilt free, must be because I started my period.

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Saturday: breakfast: fasting for 18 hours. snack: lunch: casserole (soup type) (246 kcal). snack: kiwi + yogurt + oatmeal (216 kcal). supper: bread+ milk+ bitter chocolate+ oatmeal+ bread+ butter+ manjar+ cake (865 kcal). exercise: none or rather I don't remember. total calories: 1327.

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friday: breakfast: nothing. snack: nothing. lunch: rigati (pasta)+ lactose-free cream+ grilled chicken+ butter (466 kcal). snack: kiwi (46 kcal). dinner: yogurt+ cereal (136 kcal). exercise: 15 minutes or 30. total calories: 648.

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Thursday: breakfast: fasting for 13 hours. snack: lunch: snack: dinner: exercise: 30 minutes. total calories: binge eating.

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𝖂𝖊𝖉𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖉𝖆𝖞:

𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖐𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙: 1/2 𝖈𝖚𝖕 𝖈𝖍𝖔𝖈𝖔𝖑𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖒𝖎𝖑𝖐+ 10𝖌 𝖔𝖆𝖙𝖒𝖊𝖆𝖑+ 6 𝖈𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖊𝖘 (314 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖓𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌.

𝖑𝖚𝖓𝖈𝖍: 1 𝖈𝖚𝖕 𝖔𝖋 𝖒𝖆𝖘𝖍𝖊𝖉 𝖕𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖙𝖔𝖊𝖘+ 100𝖌 𝖔𝖋 𝖇𝖊𝖊𝖋 𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖆𝖐+ 𝖙𝖔𝖒𝖆𝖙𝖔 (500 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 1 𝖈𝖚𝖕 𝖔𝖋 𝖕𝖔𝖜𝖉𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖉 𝖒𝖎𝖑𝖐+ 15𝖌 𝖔𝖋 𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖑+ 1/2 𝖈𝖚𝖕 𝖔𝖋 𝖕𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖙𝖔 𝖈𝖍𝖎𝖕𝖘+ 4 𝖈𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖊𝖘+ 1 𝖙𝖆𝖇𝖑𝖊𝖘𝖕𝖔𝖔𝖓 𝖔𝖋 𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖏𝖆𝖗 (571 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖗: 1 𝖑𝖆𝖗𝖌𝖊 𝖈𝖍𝖔𝖈𝖔𝖑𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖊𝖌𝖌+ 1 𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖐𝖊𝖐𝖊𝖐𝖊 (272 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖊𝖝𝖊𝖗𝖈𝖎𝖘𝖊 𝖙𝖎𝖒𝖊: 1 𝖍 30 𝖒. 𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑 𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖘: 1657.

𝕴 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞 𝖙𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖌𝖍𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖘 𝖑𝖎𝖙𝖙𝖑𝖊 𝖇𝖎𝖓𝖌𝖊 𝖜𝖆𝖘 𝖌𝖔𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖔 𝖇𝖊 𝖇𝖎𝖌𝖌𝖊𝖗, 𝕴 𝖋𝖊𝖊𝖑 𝖇𝖆𝖉 𝖊𝖒𝖔𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞, 𝖞𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖗𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝕴 𝖜𝖊𝖓𝖙 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖊𝖊 𝖒𝖞 𝖇𝖊𝖘𝖙 𝖋𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉 𝖕𝖑𝖆𝖞 𝖇𝖆𝖘𝖐𝖊𝖙𝖇𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖛𝖔𝖑𝖑𝖊𝖞𝖇𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖌𝖚𝖞 𝕴 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊, 𝖎𝖙𝖊 𝖜𝖆𝖘 𝖓𝖔𝖙 𝖇𝖆𝖉, 𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝖆𝖘 𝖒𝖞 𝖋𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉 𝖜𝖆𝖘 𝖇𝖆𝖉 𝖊𝖒𝖔𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞, 𝕴 𝖜𝖆𝖘 𝖜𝖆𝖙𝖈𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖍𝖎𝖒 𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖙𝖎𝖒𝖊, 𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝖆𝖙 𝖔𝖓𝖊 𝖕𝖔𝖎𝖓𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖌𝖚𝖞 𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖙𝖊𝖉 𝖙𝖆𝖑𝖐𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖔 𝖍𝖎𝖘 𝖋𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉 𝖆𝖓𝖉𝕴 𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖉 𝖍𝖎𝖒 𝖘𝖆𝖞𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖘𝖆𝖞𝖎𝖓𝖌 "𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖘𝖍𝖊 𝖌𝖗𝖊𝖊𝖙𝖊𝖉 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖘𝖆𝖒𝖊 𝖜𝖆𝖞 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝖔𝖚𝖙𝖘𝖎𝖉𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖍𝖎𝖌𝖍 𝖘𝖈𝖍𝖔𝖔𝖑? "𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕴 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖐 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖞 𝖜𝖊𝖗𝖊 𝖙𝖆𝖑𝖐𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖆𝖇𝖔𝖚𝖙 𝖍𝖔𝖜 𝖍𝖊 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊𝖘 𝖆 𝖌𝖎𝖗𝖑 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖍𝖊 𝖌𝖔𝖙 𝖙𝖔𝖌𝖊𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖍𝖊𝖗, 𝖒𝖆𝖞𝖇𝖊 𝕴'𝖒 𝖏𝖚𝖒𝖕𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖔 𝖈𝖔𝖓𝖈𝖑𝖚𝖘𝖎𝖔𝖓𝖘, 𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝖒𝖞 𝖆𝖓𝖝𝖎𝖔𝖚𝖘 𝖇𝖗𝖆𝖎𝖓 𝖎𝖘 𝖙𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖒𝖊 "𝖞𝖔𝖚'𝖗𝖊 𝖆𝖓 𝖎𝖉𝖎𝖔𝖙 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖐𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖍𝖊 𝖒𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚" 𝖎𝖙'𝖘 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊 𝖒𝖞 𝖆𝖓𝖝𝖎𝖊𝖙𝖞 𝖈𝖔𝖚𝖕𝖑𝖊𝖉 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖒𝖞 𝖑𝖔𝖜 𝖘𝖊𝖑𝖋-𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖊𝖒.

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𝕿𝖚𝖊𝖘𝖉𝖆𝖞:

𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖐𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙: 1 𝖌𝖑𝖆𝖘𝖘 𝖔𝖋 𝖑𝖆𝖈𝖙𝖔𝖘𝖊-𝖋𝖗𝖊𝖊 𝖒𝖎𝖑𝖐+ 1 𝖙𝖆𝖇𝖑𝖊𝖘𝖕𝖔𝖔𝖓 𝖔𝖋 𝖇𝖎𝖙𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝖈𝖔𝖈𝖔𝖆 (84 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝕾𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖑𝖆𝖗𝖌𝖊 𝖈𝖍𝖔𝖈𝖔𝖑𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖊𝖌𝖌 (157 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖑𝖚𝖓𝖈𝖍: 1 𝖕𝖑𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖔𝖋 𝖇𝖊𝖆𝖓𝖘+ 𝖓𝖔𝖔𝖉𝖑𝖊𝖘 (434 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖒𝖔𝖓𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝖊𝖓𝖊𝖗𝖌𝖞 𝖚𝖑𝖙𝖗𝖆+ 𝖆 𝖈𝖆𝖐𝖊 𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖊𝖉 𝖕𝖊𝖓𝖌𝖚𝖎𝖓𝖘 (157 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖗: 𝖓𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌.

𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑 𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖘: 834. 𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑 𝖊𝖝𝖊𝖗𝖈𝖎𝖘𝖊: 30 𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖚𝖙𝖊𝖘 𝖕𝖑𝖚𝖘 𝖘𝖔𝖒𝖊 𝖜𝖆𝖑𝖐𝖎𝖓𝖌.

𝕬𝖌𝖆𝖎𝖓 𝕴 𝖜𝖆𝖘 𝖚𝖓𝖆𝖇𝖑𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖆𝖈𝖍𝖎𝖊𝖛𝖊 𝖒𝖞 800 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑 𝖌𝖔𝖆𝖑 𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝖆𝖙 𝖑𝖊𝖆𝖘𝖙 𝕴 𝖉𝖎𝖉𝖓'𝖙 𝖊𝖆𝖙 𝖈𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖊𝖘.

𝕴 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖐 𝖎𝖓𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖆𝖉 𝖔𝖋 𝖍𝖆𝖛𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖆 𝖉𝖆𝖎𝖑𝖞 𝖌𝖔𝖆𝖑 𝕴 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖍𝖆𝖛𝖊 𝖆 𝖜𝖊𝖊𝖐𝖑𝖞 𝖌𝖔𝖆𝖑, 𝕴 𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖑𝖉 𝖊𝖆𝖙 5,600 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑 𝖔𝖗 𝖑𝖊𝖘𝖘 𝖇𝖞 𝕾𝖚𝖓𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑. 𝕾𝖔 𝖋𝖆𝖗 𝕴'𝖛𝖊 𝖊𝖆𝖙𝖊𝖓 1,723.

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my biggest accomplishment is that size xxs shirts (size 0 in the US) still fit me and look baggy <3, also that I can lose 3 cm in a week in my waist by having 4 binges a week. i'm the best B).

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𝕸𝖔𝖓𝖉𝖆𝖞:

𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖐𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙: 14-𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙.

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 1/2 𝖕𝖔𝖗𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖔𝖋 𝖙𝖚𝖓𝖆 + 𝖆 𝖘𝖑𝖎𝖈𝖊 𝖔𝖋 𝖆𝖛𝖔𝖈𝖆𝖉𝖔 (43 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖑𝖚𝖓𝖈𝖍: 1 𝖕𝖑𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖔𝖋 𝖇𝖊𝖆𝖓𝖘 + 𝖓𝖔𝖔𝖉𝖑𝖊𝖘 (434 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝕾𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 2 𝖐𝖎𝖜𝖎𝖘 (93 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑). 𝕯𝖎𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖗: 1 𝖌𝖑𝖆𝖘𝖘 𝖔𝖋 𝖒𝖎𝖑𝖐 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖟𝖊𝖗𝖔 𝖑𝖆𝖈𝖙𝖔 𝖈𝖍𝖔𝖈𝖔𝖑𝖆𝖙𝖊 + 1/4 𝖔𝖋 𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖙 𝖈𝖗𝖚𝖒𝖇𝖘 + 1 𝖘𝖕𝖔𝖔𝖓𝖋𝖚𝖑 𝖔𝖋 𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖏𝖆𝖗 + 3 𝖈𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖊𝖘 (319 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑 𝖊𝖝𝖊𝖗𝖈𝖎𝖘𝖊: 30 𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖚𝖙𝖊𝖘.                                                                                𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑 𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖘: 889.

𝕴𝖙 𝖜𝖆𝖘 𝖆 𝖌𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝖚𝖓𝖙𝖎𝖑 𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖗 𝖙𝖎𝖒𝖊 𝖚 𝖚, 𝕴 𝖈𝖔𝖚𝖑𝖉𝖓'𝖙 𝖈𝖔𝖓𝖙𝖗𝖔𝖑 𝖒𝖞𝖘𝖊𝖑𝖋 𝖆𝖙 𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕴 𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉 𝖆𝖆𝖆𝖍, 𝖎𝖙'𝖘 𝖇𝖊𝖈𝖆𝖚𝖘𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖊 𝖜𝖆𝖘 𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖏𝖆𝖗 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕴'𝖒 𝖆𝖉𝖉𝖎𝖈𝖙𝖊𝖉 𝖙𝖔 𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖏𝖆𝖗, 𝖎𝖙'𝖘 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖇𝖊𝖘𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖎𝖓 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖔𝖗𝖑𝖉.

𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝖈𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖊𝖘 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖜𝖆𝖘 𝖆 𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑 𝖋𝖆𝖎𝖑𝖚𝖗𝖊, 𝕴 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊 𝖈𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖊𝖘 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖘𝖕𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖐𝖑𝖊𝖘 𝖙𝖔𝖔 𝖒𝖚𝖈𝖍 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖒𝖞 𝖇𝖗𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗 𝖔𝖋𝖋𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖉 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖒 𝖙𝖔 𝖒𝖊, 𝕴 𝖉𝖔𝖓'𝖙 𝖜𝖆𝖓𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖒 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖊𝖊 𝖒𝖊 𝖉𝖎𝖊 𝖜𝖍𝖎𝖑𝖊 𝕴 𝖙𝖗𝖞 𝖙𝖔 𝖑𝖔𝖘𝖊 𝖜𝖊𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙, 𝖇𝖆𝖘𝖎𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞 𝕴 𝖉𝖔𝖓'𝖙 𝖜𝖆𝖓𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖒 𝖙𝖔 𝖍𝖆𝖛𝖊 𝖆𝖓 𝖊𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖉𝖎𝖘𝖔𝖗𝖉𝖊𝖗, 𝖘𝖔 𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗𝖞 𝖘𝖎𝖓𝖌𝖑𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖞 𝖔𝖋𝖋𝖊𝖗 𝖒𝖊 𝕴 𝖊𝖆𝖙 𝖎𝖙 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕴 𝖙𝖗𝖞 𝖓𝖔𝖙 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖊𝖕𝖆𝖗𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖔𝖗 𝖒𝖊𝖆𝖘𝖚𝖗𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖋𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖎𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖓𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖒.

𝕿𝖔𝖒𝖔𝖗𝖗𝖔𝖜 𝕴 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖊𝖆𝖙 𝖑𝖊𝖘𝖘 𝖙𝖔 𝖇𝖆𝖑𝖆𝖓𝖈𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖊 89 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑 𝕴 𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖙𝖔𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝖍𝖉𝖏𝖉𝖆𝖘𝖉, 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖇𝖆𝖉 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖔𝖗 𝖒𝖆𝖞𝖇𝖊 𝖓𝖔𝖙 𝖘𝖔 𝖒𝖚𝖈𝖍 𝖎𝖘 𝖙𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝕴'𝖒 𝖌𝖔𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖊𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖌𝖚𝖞 𝕴 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊, 𝕴'𝖒 𝖊𝖝𝖈𝖎𝖙𝖊𝖉 𝖚////𝖚 𝖎𝖙 𝖌𝖎𝖛𝖊𝖘 𝖒𝖊 𝖆 𝖇𝖎𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝖆 𝖑𝖆𝖚𝖌𝖍 𝖙𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖍𝖊 𝖙𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖘 𝖙𝖔 𝖉𝖎𝖘𝖌𝖚𝖎𝖘𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖍𝖊'𝖘 𝖓𝖔𝖙 𝖊𝖝𝖈𝖎𝖙𝖊𝖉 𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖈𝖆𝖓 𝖙𝖊𝖑𝖑 𝖙𝖔𝖔 𝖒𝖚𝖈𝖍, 𝖍𝖊'𝖘 𝖛𝖊𝖗𝖞 𝖍𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖘𝖔𝖒𝖊, 𝖘𝖔𝖗𝖗𝖞 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖈𝖍𝖊𝖊𝖘𝖎𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖘 <3.

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my new goal for the month:

-not to binge, maybe 1 a week, but I will try to control myself  u u.

-not to eat cookies, too much sugar.

-not to eat things with added sugar, i.e. candy or chocolates (not counting bitter cocoa, that's good for health).

-not to drink fancy drinks, only water.

-avoid eating fried things, my mom cooks so I should only eat them u u.

-calorie limit per day will be 800 kcal.

-30 minutes of exercise minimum per day during the first week, the second week already 1 hour or more.

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𝕾𝖆𝖙𝖚𝖗𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕾𝖚𝖓𝖉𝖆𝖞:

𝖇𝖊𝖎𝖓𝖌𝖊 𝖊𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌~

I probably gained weight instead of losing it.

Anyway, starting tomorrow I can exercise~, not much, but at the very least I'm going to do 30 minutes of weights or cardio.

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𝖋𝖗𝖎𝖉𝖆𝖞:

𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖐𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙: 𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖔𝖗 17 𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖘.

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖗𝖔𝖈𝖐𝖑𝖊𝖙 𝖗𝖔𝖑𝖑𝖘 + 𝖈𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖊𝖘 (125 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖑𝖚𝖓𝖈𝖍: 𝖕𝖎𝖓o 𝖊𝖒𝖕𝖆𝖓𝖆𝖉𝖆 (284 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖞𝖔𝖌𝖚𝖗𝖙 + 𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖑 (104 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖗: 𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖏𝖆𝖗𝖆𝖙𝖊+ 𝖗𝖔𝖈𝖐𝖑𝖊𝖙𝖘 (244 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑 𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖘: 857.

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𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖐𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙: 𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖔𝖗 17 𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖘.

𝖌𝖚𝖊𝖘𝖘 𝖜𝖍𝖆𝖙, 𝖇𝖎𝖓𝖌𝖊 𝖊𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌.

𝖙𝖍𝖆𝖙'𝖘 𝖎𝖙, 𝖌𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖓𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙.

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𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖐𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙: 𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖔𝖗 17 𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖘.

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖍𝖆𝖑𝖋 𝖆𝖓 𝖔𝖗𝖆𝖓𝖌𝖊 + 𝖈𝖆𝖐𝖊. (118 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑)

𝖑𝖚𝖓𝖈𝖍: 𝖓𝖔𝖔𝖉𝖑𝖊𝖘+ 𝖇𝖔𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖊 𝖘𝖆𝖚𝖈𝖊. (478 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑)

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖈𝖆𝖐𝖊+ 𝖘𝖜𝖊𝖊𝖙𝖘. (201 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑)

𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖗: 𝖙𝖚𝖓𝖆 + 𝖆𝖛𝖔𝖈𝖆𝖉𝖔 + 𝖕𝖎𝖓𝖊 𝖊𝖒𝖕𝖆𝖓𝖆𝖉𝖆 + 𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖑 𝖇𝖆𝖗. (336 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑)

𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑 𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖘: 1133.

𝕴 𝖉𝖎𝖉 𝖆 𝖑𝖎𝖙𝖙𝖑𝖊 𝖊𝖝𝖊𝖗𝖈𝖎𝖘𝖊 𝖙𝖔𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝖜𝖍𝖊𝖓 𝕴 𝖜𝖊𝖓𝖙 𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖕𝖕𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖒𝖞 𝖇𝖎𝖔 𝖒𝖔𝖒.

𝕴 𝖈𝖆𝖓'𝖙 𝖇𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖊𝖛𝖊 𝕴 𝖒𝖆𝖉𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖌𝖚𝖞 𝕴 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊 𝖋𝖊𝖊𝖑 𝖇𝖆𝖉 𝖇𝖊𝖈𝖆𝖚𝖘𝖊 𝕴'𝖒 𝖆𝖋𝖗𝖆𝖎𝖉 𝖔𝖋 𝖓𝖊𝖜 𝖕𝖊𝖔𝖕𝖑𝖊 𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖎𝖓𝖙𝖔 𝖒𝖞 𝖑𝖎𝖋𝖊, 𝖎𝖙'𝖘 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊...𝖜𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖋𝖚𝖈𝖐, 𝖉𝖔 𝕴 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊 𝖍𝖎𝖒 𝖔𝖗 𝖓𝖔𝖙, 𝕴 𝖆𝖑𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖞 𝖆𝖕𝖔𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖎𝖟𝖊𝖉 𝖙𝖔 𝖍𝖎𝖒, 𝕴 𝖍𝖔𝖕𝖊 𝕴 𝖉𝖎𝖉𝖓'𝖙 𝖒𝖆𝖐𝖊 𝖍𝖎𝖒 𝖋𝖊𝖊𝖑 𝖘𝖔 𝖇𝖆𝖉 :(.

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I am back

𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖐𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙: 𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖔𝖗 17 𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖘, 𝖆𝖑𝖒𝖔𝖘𝖙 18.

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖓𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌.

𝖑𝖚𝖓𝖈𝖍: 𝖇𝖊𝖆𝖓𝖘 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖓𝖔𝖔𝖉𝖑𝖊𝖘 (434 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖔𝖗𝖊𝖔𝖘 𝖈𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖊𝖘+ 𝖈𝖚𝖕𝖈𝖆𝖐𝖊𝖘+ 𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖑 𝖇𝖆𝖗+ 𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖑 (364 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖗: 𝖙𝖚𝖓𝖆+ 𝖆𝖛𝖔𝖈𝖆𝖉𝖔+ 𝖞𝖔𝖌𝖚𝖗𝖙+ 𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖑+ 𝖈𝖗𝖚𝖒𝖇𝖑𝖊𝖘𝖘 𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉 (272 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑 𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖘: 1070.

𝖊𝖝𝖊𝖗𝖈𝖎𝖘𝖊: 0.

𝖌𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖓𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙 𝖇𝖔𝖓𝖞 𝖇𝖎𝖙𝖈𝖍𝖊𝖘, 𝕴'𝖒 𝖇𝖆𝖈𝖐, 𝖉𝖎𝖉 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖒𝖎𝖘𝖘 𝖒𝖊.

𝖌𝖚𝖊𝖘𝖘 𝖜𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖆𝖘𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖑𝖊 𝖍𝖆𝖉 8 𝖉𝖆𝖞𝖘 𝖔𝖋 𝖇𝖎𝖓𝖌𝖊 𝖊𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖓𝖔𝖜 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖐𝖘 𝖎𝖓 𝖙𝖜𝖔 𝖜𝖊𝖊𝖐𝖘 𝖍𝖊 𝖋𝖎𝖝𝖊𝖘 𝖎𝖙, 𝖙𝖍𝖆𝖙'𝖘 𝖗𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙, 𝖒𝖊. 𝕾𝖔...𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖊 𝖜𝖊 𝖌𝖔, 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖇𝖆𝖉 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖎𝖘 𝕴 𝖈𝖆𝖓'𝖙 𝖉𝖔 𝖘𝖕𝖔𝖗𝖙𝖘 𝖋𝖔𝖗 1 𝖒𝖔𝖓𝖙𝖍 𝖇𝖊𝖈𝖆𝖚𝖘𝖊 𝕴'𝖒 𝖆𝖓 𝖎𝖉𝖎𝖔𝖙 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕴 𝖘𝖕𝖗𝖆𝖎𝖓𝖊𝖉 𝖒𝖞 𝖑𝖊𝖌, 𝕴'𝖒 𝖔𝖚𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖈𝖍𝖆𝖒𝖕𝖎𝖔𝖓𝖘𝖍𝖎𝖕 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖋𝖆𝖙. 𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖌𝖚𝖞𝖘 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖐 𝕴'𝖒 𝖌𝖔𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖙𝖔𝖕? 𝖜𝖊𝖑𝖑 𝖓𝖔, 𝕴'𝖒 𝖌𝖔𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖔 𝖜𝖔𝖗𝖐 𝖔𝖚𝖙 𝖎𝖓 𝖍𝖎𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖌.

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things I would like to say on top of a mountain without anyone actually hearing but everyone could hear me:

¤¸¸.•´¯`•¸¸.•..>> "I wish I didn't have this eating disorder." "I wish my self-esteem didn't depend on my grades." "I wish I could see my parents again" "I wish I didn't have to be the mother of my siblings." "I want to go into make-up or modeling". "I hate not knowing what I look like. "I don't want to hate myself for something that was not my fault, but my ex-boyfriend's". "I wish I didn't have anxiety" "I would like to be good at the sport I like". "I want to have a normal relationship where I am treated well and that is long lasting." "I want to fulfill my dream of leaving home and never seeing my family again". <<..•.¸¸•´¯`•.¸¸¤

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𝖘𝖚𝖓𝖉𝖆𝖞: 𝖑𝖆𝖘𝖙 𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝖋𝖎𝖓𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞. 𝖚 𝖚

𝖇𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖐𝖋𝖆𝖘𝖙: 𝖆𝖕𝖕𝖗𝖔𝖝𝖎𝖒𝖆𝖙𝖊𝖑𝖞 18 𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖘.

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖈𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖊𝖘 (48𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖑𝖚𝖓𝖈𝖍: 𝖗𝖎𝖈𝖊 + 𝖋𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖉 𝖋𝖎𝖘𝖍 (465 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖈𝖐: 𝖈𝖍𝖔𝖈𝖔𝖑𝖆𝖙𝖊 𝖎𝖈𝖊 𝖈𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖒 (112 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝕯𝖎𝖓𝖓𝖊𝖗: 𝖆𝖛𝖔𝖈𝖆𝖉𝖔 + 𝖙𝖚𝖓𝖆 + 𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖑 𝖇𝖆𝖗 (109 𝖐𝖈𝖆𝖑).

𝖙𝖔𝖙𝖆𝖑 𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖘: 734.

𝖊𝖝𝖊𝖗𝖈𝖎𝖘𝖊 𝖙𝖎𝖒𝖊: 1 𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖗.

𝕿𝖔𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝖜𝖆𝖘 𝖆𝖓 𝖊𝖆𝖘𝖞 𝖉𝖆𝖞, 𝖕𝖍𝖞𝖘𝖎𝖈𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞 𝕴 𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖐 𝖇𝖊𝖙𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝕴 𝖉𝖔𝖓'𝖙 𝖋𝖊𝖊𝖑 𝖛𝖊𝖗𝖞 𝖌𝖔𝖔𝖉, 𝕴 𝖋𝖊𝖑𝖙 𝖙𝖎𝖗𝖊𝖉 𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖉𝖆𝖞.

𝕿𝖔𝖒𝖔𝖗𝖗𝖔𝖜 𝖎𝖘 𝖋𝖎𝖓𝖆𝖑𝖑𝖞 𝖕𝖎𝖈𝖙𝖚𝖗𝖊 𝖉𝖆𝖞, 𝕴 𝖜𝖆𝖘 𝖕𝖑𝖆𝖓𝖓𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖔 𝖚𝖕𝖑𝖔𝖆𝖉 𝖎𝖙...𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝕴'𝖒 𝖓𝖔𝖙 𝖙𝖔𝖔 𝖘𝖚𝖗𝖊, 𝖒𝖆𝖞𝖇𝖊 𝕴 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑.

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Seek the right help:

☆꧁I think if my doctors saw what I post and the apps on my cell phone they wouldn't have sent me home so fast with the disorder, my nutritionist said "you just have anorexic attitudes, but since you are not underweight, everything is fine, just go to the psychologist". Meanwhile the psychologist "We are going to send child services to your house to check on you", yes thank you very much, they never came and my aunt ended up breaking my tooth when I told her they were spoiling my siblings, thankful that my biological mom dumped me with my grandmother, she was really a mother and my grandfather my father, I am very thankful that they raised me.

You know...that nutritionist was a jerk, when I told her I got to 77 pounds she said, but now you're fine with 110 meanwhile I in my head .... I came here for her to help me not to relapse back into the disorder, I thank her for being so shitty.꧂☆