why does weight have to fucking fluctuate FUCK
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
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why does weight have to fucking fluctuate FUCK
i’m crying over how fat i am hrkslahdhflskahs it hurts so fucking bad
Anyone wanna start one of these with me????
tips to loose weight faster
instead of fasting in the morning and eating at night, the opposite will boost your metabolism and make you have less cravings
if the cravings are starting to get to you, brush your teeth and if possible use listerine
building muscle is better to loose weight than cardio
don’t have less than 800 calories a day, not only will that put your body in starvation mode and it will burn the least energy possible but it will also slow down your metabolism
if you want to do cardio, HIIT is the best way to do it. I suggest doing from 10-20 min of running for 30 sec (8.5 mph) then resting for 20-30 sec
thank you so much for reading <3✨💕
i’m going to disney and i’m so worried about eating but i plan on working out enough to stay under 1000 cals <3
if it makes some of you guys feel better i’m 190 lbs
there is this one girl at my school named eden who is so fucking gorgeous. she is like 5’2 and is suuuper skinny, she has a gorgeous voice, she has a pretty laugh and smile, she has a jawline and a sense of style, long brown hair and gorgeous brown eyes, pretty eyelashes, clear skin, soft pink lips... looking at her instagram makes me unironically want to kill myself bc i will never be a fraction of that or ever get the love she does.
i can’t be the only one who gained around 40 pounds from quarentine 😀
i have no sense of self.
i look for who i am through characters that already exist because idk who i am.
maybe if i were a character in a book or a tv show people would like me.
love my quirks.
what makes me weird and special.
maybe i would know myself.
when the suicide hotline is too busy for you too 💔
i wish i had friends. looking at people hanging out and having friendgroups and group chats and sleepovers. i literally have never had that. instead i sit in my room crying just wishing i was normal and popular and pretty. thinking of how i could possibly change myself to be loved a little bit more. to be more accepted. god it hurts.
oh my god do you like ever hear about your experiences being normal with your mental disorder and then you feel less like a terrible person
what caused your eating disorder?
sixth grade.
i had just moved schools because we moved houses. i had just gone through a breakup with the guy i had liked for 2 years. my best friend told me she didn’t want to be friends with a faggot.
i sat at alone, i was taken in my the emo kids.
me, trinity, oliver, and kat.
kat was super popular. she was everything i wanted to have. she was emo and boys loved her. she was so pretty. she was cool and chill and just everything i ever wished.
she always bragged about how she had an eating disorder and that she cut herself. she got lots of attention from it
i always brought my food in my pink donut lunchbox. donuts were my current hyperfixation.
she told me, “i can’t believe you’re the only one of us who actually eats lunch lol. i stopped doing that a long time ago”
later it turned to, “you really eat all that”
then, “i can’t imagine eating like that and looking like you”
i stopped eating lunch after that. i felt so stupid for ever actually letting myself do that.
“that’s obviously why i don’t have friends” i said to myself
i slowly stopped eating. less and less.
“you should work out and loose some weight” my mom said.
i wasn’t eating. i was fainting. i was still too fat.
got abused by my ex boyfriend.
“if you don’t eat normally i’ll leave you. break up with you.” he said
it just made me hurt and eat to impress him.
we broke up.
my ex girlfriend had ana. she was underweight and beautiful.
“i’m so fat” she said about herself.
she was not even half my size.
i was then hospitalized bc i was going to kill myself. i was so done being alive.
i got diagnosed with anorexia and they wanted me to go to treatment.
“she doesn’t have an eating disorder. have you seen how big she is?” my mom said
“there’s no way i’m sending her there when she’s not even underweight”
“she’s just faking it, she clearly doesn’t need to be relocated”
it’s been six years of this disorder. i’ve had a bmi from 20-27 over the years. nothing has been enough.
i’m too fat for my own eating disorder.
i will starve myself to finally be what i always wanted,
skinny & loved
damn i was like
maybe 🙌🙌 i should recover bc thinking about good 24/7 is so annoying and i want my life back
and then someone puts an ED video on tiktok with no trigger warning and my brain was like
wow i can’t believe you have been eating you stupid fuck you shouldn’t be allowed to eat maybe you wouldn’t be so fucking fat if you got your shit together
anyway made myself cry and now i’m back here bc this is my safe place
i binged the is weekend LOL gonna try to fast tomorrow
rb this if...
-you are 16-19 years old
-you struggle with binging
-your sw was at least 130+ lbs
-you have thought about or attempted purging at least once
fuck NOTHING makes me more mad than the fact that i physically can’t fast because i have a fucking heart condition and i need to eat or i will be bedridden within a few fucking hours. i wish i had a good fucking immune system so i can be skinny what the fuck
i also can’t fucking purge bc my body won’t let me throw up i’m physically incapable