it's super hard for me to say this, but.. it's been a long while without logging in, and i am really sorry, both for that and for my muse, but i think it's time to say something pretty important... this is, at least in this blog, a goodbye.
for those who won't read the read more: i have a pokemon verse in my now main muse, margarita blankenheim from evillious chronicles, her blog is " somnixrum " . you can read about the pokemon verse here. if you want, follow that blog so we can interact again. if not... we might meet again in december, but, for now.. I am closing this account, dropping all threads and abandoning other stuff, such as shipping.
okay, so... as i said before, i'm leaving (not deleting) this blog. i must apologize for leaving, since i love roleplaying as my muse, yet i tried to revamp the blog to see if i could revive her and the results have been disappointing. Yet... I don't really wanna leave.
REASONS
As for personal reasons: I'm not even feeling like roleplaying her anymore, plus some people know I am developing a comic that will be published in a fanzine and I almost have no time. Originally I had to deliver it in August 31th but they gave me another month... Yet I can't relax, because I've virtually drawn only 5 pages of 15, having only 7 traditionally drawn.
But then, why am I roleplaying in my Margarita blog if I am soooo stressed? Because I need a distraction. Yet, in a few days I'll take my failed last year of middle school again, and the nuns I live with in the children care center won't let me be online as I have been this years, so I might put my other blog in hiatus too.
I am sure they will put more pressure on me like if I hadn't enough with my disappointed mother's, since I didn't take extra classes because, pf, deep down I feel like crap and I don't even want to get out from home, main consequence of my self-shame. They are also thinking about hospitalizing me again due my depression. Days are passing and with every second my entire world's going to shita bit more.
My mother's stressed as well because the old man she takes care of has developed dementia, the worst thing is that I've been living with them and saw how that man, who was once a happy and sweet one, has deteriorated into a depressed one who screams every night because he fears living, sleeping and dying alone.
I guess these are the main reasons for which I'm leaving. There are a lot more, but I don't feel like sharing them.
lets just say the 6 champions + steven / wallace are the 7 sins
(mostly) according to my sin AU with dragxnwrath :
luxury: wallace - lots of women in the basement of his gym...
totally not sateriasis venomania.
bonus: maybe mangaverse! winona
is wallace’s crush, gumina glassred?
gluttony: diantha - idk i’ve always played her as the gluttony
just like banica conchita in the sin AU. BUT OH
COME ON CANNIBAL DIANTHA IS PRETTY
INTERESTING AND MORE WHEN SIEBOLD’S
INVOLVED
pride: gameverse!green/iris - i think their reason are pretty obvious.
about iris, well, she’s a “princess”, like
rilliane lucifen d’autriche, right?
HAXORUS IS CALLED JOSEPHINE
sloth: alder - the league has to call him or otherwise he just
travels around and doesn't actually take care of
his champion challenges, besides that there’s his
dead pokemon, what do you think? i don’t really
think he fits margarita blankenheim, tbh... it might be
interesting seeing him psycho and poisoning all unova
for the sake of everyone’s “happiness”, tho.
envy: cynthia - okay i have no excuse here bc i’ve always
played her as the demon of envy in the sin
AU, and she’s like kayo sudou and MA
together.
greed: steven - ...corrupted!steven = actual gallerian marlon
i know someone who loves him in the sin AU...
wrath: lance - it depends on the verse... yet dat hyperbeam...
nemesis sudou is actual hitler, i could see
lance being a corrupted general, though i don’t
see him, cynthia and steven being family...
bonus: margarita could be iris as well. thoughts on this?
hey! it’s been a long time, right? well, i’m writting this post
because the deadline for delivering the 20 comic pages is
pretty near, so that means that hiatus will be over in a month!
this means the blog is now in semi-hiatus
okay so i’ve been working on the comic since may 2015 or before and i was getting really, REALLY stressed (and almost sick, literally, i had to be in bed for some hours two days straight) due it. a comic should be made to enjoy drawing it, right? well, that wasn’t my case until yesterday night.
what happened yesterday night? i was almost crying because i had to draw 20 pages (i put that goal to myself, not the studio i’m working for) for august 31th and i’ve only finished the second page virtually, while eight more are drawn traditionally already. yesterday night i was at borderline and contacted the studio to tell them i wouldn’t be able to finish the 20 pages, and then they told me this:
“oh! don’t worry about it! what you do is pretty awesome, it’s a really big contribution to our fanzine, since most of our contributors don’t do more than 2 pages...”
due that (and thanks to dragxnwrath ‘s emotional support as well) now i feel able to finish the first chapter of the comic since i’ve shortened the chapter to 10 or 15 pages... so now i’m able to answer some stuff! and do that awesome enbizaka AU i’ve always wanted to do...
that’s it, mostly. i just wanted you to have a detailed update about what’s going on, plus rant happily a bit. if you’ve read this, thank you, and have a really nice day!!
The Galactic Commanders getting drunk and Cyrus, instead of lecturing them, encourages them to continue until they wake up the next morning with killer hangovers and then he blasts metal music throughout the base.
If someone had been with her in these moments, she would have said, honestly and with a tired voice, that she wouldn't had accepted meeting someone that early. The thought of herself not being able to drink a coffee because all stores were closed and the possibility of the meeting during too much didn't help the Commander's tiredness at all. Last night's wasn't favorable either— she had to ask Milotic for help because something, probably a worry, kept the woman conscious even after midnight.
What would Cyrus need? It had been a long time without meeting up with him in a formal way... In fact, it would be the first time their meeting would be like that. Maybe he had to introduce her to someone? New commanders?... The last night's worry suddenly haunted Cynthia's mind again.
When she looked around, Cynthia observed Mt. Coronet's landscape. The night's darkness was getting dyed with the sun's light. Stars were giving way to the celestial body as they were being covered by its brightness as the moon began to disappear. Eterna City's dawning was doubtlessly beautiful, even so not as amazing as Celestic Town’s views.
[ txt : cynthia ]
[ txt ] level 10.
[ txt ] leaving your research? thats a big move.
[ txt ] what i told you?
[ txt ] about taking better care of yourself and having a break?
[ txt ] or the other thing.
[ txt : cynthia ]
[ txt ] aah, things are alright, i suppose.
[ txt ] riolu’s been a little feisty lately, despite it’s timid attitude.
[ txt ] maybe it’s in it’s rebellious stage haha.
[ txt ] how have been things on your side?
[ text 1/5 ] : oh?
[ text 2/5 ] : hmm... in which level is it?
[ text 3/5 ] : same here, though i’m thinking about...
[ text 4/5 ] : uh, leaving my researchings for a while.
[ text 5/5 ] : i’ve been thinking about what you told me.
