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❛ at some point in your career, you're going to kill someone. and i hope for your sake there's a doctor out there that still believes in you when you do. ❜

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anyway folks. i’m still here i’m just #exhausted. thanks for your patience.

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jonathan anderson | childhealcr‌

semi plotted starter for @surgeontm !

dressed in a nice navy blue dress shirt and tie, a quick pace exits the elevator that brought him down from the fifth floor of the hotel. it was day one of the pediatric surgery congress. held in Houston this year, he had arrived on a plane from California late the night before, straight after a long day in surgery. a coffee cup is grasped in his other hand as he signs in at the front table. The attendant hands his name identification badge over which is immediately clipped to his chest pocket. upon walking into the overly large room filled with surgeons from all over the world. he knew the opening ceremonies would start soon, so he quickly grabbed the first seat he could find that was open. he sets his bag down in front of him, nodding at the man next to him, in greeting. blue hues glance to his badge, recognizing the short distance from each other’s hospital by the city name. ❝ San Jose? can’t say I’ve ever been there but you’d think I would have been since it takes roughly TWENTY TO TWENTY FIVE MINUTUES to drive. ❞ accented words fall silent.  

he decides to introduce himself. ❝ Doctor Johnathan Anderson, pediatric surgery at Stanford. nice to meet you - ❞ he extended his arm for a handshake, giving the man a small smile. normally he wasn’t so quick to introduce himself. but usually, you made all sorts of new connections at these things, right? and of course, keep up to date with the latest medical & surgical advancements.

unlike a majority of his colleagues, neil only made it to houston a few hours prior to meeting at the building, courtesy of a planned, two hour surgery going awry and keeping him in the operating room for a full thirteen hours. he hadn’t even had time to finish any of the PAPERWORK he’s responsible for, leaving him with work to do on the plane and in any spare time he finds during the conference. ( and as if switching flights last minute, getting no sleep after a thirty hour shift, and leaving paperwork scattered across his hotel room isn’t bad enough, now he has to pump himself full of coffee just to pay attention. ) it’s a shame, really, that he couldn’t have started this conference off on a BETTER foot, because he truly wants to be here.

not just physically, but mentally present.

“neil melendez,” he answers curtly, shaking the other doctor’s hand purely out of courtesy. he’s antsy to get started. go back to his room. get a little bit of work done. go to sleep. he’ll be able to start fresh tomorrow, have a better view on the world and appreciation for where they all are. in this very room are some of the best doctors in the COUNTRY and yet, he still finds the time to be irritated by life’s many disruptions.

“i’m a cardio-thoracic surgeon. and yes, i’m from san jose. except i HAVE taken the drive to stanford. i try and make it a point to know the people around me. it makes our jobs a lot easier when we have resources. that includes the people you know.”

[surgeontm]

❛ Can’t you just thank me and get over it? ❜

“thank you?” he looks up from his padd only to roll his eyes at the wall. she isn’t BETTER than him, if that’s what she thinks. he doesn’t owe her anything. ( he can do his job just fine without her there to hold his hand. this isn’t his first assignment. ) “i had everything under control. i didn’t need you to ASSIST me and i certainly don’t have to thank you for anything.”

neil, you’re being an asshat. | @perankotekru even tho tumblr won’t let me tag you smh

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lexie grey | hrtstrong‌

NEIL   -   @surgeontm​

❛   you’re  new  aren’t  you  ?   ❜      not  that  lexie  should  stand  so  astonished.  for  months  she  had  been  absent.  healing  at  home  from  the  injuries  sustained  from  the  horrific  crash.  her  only  times  of  venturing  outside  to the  hospital  being  for  check  -  up’s  and  physical  therapy.  neither  of  which  brought  her  in  the  locale  of  the  CARDIO  -  THORACIC arm  of  this  ostentatious  hospital.      ❛   or  well  ,  somewhat  new  .  .  .   ❜

“you think i’m new?” a bitter chuckle escapes neil’s lips as the question slips out. her words hadn’t been meant the way he UNDERSTOOD them. she hadn’t been accusing him of being inexperienced with medicine. simply inexperienced with this hospital. “i’ve been a surgeon for a long time, so don’t worry. i know what i’m doing.”

[vaememes]

*    TWILIGHT     FILM     FRANCHISE     PROMPTS   .

TWILIGHT   :

❛ I’d never given much thought to how I would die. ❜

❛ But dying in the place of someone I love seems like a good way to go. ❜

❛ Death is peaceful, easy. Life is harder. ❜

❛ Can’t you just thank me and get over it? ❜

❛ I don’t have the strength to stay away from you anymore. ❜

❛ Everything about me invites you in. My voice, my face, even my smell. ❜

❛ I’m the world’s most dangerous predator. ❜

❛ My family… we’re different from others of our kind. We only hunt animals. ❜

❛ But it’s you, your scent, it’s like a drug to me.   ❜

❛ I leave you alone for two minutes and the wolves descend. ❜

❛ I mean, he just looks at you like you’re something to eat. ❜

❛ Anything you need, tour guide, lunch date, shoulder to cry on? ❜

❛ I’m really kind of the suffer-in-silence type. ❜

❛ You’re not gonna let this go, are you? ❜

❛ I had an adrenaline rush. It’s very common. You can Google it. ❜

❛ I’m sorry if I’m being rude to you all the time, I just think it’s the best way. ❜

❛ You know, your mood swings are kind of giving me whiplash. ❜

❛ It’s always the same inane questions: “Who are you?” ❜

❛ If you’d just let the venom spread, I could be like you right now. ❜

❛ I’m dying, already. Every second I get closer, older. ❜

❛ You’re alone, ‘cause you’re faster than the others. But not stronger. ❜

❛ Is it not enough, just to have a long and happy life with me? ❜

❛ You don’t know what you’re saying. You don’t want this.  ❜

❛ What did you expect, coffins and dungeons and moats? ❜

NEW  MOON   :    

❛ It’s still my birthday, can I ask for one thing? Kiss me.  ❜

❛ Is it possible that there isn’t anything sane or normal at all? ❜

❛ I’m alright, until I’m alone. And lately that’s all the time. ❜

❛ So, please. Don’t make me choose. Cause it’ll be him. ❜

❛ You don’t know a thing about his soul. ❜

❛ If this is about my soul, take it! I don’t want it without you. ❜

❛ You can’t trust vampires…trust me. ❜

❛ Why are you doing this to me? You know what this means. ❜

❛ It’s my job to protect you. From everyone…except my sister. ❜

❛ Maybe you need to go to the hospital. Do you want me to put you in a hospital? ❜

❛ I’m sorry. I’m really sorry to both of you, for how I’ve acted. ❜

❛ But this isn’t the life I would’ve chosen, for myself. ❜

❛ Like, why are there that many zombie movies anyway? ❜

❛ I’ve done it again…I keep breaking my promise. ❜

❛ What happened to you? Whats wro— Hey! What happened? ❜

❛ Are you even old enough to see this movie? I mean, without adult supervision? ❜

❛ Oh, so you’re the vampire girl. ❜

❛ You can’t break up with me. I mean— I mean you’re my best friend. ❜

❛ I know that I’ve been…hurting you. Its—its killing me, it kills me! ❜

❛ You know exactly what I’m talking about. ❜

❛ But if you want somebody to blame, how about those filthy bloodsuckers you love?  ❜

❛ Although I was surprised you even called at all. ❜

❛ I wish there had been someone to vote no for me. ❜

❛ I’m really grateful that you were brave enough to go and save my brother. ❜

ECLIPSE   :

❛ I know the consequences of the choice you’re making. ❜

❛ I promise to love you every moment of forever. ❜

❛ Can you at least attempt to control your thoughts? ❜

❛ If I asked you to stay in the car, would you? ❜

❛ You have to consider that I might be better for her than you are. ❜

❛ You’ll warm up soon. Faster if you take your clothes off.  ❜

❛ I’m gonna fight for you until your heart stops beating. ❜

❛ You feel something for me. You just won’t admit it. ❜

❛ Never go for the obvious kill. They’ll be expecting that. And you will lose.❜

❛ Never turn your back on your enemy. ❜

❛ You don’t know what you’re getting yourselves into. ❜

❛ Well, it’s just… It’s just as embarrassing for me as it is for you. ❜

❛ See, you’d just turn her into a bloodsucking demon like you. ❜

❛ If you’d stayed away another six months, I could’ve made her happy. ❜

❛ I’m not going to force her into anything, ever again. ❜

❛ When you thought she was gone… that you’d lost her… How did you… cope? ❜

❛ Impressive, I’ve never seen a coven of this magnitude intact. ❜

❛ If you’d arrived a half hour ago you would’ve fulfilled your purpose. ❜

❛ You don’t need to do that, she’ll tell you anything you wanna know. ❜

❛ The Volturi don’t give second chances. Keep that in mind. ❜

❛ It appears we’ve missed an entertaining fight.. ❜

❛ There’s no words. But I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. ❜

❛ This might sound odd but I’m glad you’re here. ❜

❛ I don’t want that. I never wanted that. ❜

BREAKING  DAWN   :

❛ Last night was the best night of my existence. ❜

❛ Where have you been? We were gonna put your face on a milk carton. ❜

❛ I’m just trying to appreciate your last night as a human. ❜

❛ I didn’t really wanna spend my honeymoon writhing in pain. ❜

❛ You’re not gonna start something that we’ll have to finish. ❜

❛ Goodness, no. Our dispute goes far beyond the fate of a mere human.  ❜

❛ I had a bad habit of underestimating you. ❜

❛ Every obstacle you faced, I thought you wouldn’t have overcome it. ❜

❛ I’ve never thanked you for this extraordinary life. ❜

❛ My life as a human was over, but I’ve never felt more alive. ❜

❛ I didn’t expect you to seem so… you. Except for the creepy eyes. ❜

❛ Even mature vampires have problems with that. ❜

❛ You need to get your thirst under control. ❜

❛ I’m amazed you ran away from human blood mid hunt. ❜

❛ I’ll never let anybody hurt you. ❜

❛ Will you dance with me? ❜

❛ This is how I’m gonna remember you. Pink cheeks. Two left feet. Heartbeat. ❜

❛ Come on, you’re not supposed to be the one crying, ❜

❛ It’s not like you’re gonna have real honeymoon with him, anyway. ❜

❛ Are you out of your mind? Huh? You’ll kill her! ❜

❛ How many days has it been since the wedding? ❜

❛ Can vampires go into shock? ❜

❛ I thought you understood… They have something I want. ❜

❛ Come on, people are probably missing us. Let’s go back. ❜

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maggie reynolds | reticencetm‌

   “ don’t say it. ” she knows him well enough by now to anticipate his lecture: go home, get some rest, take care of yourself. she can practically hear his voice in her mind, and as much as she would love to do just that, she can’t. the young girl she had brought in just hours before will undoubtedly be terrified when she wakes up, and maggie can’t bare the thought of not being here to assure her of her safety: that those men won’t hurt her anymore. until then, she will remain firmly planted in the chair she has chosen as temporary residence. heavy eyes are no match for special agent reynolds.

  “ you know i’m not going anywhere, so save your breath. ” her tone has shifted, subdued from her usual bravado. a voice in her mind chimes in, reminds her that she doesn’t have compartmentalize her feelings: she’s allowed to be stricken by the image in the hospital bed before them. determined eyes soften as her gaze shifts to finally meet his.

  “ thanks for doing this. ” through her exhaustion, she does her best to come across nonchalant. it isn’t necessary, but the heaviness that heaves upon her chest claims otherwise. she’s aware that this patient isn’t exactly surgical, comprehends that there are other lives that need saving, but after what this girl has gone through: she deserves the best, and neil is just that. “ I know you’ve got lot going on…but you saw her when when brought her in. you saw the condition they kept her in. it had to be you. ”

/ @surgeontm

it’s true; neil knows better than to think telling her to leave would get them ANYWHERE. this is merely one of many things he loves about her — this dedication she has to saving lives and protecting people. it’s a passion he SHARES. so he simply nods, grabs hold of the handles at the base of the bed and looks down at his patient. he doesn’t understand how anyone could ever do a thing like this to another person.

“you don’t need to THANK me. this is my job.” and there it is, a dismissal of his feelings. ( who could blame him? caring about others has done nothing but cause him pain this year. ) he can’t even look up at maggie. ( will she, too, leave him one day? will he outgrow his usefulness to her? ) “and i’m happy to do it. i know how important it is that she gets the best help available to her.” his appreciation of her FAITH in him goes unspoken, though is always implied.

“i also know that no force on the PLANET could prevent you from being here when she wakes up.” finally, he lifts his gaze to maggie, heart skipping a beat the moment his eyes land on her. “so here in a bit i’m going to grab you a pillow and a couple blankets. some food, too, if you’ll eat it. i don’t think i’ve seen you RELAX since you got here. but it’s okay, mags. she’s safe now. so are you. i’d never let anything happen to you.”

[surgeontm]

"you know, being a dick doesn't make yours any bigger."

he remains straight-faced, although inwardly fazed by her words. it’s true he hasn’t been as OPEN with shaun as he is with his other residents. neil has always believed in pushing people to help them become better doctors, but maggie sees through him. she always has.

“you think i’m wrong,” he half-accuses slowly. ARROGANCE has always been his refuge. as long as he’s confident his choices are correct, the judgment others rain down on him has no lasting effect. it’s a way of LIFE.

“maggie, i appreciate what you’re trying to do for the kid, but he doesn’t belong here. the sooner he realizes that, the better.” his words, while true initially, are now empty. he can’t change his mind out of the blue — he isn’t the type of man to just ADMIT to being wrong — so the only leaves one option:

he has to wait.

wait until a point where no one can argue against shaun. wait until the kid improves. wait until he’s ready to CHANGE as a person. ( but he isn’t ready. how can anyone be ready for a change as fundamental as that? how can he accept a different view of the world than the one he’s grown accustomed to? )

“i’m just trying to be honest with him.” and not himself, apparently. “if he can’t handle that, too bad. he’s an adult. he CHOSE this hospital. it’s not my fault if it isn’t what he expected.”

neil, shut up for like 9 years please. | @reticencetm

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Shut Up, Shaun! | Maggie Reynolds & Neil Melendez aesthetic. @reticencetm

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                                              ❛ you’re very ARROGANT.                                    do you think that helps you be a good surgeon?                                              does it HURT you as a person? 

                                              is it WORTH it? ❜

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neil melendez being adorbs (▰˘◡˘▰)