Swimming Galaxy Child

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— Mary Kate Teske

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— Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment

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— Rudy Francisco

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Margaret Atwood, from “He shifts from east to west”, Power Politics

[nicolethedopefiendqueen]

They keep telling me to remember how terrible my life will be if i use drugs again, that it won’t be just one time, that it won’t be fun. What they don’t understand is i am fully aware of that and the absolute destruction that will come if i relapse, i just sometimes don’t care because in those moments when I’m craving i don’t want to just use, i want to fucking die. I get so hopeless that active addiction sounds like a place I can be.

Excerpt from my journal 5-25-19

[satansdepressedprincess]

I'm always either used, replaced, or forgotten. I understand that. But what I don't understand is why. I always try my hardest to make people happy, and to mean something to them. But it never works. I'm always worth shit to everyone, everytime.

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