Hello, Pet

[tad-the-spinner]

Is anyone still there? Has everyone gotten bored already?

[tad-the-spinner]

A spider sits and waits and watches but only when the spring is set, the trap is laid, the web is woven. Here, I'm not waiting for anything, I'm simply waiting. It's infuriating. I didn't understand why for so long, I'm used to it. But now I understand. All anticipation is gone, replaced by this dull monotony. I am not going to see whether my plan succeeds or is unraveled, I am simply going to see. See the same things day after day after day. I fear that small goals can only keep me so long. I don't know how long I can be without a larger web to weave.

[tad-the-spinner]

When we "won" this hellish game, I was convinced I would try everything in my power to bring Thistle back, to try to restore at least one of the lives pointlessly lost. But I think I finally understand them in a way I never did when it was here. If I brought it back now, it would be bound not just to me, but trapped in the same cage it so dreaded. No garden, no sunlight, no sky. To bring them back to this would be... entirely selfish. And I am aware that I am a selfish man. But I will let them rest. I hope they're experiencing the freedom they longed for, free from me, free from the games, free from this world, free from this life. They used to listen to the birds. I hope that it can fly all it wants. It's free. And I will not try to cage them again. No matter how much I want to see them again.

[birdsinthebushes]

blinks at you

[tad-the-spinner]

I am... overwhelmingly grateful. I'm sorry I didn't wait any longer for you. I'm sorry.

[tad-the-spinner]

Well. This is awkward.

Hi Tad :) it's me :)

I'm a fucking idiot. I'm sorry

[alittlestablergroundtoholdon]

The house is empty now. It’s warm. I can only see the garden from the window

[tad-the-spinner]

An empty house, an empty garden, an empty heart

[alittlestablergroundtoholdon]

Cecil? I don't know if you have met them, but if you have, would you be so kind as to ask my constructs if they'd look after Thistle's garden for me? I know you don't want to be used as a messenger but it pains me to imagine the garden they cared for so withering away, and I don't know who else to ask

… I suppose it’s the least I can do.

[tad-the-spinner]

I thank you deeply.

[tad-the-spinner]

When we "won" this hellish game, I was convinced I would try everything in my power to bring Thistle back, to try to restore at least one of the lives pointlessly lost. But I think I finally understand them in a way I never did when it was here. If I brought it back now, it would be bound not just to me, but trapped in the same cage it so dreaded. No garden, no sunlight, no sky. To bring them back to this would be... entirely selfish. And I am aware that I am a selfish man. But I will let them rest. I hope they're experiencing the freedom they longed for, free from me, free from the games, free from this world, free from this life. They used to listen to the birds. I hope that it can fly all it wants. It's free. And I will not try to cage them again. No matter how much I want to see them again.

[tad-the-spinner]

It's not his fault. I know. It's my fault alone. But I can't believe my last conversation with Thistle was about Krow. I thought we'd have a conversation in the morning. I expected—I had to expect us all to make it. I don't think I could have kept up if I didn't expect it to work. We had time. I thought I'd see them again. I can hold their body, see Karma's face and my work, but none of their soul is there. Goddamnit why was the last thing I asked them so... so mundane? Why didn't I act like we were running out of time? Before that I told them the bird was buried in the garden. I didn't ask their thoughts or fears or if there was anything I could do. I don't know if they'd answer. I'm sorry, my dear. I promise I tried to save you. And I promise I won't try to pull you back here.

[coelakanths]

well. this is new

no need to rub it in.

[tad-the-spinner]

sorry

[coelakanths]

it’s fine man. it’s all fine. im so fine right now.

[tad-the-spinner]

I know Cecil already gave you a coat but do you care if I knit or crochet?

[coelakanths]

….you don’t have to do that

[tad-the-spinner]

Here. Take it. I needed something to do

[tad-the-spinner]

Hat. Mittens.

[tad-the-spinner]

I must admit it feels strange to share an accommodation with a being who sleeps. I have heard it is rude to observe, but I can't help but glance over. There are times he stops moving for so long I fear he has died, and there are times where he mumbles nonsense. Is this normal? I have now participated in sleep but I have never truly been in close quarters with a sleeping being for an extended period of time. Is this what I look like when I sleep? How odd indeed...

[tad-the-spinner]

And once again, all is quiet, and I am left alone to my thoughts. I wish I was not. I don't like my thoughts very much. I hate Exhibiting Natural Behavior and Interacting with something it gave me but what else am I to do? I feel like a hedgehog with a toilet paper roll on its head. Watch as I take it off and put it back on again.

[coelakanths]

well. this is new

no need to rub it in.

[tad-the-spinner]

sorry

[coelakanths]

it’s fine man. it’s all fine. im so fine right now.

[tad-the-spinner]

I know Cecil already gave you a coat but do you care if I knit or crochet?

[coelakanths]

….you don’t have to do that

[tad-the-spinner]

Here. Take it. I needed something to do

[coelakanths]

well. this is new

no need to rub it in.

[tad-the-spinner]

sorry

[coelakanths]

it’s fine man. it’s all fine. im so fine right now.

[tad-the-spinner]

I know Cecil already gave you a coat but do you care if I knit or crochet?

[tad-the-spinner]

TAD WHY ARE THERE PEOPLE WHO LOOK JUST LIKE US IN THE HOUSE?????

Oh... didn't Krow tell you? Hahaha I was... I was sort of wondering why you hadn't confronted me about it... surprise?

[rubbishpile]

YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING

[tad-the-spinner]

... whoops?

[tad-the-spinner]

TAD WHY ARE THERE PEOPLE WHO LOOK JUST LIKE US IN THE HOUSE?????

Oh... didn't Krow tell you? Hahaha I was... I was sort of wondering why you hadn't confronted me about it... surprise?

[coelakanths]

well. this is new

no need to rub it in.

[tad-the-spinner]

sorry

[tad-the-spinner]

A pretty little trophy in a pretty little cage. I did everything I could. Hopefully I can take a bit of solace in that. But now I am so tired. I see Krow sleeping, I think I shall join them. Farewell, my friends.