aftermath
@jungwoork
itâd be a lie to say that things hadnât changed between the two of them after jungwooâs sudden confession. haknyeon, in all honesty, still feels terrible for the way heâd handled it; telling jungwoo that he couldnât quite support his friend, when a part of him was aware that perhaps that was what jungwoo needed the most at that moment. but haknyeon was never a liar, or at least, he could never really lie to jungwoo. he was aware that when he spoke his truth, it probably wasnât something that jungwoo wanted to hear, and wouldâve perhaps put a dent into their relationship.
amongst that and them suddenly being thrown a new member, and haknyeon a new role in the group, he hasnât been able to focus on much. he treats jungwoo like he normally would in moments where he forgets what had happened, but itâs different when he catches jungwoo looking at ricky for a moment too long. he wants to tell jungwoo that itâs silly of him to throw all his years of training and debut away for falling in love with a member, but he doesnât of course. falling in love, is all the same, but itâs much different than the situation he and the other members are in; they arenât in the same group, wonât constantly be seeing one another ââ and if anything were to happen (a break up, a fight, anything really), it wouldnât potentially have lingering effects on their group dynamics. he wants to support jungwoo, really, but he doesnât know how to with so many of these worries. the most he can do for jungwoo, he thinks, is give him a pat on the back, and maybe for the sake of their friendship, let jungwoo deal with his career on his own.Â
theyâre both alone in the practice room, perhaps the first time theyâve actually been alone since the incident. haknyeonâs staring at his reflection, sweat dripping down his forehead after having practiced his dancing when he turns to jungwoo. something should be said, maybe to clear the air. haknyeon doesnât like how rigid their relationship has been feeling, and he knows that itâs his fault for speaking so honestly and being unable to give jungwoo support. âiâm sorry,â he says, âif i ... no,â he shakes his head, this isnât how a proper apology should go. âi hurt your feelings when i spoke the other day, i was being too insensitive with my words. iâm sorry.â he bites on his lip, maybe he couldâve ended his apology there, but something digs at him to continue. âi was worried about you, and your career. but i realize, itâs not my place. youâre smart enough to take care of yourself.â
