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godisafujoshi

I want to shut up forever but I’m always thinking of more dumb shit to say

#out of habits

drunkwhenimadethis

I’m in need of like five new good habits

kosmogrl

ever since I was little I knew I never wanted anyone to turn the big light on

wholeheartedsuggestions

eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.

wholeheartedsuggestions

no one needs to add “sounds fake but ok”, “no”, “well, not me”, “impossible”, etc. to this post. and i’d rather you not.

duckbunny

one day you think: I want to die.

and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book.

and I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun

I want a cleaner kitchen

I want a better job

I want to live somewhere else

I want to live

zenosanalytic

The thing to understand is that Depression

Even When It Is Trying to Kill You!

Is Defensive.

Your brain exists to preserve you; it’s just Dumb, and how it goes about “preserving” is determined by evolution’s ‘Good Enough’ meat-and-chemistry mechanisms rather than a firm grasp of biology.

You know how, stuck atop a burning building, ppl will sometimes throw themselves off in a vain hope of surviving? That’s what depression-driven suicide is. You are under THAT amount of stress, often sustained for a FAR longer time. Your brain only understands “Stress”: it doesn’t know causes, it doesn’t know Events, and it only has the one set of instinctive ‘extreme measures’ to fall back on. I made things SO hard on myself for SO Long conceiving of Depression as a Fight I had to Win, rather than a chronic illness in need of my understanding and careful management.

Help your brain. Nurse it. Ask yourself where it hurts and why. Recognize that the desire to die is a symptom, an injury, and not your ‘Truth’. Try to calm it, Try to endure: It WILL Pass. As perverse as it sounds, your desire to die is an expression of how PASSIONATELY you want to get away from the pain tormenting you; of how MUCH you want to LIVE. PLEASE Live!

skullduggary

holdens absolute malewife energy in this sequence means so much to me

skullduggary

ah yes take me back to the s1 montage of the psychology bros quietly observing each other

skullduggary

celoewe

Anna Torv as Wendy Carr In Mindhunter

Behind the scenes photos

#Mindhunter #Wendy Carr

uroko

花景色－K.W.C.

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boohwanj-deactivated20240316-de

2023-08-02

Sunflower garden

Canon EOS R3 + RF15-35mm f2.8L IS

Instagram | hwantastic79vivid

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libbyframe

Just three days left to snatch a Bloom Book!

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radio-reid

something something early seasons hotch smiling on the job more and becoming more tense over the seasons as he sees more and more horrors something something