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Juliantina hugs <3
Amar a Muerte - Valentina playing with Juliana’s hair » requested by anonymous
“Mirame.”
Juliana whispering this word is my life.
Amar a Muerte - requested by anonymous
No gay panic Juls
I’ve always thought Juls was further along in coming to terms or being aware of her attraction to girls. Here’s why?
This is more than just admiring her clothes. Juls turns all the way around and even her mom notices. Then she proceeds to stare at her and watch her conversation.
Then when Val invites her to come to her house .. she stays up all night, trying to make a cute top.
This is her reaction when Valentina calls to follow through with their plans.
Not once does Juls even mention or look or give any interest to any boys. This is unusual when two girls get together. She never mentions them. It makes me think she’s not interested and maybe knows that she’s not. (We dont have any insight to her social life in San Antonio other than being a virgin.) I love her reaction to the news that Sergio likes her.
The whole time, Juls is only interested in being with Val and spending time with her.
I find this moment incredibly bold and a little flirtacious. She tells Val she needs to look in her eyes. Look at the lip bite as Val gets flustered, yet Juls is so calm.
The other clue is when Juls realizes that Val may have feelings for her, she doesn’t get shaken about it. She is beaming whilst Val is having an ‘oh shit moment’ lol.
I think Juls never really has a moment where she is like “Oh crap, i like girls”. She just does. The only ‘panic’ moments i see is when she’s almost caught for being in Vals bed (but that could be gay or straight). And this moment.. it’s not really gay panic as much as it is.. I am holding myself back. (and the fact that Val is high af)
She’s got her arms wrapped around herself so as not to touch Val. Not bc of panic but bc she already likes this girl and wants to touch her so bad, she’s afraid to move.
I think that is why Juls just waits for Val to make the move because she’s already there and waiting for Val to catch up to her.
But she’s never panicked about ‘liking a girl” - when Val is still trying to verbalize everything, Juls says things like “me encantas”
and things like “I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU” She’s so sure of her feelings.
Juls only gets panicked over the consequences .. what that means for Val’s life and her mom’s. But never over being Gay.
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Gosh, I really love the acting choices Barbara Lopez puts into this moment, especially the last two gifs. Because you can literally see her making the decision, first to accept that she’s staying, then to soften and give comfort to Val’s distress, but it’s that last little moment of hesitation that sort of kills me, because Juls just stops.
And you can see the exact moment when the switch flips in her head, when the movement starts being not just about comforting Val, but also about taking something for herself.
Juls has always been very deliberate about the way she occupies Val’s space. So much of Barbara’s acting has been with the intense stares and expressions in her eyes. You can feel the longing to touch, but so rarely does she actually initiate it. She doesn’t push. She doesn’t initiate, and if she does, it is to provide comfort (their first hug, the second kiss, the cafe scene with the hair strokes). Or it is in a context where touching is allowed (hello hugs, teaching to dance, learning to swim).
Go back and look but like even when they first share a bed, Juls LITERALLY has her arms wrapped around herself in bed so she doesn’t touch Val in her sleep. She’s really uncomfortable when Val is high and gets right up in her space, because she doesn’t like that Val doesn’t have all her mental faculties to make real decisions. It takes the extremest situation of her mother’s kidnapping and Lupe getting shot before she’ll even contemplate asking Val to be with her and allow herself to need.
In part I think it’s because of “she has a boyfriend” holding her back, but also it goes to how much Juls doesn’t feel like she fits well into Val’s world, so she holds herself apart. Half the time, she’s going for the door, but like even when they are in the same room, Juls lets Val come to her. She waits for an invitation. (Maybe because she sees how much Val hates that Lucho doesn’t respect her boundaries at all so she subconsciously lets Val have space).
But now, here, we get this deliberate touch and a lovely bit of hesitation and it is just GORGEOUS. Because I’m pretty sure this is the first time Juls has touched Val, casually, just because she could. For no other reason beyond she likes touching Val’s skin, and there is a bit of marvel in the newness of it all for her that she’s allowed to do that. That here is someone who loves her, who wants her, and who wouldn’t just allow her to casually touch her, but would welcome that feel, that closeness of skin to skin.
I don’t think Juliana has ever let herself believe she could have the things she wanted, not permanently, and she certainly isn’t used to letting herself be loved. Allowing Val into her life has allowed her to grow so much, and this is just one more step in that progression.
And look, Juls is the realist to Val’s optimist. Nothing about their situation has changed. As far as Juls knows, she is still going to have to leave town with her mom to be safe. She doesn’t know how much time they have left together and that is sort of killing her inside, and the smart thing to do is protect her heart- but how does she even begin to protect her heart from this? Would she even want to, when it comes to Valentina?
So in that moment of hesitation, you can see when she makes the decision to allow herself to feel and savor this moment. To make a memory of this to carry with her. She relaxes into the feeling and lets herself stay.
Amar a Muerte - 1x52 - translations by @caesir
“te quiero, te quiero mucho” “me encantas”
Amar a Muerte - 1x50 - translations by @caesir
Amar a Muerte - 1x46 || 1x50 - Juliana unable to resist sad Valentina
J: “ Cuando mi mamá se recupere, se va a querer ir de la ciudad… No te pongas así. “
V: “ Bueno, supongo que prefiero que estés lejos, pero que estés a salvo… Eso no quiere decir que no me duela. “
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