...but, thereās some stuff you guys should know about.
Iām not exactly in aĀ āstate of graceā right now. Stuff has been going on, personately, intimately and also publicly. Iām coming to terms with the fact that I have to say goodbye to something I really cared about, and I wonāt go into details right now but just know that Iām not in a really good place right now.
This, luckily, happened while Iām still laptopless, so I couldnāt have been online anyway. Also my best friend came to visit and we spent a week around ā that was so, so nice, but now sheās gone and Iām still on the edge of confusion. Idk. Sounds like a bunch of bullshit, doesnāt it?
Anyway, Iām sorry for disappearing. I think Iāve ignored pretty much every message lately and Iām so, so sorry. Iāll get back to everyone once Iām in a better place, but please be aware that your support means so much to me and the few of you I can actually call friends mean more to me than Iāll ever be able to word.
Now, letās talk business: I donāt wanna give up writing. A part of me wants to move on, but the other knows I couldnāt give up on Morgan if I wanted. I can do without all my other muses, more or less, but Morgan ā she just means too much. I couldnāt live without her.Ā
Plus, I just started watching The Affair and ā w o w. I donāt think Iāve ever found a show that better embodied Morganās aesthetic, or a character more similar to Morgan than Alison Lockhart. Itās giving me so many thoughts and so much muse, but also ideas such as: what if I changed Morganās setting to a small fishing town, instead of a city? What if I made R/uth W/ilson her alt fc? (Bryce is 100% Morgan, I could never replace her; but Ruth also fits perfectly, so Iām really thinking about this).
Anyway, this makes it clear that I canāt abandon Morgan, and rather that even if I give up every other blog and project on tumblr (which Iām honestly considering), I am going back to Morgan and probably rebooting her as soon as I get my laptop back (no news on that yet btw. I hate life).
The one thing I might do, though, is turn that blog into a really, really selective blog. Iām in a situation where I just donāt feel that safe with strangers, and I wanna make sure I put my friends, my real friends, first.
Catch me on imās if youād like (& also if youād like my contact info)!! I love you all, darlings.