I’ve Waited Years (Alessia Russo x Mead!Reader)
“Alessia, Y/n. Y/n, Alessia” Beth said as she introduced you two. “Now, leave me alone” she laughed, heading off back to the England senior squad that she was here training with.
You were currently sitting at the side of a pitch in Spain after being called into your first Under 23s camp. You recognised a few players, but didn’t know them personally due to you being so quiet. Luckily for you, the senior squad was also here. Unlucky for your older sister, you had been clinging to her side since you got here.
You didn’t talk too much and you weren’t annoying like some younger sister’s could be. But Beth wanted you to branch out. She couldn’t take any more of you clinging to her when she was just trying to spend her free time with her own teammates. After the 100th time of Beth telling you to politely fuck off, Leah came up with a plan to introduce you to one of the other under 23’s so you would make friends with them and leave Beth alone.
“What about Alessia?” Leah asked as Beth watched on at you all finishing up training. “She’s too nice to tell Y/n to piss off” Leah laughed as Beth smirked, knowing Leah was right.
She walked over to the blonde striker, taking her by the arm and marching her straight over to you. After Beth’s brief introduction, she practically pushed Alessia onto the bench beside you, before skipping off to a smirking Leah.
“I didn’t know you were Beth’s sister” Alessia smiled, sitting down next to you. You would have fallen for her right there if you were looking at her when she smiled at you, instead of being fixated on your boots.
“Did my name not give it away?” You laughed as the girl rolled her eyes. “You play at Brighton, right?” You asked.
“Yeah, but I’m just about to go to the States for Uni” She smiled.
“Oh, cool” you said, now remembering all the American university acceptance letters that were currently stuffed in your bedside drawer. “Which one?”
“UNC” she replied.
“Yeah, the Tar Heels” Lotte shouted, high fiving Alessia as she sat down on the ground, right infront of the bench that you and Alessia were sat on.
“You get accepted too?” Lotte asked you. You rattled your brain at all the logos on the letters and UNC rang a bell.
“Yeah, I think so” you nodded and started fidgeting with the laces on your boots.
“You think so?” Alessia laughed.
“What? You’re not going?” Lotte frowned, fixing her shin guards.
“I, uh” you stuttered, looking up towards Beth before you felt a hand fall on your leg.
“You should come, the three of us would have so much fun” Alessia smiled.
Your skin burned under where her hand had touched you. Maybe it’s because you were young and stupid, but as you watched her and Lotte walk towards the changing rooms, you knew that you were in love with the girl you’d met properly just five minutes ago.
-
The three of you had made a group chat and had been keeping in touch ever since camp. All the group chat was really being used for was to convince you to go to UNC. You decided to see what the general consensus would be at family dinner one evening.
“I think I’m going to go to UNC” you casually said at the dinner table. Both your parents, brother and Beth’s heads whipped in your direction but you were fixated at looking at your plate.
“Where is that?” Your dad asked.
“It’s in America” Beth answered, staring at you.
“Why do you want to go to America?” Ben asked.
“My friends are going” you shrugged.
“What friends?” Beth frowned.
“Bethany” your mum groaned.
“It’s a genuine question” Beth replied.
“Are you sure? America is very far away” your dad hummed, but you nodded. Anywhere Alessia was, you wanted to be too.
“Love, I don’t think we could afford-” your mum tried but you stopped her and pulled out your acceptance letter.
“I got accepted on a scholarship. Someone in the FA helped me apply for it a few months ago” you shrugged as Beth took the paper from you.
“This is a full scholarship. Are you smart? You definitely didn’t get this for football” Beth asked.
“Beth” your dad sighed.
-
When you moved to America, you couldn’t have gotten closer to her. You, her and Lotte were all assigned to the same dorm. The accommodation was cool, it had three bedrooms and a shared kitchen and living area. Lotte took the bedroom closest to the front door, then there was yours, right in the middle, then Alessia’s, which was closest to the kitchen.
You were all taking different classes, but saw each other every day. You’d sometimes meet up in between classes to get coffee or you’d go to the library together. You were all playing for the Tar Heels together, so you’d see each other at training and then you would all head back to your shared dorm.
You were extremely quiet, and always had been. You hadn’t really branched out, usually sticking to your routine with just the two of them or flying solo. The other two however, were social butterflies and made friends easily and quickly. They’d head off to a party while you stayed in your dorm, went to the gym, or were at the library studying. Of course, they’d invite you, but they knew you’d always say no. They’d try to convince you, but every time they’d be rejected.
Did you really want to go and get wasted at a stupid party where Alessia would probably kiss someone else and cause your heart to smash into a million tiny pieces?
Lotte was good at balancing both, she was doing well in classes and socially. You were doing great in class but didn’t speak to anybody. Meanwhile Alessia spoke to everyone but was failing, miserably.
A knock on your door, distracted you from your head being buried in your laptop, writing an essay that was due next week.
“Yeah?” You shouted and Alessia came in. “Heading out?” You asked as she shook her head.
“Lotte just left” she mumbled. This was new, usually she’d be going too. “I was wondering if you could help me with this?” She sighed, holding up one of her college books.
“What is it?” You frowned, holding out your hand to take the book from her. She smiled when you’d agreed to help and skipped over to your bed to sit down. “What don’t you understand?” You didn’t take the class, so you didn’t know why she was asking you for help.
“I just don’t get it” she shrugged. “I’m failing in everything”
You searched up her class on the university page and found some exam papers that have came up in previous years.
“Okay, look here” you turned the laptop around, starting to explain the questions, what they were looking for, and then pointing to the pages in the book you were holding that gave her the answers.
“Jesus Meado, you are smart smart” she giggled. “Can you help me with an assignment?” She used her puppy dog eyes and you instantly caved.
You put away your own work, while she grabbed her laptop and came back with tea and snacks for you both. She put her head on your shoulder, and you put the laptop on your lap and explained things as you were typing. Alessia loved physical touch so you were used to her being this way with you by now, but it still killed you a little bit.
Every now and again she’d pick up a sweet, throw it in her mouth and then put one in yours. You were so in love with her that even if you were allergic to whatever she was feeding you, you still would have eaten it. You realised after a while of not being fed treats, that Alessia was asleep against your arm. Nonetheless, you continued to type away at her assignment.
You heard Lotte come in around 2am, and heard her shuffle past your door to get to the kitchen, clearly getting water to try to sober up. She opened Alessia’s door, only to find the bedroom empty, before she came into yours. Lotte normally didn’t knock, even sober, she just came in, regardless of the time.
“Y/n, have you seen, oh” Lotte whispered when she noticed the girl asleep on your bed. “What are you doing?” She asked. You put Alessia’s laptop safely on the ground, and removed yourself from her hold, replacing yourself with a pillow.
“She asked for help with her assignment” you whispered as you both walked into her bedroom.
“Yeah, it looked like she was giving great input” Lotte laughed.
Your face turned bright red at the teasing. You’d been so caught up doing her assignment that your stomach began to hurt at how natural that all felt. Her resting against you, feeding you little snacks. It hurt being in love with her because you knew it wasn’t how she felt.
“Don’t stay up too much longer now” Lotte teased as you rolled your eyes and headed back to your room, slotting Alessia back into your arm. You picked up her laptop and started working on her assignment again and didn’t stop typing until it was done. Then finally, you headed off to sleep.
You woke the next morning with Alessia shuffling out of your arms.
“Hey, sorry” she smiled, quickly cupping your face, but you were too tired to take any notice. “Didn’t mean to wake you”
“It’s cool. I finished your assignment” you mumbled, pointing at her laptop which was on the floor.
“You finished it?” She frowned as you nodded, squeezing your pillow and closing your eyes again.
“Less, you up?” Lotte shouted.
“Yeah” Alessia called back. “Thank you, Meado”
“Anytime” you grumbled as you got out of bed.
You took a shower, got changed and packed your bag for the day. As you got out of your room, you literally walked into Lotte’s friend Laura, who came over almost every morning. Usually, you’d answer the door for her as you were the only one in the apartment awake.
“Oh, hey” you whispered, a hint of a pleasant and friendly smile on your face.
“Good morning” she beamed. “You heading to class?” She asked as you nodded. “Wanna walk together?” You and Laura took some classes together. She played volleyball and you would be lying if you said she wasn’t attractive.
But she wasn’t Alessia.
She personally invited you to a party in her dorm for her birthday and due to that, you couldn’t really say no. You knew Lotte would be going too, and if Lotte was going, that meant Alessia was more than likely going. So you agreed, only because you knew the blonde that you shared a wall with was going too.
-
The pair had given you somewhat of a pep talk on the way over to Laura’s apartment, that only stopped once the door swung open.
“I’m so glad you came” Laura gushed as the three of you walked through the door. You waited for her to hug Alessia or Lotte, but instead her arms connected around you.
“Oh, uh” you stuttered.
“Wait here” she smiled as she sped off towards one of her friends.
“She’s so into you, mate” Lotte whispered to you, making a frown appear on your face. “Remember our rule, no being a nerd tonight” Lotte smirked.
“To start, you can drink this” Alessia giggled, handing you a drink. You’d do anything she asked you to.
You were drinking an awful lot for someone that barely left their dorm room. You looked to the right of the room, and noticed Lotte talking to a boy. You then scanned the room, trying to find Alessia, but wish you’d kept your eyes planted to the floor. She was kissing some guy from the football team that was in one of your classes. You now hated him, you hated yourself, you hated everyth-
“Hey” Laura smiled. “You having fun?” She asked.
“I, uh, think I’m gonna go” you mumbled, pointing to the door.
“Don’t go, it’s my birthday” she pouted, gripping your hand and resting it on her waist. “Kiss me” she slurred.
“What?” You stuttered. You’d kissed girls before, this was fine. You weren’t being a nerd.
“Kiss me” she repeated, gripping your neck and smashing your lips together. It felt good, you couldn’t deny that it was a great distraction. “Come on” she whispered against you, practically pulling you towards her room.
“Yes Meado, in there” Lotte chanted, which made Alessia break free from the guy she was currently with.
“Meado got with someone?” Alessia asked as Lotte laughed and nodded towards the closed bedroom door.
“Laura” Lotte smirked. Alessia pushed the guy away as he leaned in again, pulling Lotte out of the apartment and back to their own place. “Less, what’s wrong?” Lotte shouted after her.
It was fun with Laura, but you were in love with Alessia. You were too nice to ever lead anybody on.
“Laura, wait” you mumbled as she gripped the bottom of your t-shirt.
“What?” She huffed, tightening her grip on it.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” You asked, not able to even look at her.
“Are you?” She frowned.
“It’s just-” you stuttered.
“It’s fine, I know you’re into her” Laura shrugged. “I’m not looking to date you” she chuckled, before kissing you again. That was good enough for you.
You were scrolling on your phone when Laura came back to bed, after running to the bathroom quickly.
“So, Alessia?” She teased. Great conversation to have with someone you had just slept with.
“Yeah” you shrugged.
“That’s cute” she giggled. “Are you ever going to tell her?” She asked and you shook your head. “I’m happy to keep this casual” she added.
“Yeah, same” you nodded.
Alessia was straight, and would never look at you like that. Plus, you’d only started talking a few months ago before you decided to move to the other side of the world just to be close to her. Telling her would ruin everything.
It became a regular thing with Laura, she knew the boundaries, and knew you were in love with Alessia, who seemed to be able to get any boy she wanted. You didn’t stray from Laura, despite a few offers, and Laura never strayed from you. Thankfully, she never caught feelings and you’d both managed to keep up your casual agreement in place for the full three years.
Anytime you had Laura over, Alessia never once came out from her room, and if she did, she left the apartment. The two barely looked at each other. Laura found it too awkward looking at your roommate that she knew you were in love with, and Alessia seemed to just hate Laura for no reason.
-
All the scholarship students, guys and girls, were out tonight to celebrate the end of term. After watching Alessia and a boy from the basketball team going at it all night, you decided to step further out of your comfort zone. Deciding your presence was not enough hell at this party, you got drunk enough that you could pretend this night never existed. You were fairly wasted when the Volleyball team showed up, much to the amusement of a certain Volleyball player.
“Oh, your girlfriend’s here” Lotte joked as Laura walked through the door.
“She’s not my girlfriend” you shook your head, heading up towards the bar and coming back with two drinks, shoving one into Laura’s hand and spilling half of it in the process.
“Christ, you are wasted” she frowned, peering over your shoulder at Alessia and the guy. “I can take you home, if you want?” She asked and you shook your head. Your vision was so blurry now that you couldn’t even make out who or where Alessia was in this bar.
You and Laura were friends. Yeah, you slept together, a lot, but you cared about each other and looked after one another. She’d tried to get you to a sofa to sober you up with water, but when you’d pulled her onto your lap, and kissed her, she knew you didn’t want to be sober. She kissed you back for a few minutes, before you went to get both of you more drinks. Laura sidled up towards Lotte who was people watching from a booth.
“Are you really trying to tell me that you two aren’t together?” Lotte frowned at Laura.
“Yeah” Laura giggled, watching on as some girl was talking to you on the dance floor and knowing you were in no way listening. Clearly she had interrupted you on the way to the bar.
“But you guys-” Lotte began.
“I mean, yeah. But she’s so hooked on Alessia that she won’t ever-” Laura tried to explain.
“Alessia? She’s into Less?” Lotte gasped.
“Shit, Lotte. You cannot say anything” Laura frantically began waving her hands and shot to her feet.
“Chill” Lotte grabbed the girls hand and yanked her back into the seat. “It’s just unexpected”
“Well, Y/n constantly has her face buried in-”
“Laura, you do not need to finish that sentence” Lotte gagged.
“I was going to say a book” Laura rolled her eyes before both girls busting out laughing. “I think she knows it will never happen, she just needs time to get over it” Laura nodded.
“Can I tell you something?” Lotte whispered as the girl nodded. Laura looked genuinely shocked when you got to the booth, empty handed, having ditched the bar all together to get away from the girl on the dance floor.
“Lotte, do you have a key?” Alessia asked, the same boy standing behind her with a smug look on his face. Lotte started fiddling around in her pocket, as you and the blonde made awkward eye contact, with you not having taken a seat yet.
“Come on, we’re going” you said, pulling Laura’s hand and guiding her up off the couch and out of the nightclub.
“They’ll go to Laura’s” Lotte mumbled, attempting to hand Alessia the key.
“Can you just bring me home?” Alessia pouted, leaving Lotte stumbling to get to her feet and ushering Alessia away from the boy and out of the venue.
Lotte was wrong, you took Laura back to your apartment.
But Laura was right. You never got over Alessia, regardless of the distraction of being with her. You and Alessia remained friends and as 3 years went by at University, every time Alessia looked at you, said your name, or worse, touched you, you fell more in love with her. Lotte always kept your secret, even from you. The only person that knew your secret, in your mind, was Laura, who you still managed to keep in regular contact with. She stayed at home in the States and was happy with someone now, while the three of you moved back to England. Alessia moved to Manchester and signed for United, you and Lotte to London and Arsenal.
You’d grown up a lot since that very first camp where you’d just started talking to Lotte and Alessia. You no longer were stuck to Beth’s side, you mostly did your own thing or hung out with Lotte. You moved in with Lotte when you both signed with Arsenal and landed up in London together. You’d never had any issues in the 3 years at university and were comfortable around each other. You two had became really close friends.
Alessia and you were also extremely close still. You seemed to have gotten closer when you left university, and you noticed she talked to you a lot more when Laura started posting pictures online with her boyfriend. You were so protective and caring of her, you just kept your feelings pent up and to yourself. Even when she was in Manchester and you were in London, you still made some excuse to speak to her everyday or spend time with her when you got a chance to leave London.
You two became inseparable at England camps, but you kept your walls sky high with her. If you broke them for even a second, you would be afraid you’d tell her about your years worth of unrequited feelings. And this back and forth worked for you. She was far enough away that you weren’t reminded everyday that it would never happen. But she was close enough that you could spend time with her to remind yourself it was never going to happen.
-
You were all heading to the World Cup this Summer before randomly, one day, Alessia arrived at your front door with all of her stuff.
“You’re bringing all of this to Australia?” You frowned as the girl stared at you. You grabbed the bags and lugged them inside. Your genuine confusion left the girl wondering if you knew what she was going on.
“It’s not all for Australia” she mumbled.
“Why’s it here then?” You asked, your tone of voice was a bit more abrupt than how you usually talked to her.
“Roomies once again” Lotte pumped her fist in the air. “Can’t believe you’re moving to the Arsenal” she chuckled as your eyes sprung out of your head.
“Lotte, did you remember to tell Y/n?” Alessia asked, as both of the girls turned to look at you, jaw dropped to the ground and eyes wide.
“Y/n, Alessia is moving to Arsenal and is moving in with us” Lotte smirked cheekily. “Incase that wasn’t clear” she laughed, gesturing to Alessia’s bags and suitcases. Alessia trudged upstairs, pulling a bag and a suitcase up with her as you were still rooted to the spot.
“You going to just stand there?” Lotte asked, starting to grab some bags.
“I’m just going to go to Beth’s for awhile” you mumbled, grabbing your car keys, putting your shoes on and practically flying out the door.
That’s when it was obvious to Lotte, your feelings that you had in University still hadn’t gone away for the blonde striker.
“Hello sunshine” Beth smirked at your stressed looking state standing on her doorstep. “Oh, do please come in” she called after you with a mocking tone as you pushed by her and began to pace in the living room. You were yet to speak as your sister and her girlfriend, Viv, watched you as if you were a real life tennis match, bobbing their heads from left to right.
“Is she going to say something?” Viv whispered.
“Eventually” Beth nodded, and continued to wait for you to speak.
“She fucking moved in with us” you grunted.
“Who?” Beth asked.
“Alessia” you groaned.
“Why are you angry? You’re friends” Beth frowned.
You looked at your sister and her girlfriend and Viv knew that look on your face. It was clear as day to anybody what that look meant.
“How long have you liked her?” Viv asked as Beth’s head turned quickly to look at her.
“Since I met her” you sighed with a shrug.
“You like Less?” Beth asked as you sunk to the ground with a nod.
“You could move in here, with us” Viv suggested.
“I couldn’t do that to you guys” you shook your head.
“If you still feel it would be better after the World Cup, you can more in here. Or Lia will adopt you” Beth smiled and squeezed your shoulder.
It was only a couple of days until you left for the pre World Cup camp, you could last living in the same house until then. You lived together for three years in America, what’s a couple of days?
You got back to the house and headed straight to the kitchen, bypassing the living room where both girls were sitting. You grabbed something quickly from the fridge, and turned to notice Lotte in the doorway.
“All alright?” Lotte asked and you nodded. “You sure? You ran out of here pretty quickly earlier” she frowned, stepping into the kitchen further and closing the door.
“I’m fine” you huffed.
“Listen, I know about you and Less” she hummed as you almost dropped what you had in your hand.
“What do you mean?” You stuttered.
“I mean, I knew you liked her in college, I just didn’t know you still-” Lotte mumbled, bouncing on her toes.
Shit.
“I don’t, I-I didn’t” you lied, trying to end this conversation quickly.
“I’m sorry I told her she could stay here. I should have checked it with you to make sure you were okay with it” she sighed sympathetically, squeezing your shoulder as you remained quiet. “Are you ever going to tell her? Because I think-”
“Oh, you’re back” Alessia smiled, skipping over and jumping into your arms. “Is Beth okay?” She asked as you frowned.
“Yeah, they found Myle” Lotte coughed, looking at you sternly.
Clearly she’d made up some elaborate lie as to why you left the house earlier rather than telling Alessia that you being in love with her was the reason you sprinted out.
Alessia was a clingy person with people she felt comfortable around, and you hated that, because when she touched you, it was torturous. So, when she pulled you by the hand into the living room and sprawled herself across you on the couch, the girl didn’t even bat an eyelid.
You sat in complete silence, staring directly at the film she’d picked for the three of you to watch flashing on the screen. Not daring to move an inch just incase you made her uncomfortable and she’d remove herself from being cuddled into you.
Lotte was exhausted, but was really trying her best to stay up, for your sake. But eventually, she had to cave to just how tired she was, and headed upstairs, leaving you and Alessia downstairs.
“Want to watch something else?” She asked, already flicking through movies. You knew you’d be here at least another hour and you were practically pumping sweat.
“Yeah, whatever you want, Less” you nodded a little bit flustered.
“Are you okay?” She asked, putting the back of your hand against your forehead. “You are roasting, take that off” she frowned, pulling at the bottom of your hoodie. You lifted it up over your head and she threw it to the end of the couch.
“Put your movie on” you said.
“Are you sure you’re okay? You’re sweating” she pointed out as you nodded back. “I can move?” she suggested, lifting her head off your shoulder.
“Please don’t move” you shook your head. Your heart was thumping so fast you forgot what normal breathing or a usual heart beat felt like.
Is this what dying felt like?
Due to the close proximity of her ear and your heart and the hard, rapid beats going off every few milliseconds, she knew something was wrong. She pushed herself off your chest and cupped your face with her hand.
“Hey, calm down. It’s okay, I’m here” she said calmly. Even mid heart attack, or whatever was currently going on, you noticed her eyes had fallen to your lips.
Did she want you to kiss her?
You’d only known Alessia as a girl who got with boys. You’d never seen her with a girl, she never talked about girls, but you didn’t know what her deal was. What you did know though, was her eyes were still firmly planted on your lips. You felt like you were about to die anyway, so if you were going to go out, you may as well shoot your shot.
You leaned in and pressed your lips to hers, and she didn’t pull away, not even a single inch. She matched your intensity, although the kiss, like you, was soft. She brought her other hand up to your neck as both of yours fell on her lower back.
“You don’t understand how long I’ve waited for you to do that” Alessia whispered.
You kissed her again, a bit more rushed, but quickly both of your lips found a nice rhythm. There was no battle for dominance, it just worked. You slotted so well together that it was as if you were individually designed specially for the other.
“I’ve wanted to kiss you since that day at England camp” you softly hummed back. “I’ve really liked you since the day we started talking”.
“I wish one of us did this sooner, I just didn’t know-” she sighed.
“You’re the most beautiful girl in the world, Lessi” you said, leaning back in and kissing her again. It was like the world stopped when she was against you.
“Sorry, forgot my, oh” Lotte smirked, re-entering the room. “Forgot my phone” she said, pointing at it.
“Here” Alessia practically threw the phone at your housemate.
“So, you guys told each other then?” She laughed.
“You knew this whole time?” You both shouted, before looking back at each other.
“I’ve held on to both of your feelings for 6 years, give me a break” Lotte huffed, heading back off upstairs.
“You’ve liked me since uni?” You frowned at the blonde who nodded.
“That night at Laura’s stupid birthday party, you made me so jealous. I cried to Lotte the entire night” she admitted as you laughed. “What’s funny?” She said, punching you softly in the arm.
“That night, I told Laura I was in love with you” you said so casually you didn’t even realise what you admitted.
“You - you love me?” Alessia asked.
“Yeah” you nodded. “I’m so in love with you, Less”
“I love you too” she smiled, pulling you in for another kiss. You felt like you could have melted from her lips being so soft.
Mini Meado
I think I’ll be okay here
Myle’s Mum
Did something happen?
Did you kiss?
Did you tell her?
Myle’s other mum
We require more information
Mini Meado
👍🏻
Myle’s other mum
That is not an acceptable answer
Myles mum added Alessia to the chat
