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[jeongaeul]

@chahakyeon-demigod​:

He was just about to fall asleep when a soft buzz woke his current state. The light almost blinding his vision but what he saw was reality. It was Gaeul. His heart again had this rapid rate at the sight of the name. He sat up, his back leaning against the pile of pillows before his finger, that hovered over the read button, touched the screen and opened the message.

His brows frowned in confusion before his mind changed into a state of slight panic and then it was hope. Maybe everything would be fine afterall. Maybe now they had time away from each other they realized they needed each other. Hakyeon quickly typed an answer back.

[Text; Milady] Hey. Sure. When and where do you wanna meet?

Gaeul sat straight on her kitchen’s chair, teeth nibbling restlessly at her lower lip while she waited for an answer from Hakyeon - any kind of answer, actually. Maybe he didn’t even want to see her so she’d have to call him because she just couldn’t keep for herself what was currently happening. After all, he was partly involved in this new and unexpected situation she was finding herself in and she knew that keeping such a secret would not result into something good; she had seen enough movies that hiding a pregnancy always led to arguments and issues and she didn’t want this to happen.

Her phone rang and an indication popped up on the screen, startling the librarian. She was curious about her ex-boyfriend’s answer... But also terrified. It was too late to back down now though and even if Hakyeon and her never got back together, she still wanted for her child to know their father. God, she was already thinking about this. Looking up at her ceiling, her expression turned pleading as she murmured “Zeus, please help me-- Wait,no, you’re probably not the right person to ask considering your...many children.” Inhaling deeply, she placed a hand over her stomach and opened the text, a soft sigh of relief leaving her lips at the positive answer. “Good. That’s good... One part down, the second part is left.”

(text: Hakyeon) Tomorrow, 5pm? At that small coffee shop near the library, if that’s okay with you. I hope you can make it, it’s rather... urgent. Nothing you have to worry of, though! I’m fine. But still urgent. 

[jeongaeul]

[voicemail] *long hesitation, his heart drumming against his chest heavily, his breathing becomes heavier] I---I'm sorry, I shouldn't have. [end voicemail]

She comes back from her appointment at the doctor, the quietness in her apartment calming her down - what she was suspecting for a whole month has been confirmed two hours ago and Gaeul isn’t sure how she is supposed to react. Her life is about to change… But she doesn’t know if it’s for the best or the worst. A deep sigh leaves her bare lips and she flops down on her couch, exhausted both physically and emotionally. Everything is so tiring lately, she just feels like curling up under her blanket and forget the world for about…seven months. More or less. 

She reaches for her phone to turn it off as she just wants some moment of peace for a few hours just so she could get her thoughts straight but there’s voicemail message waiting for her and she mindlessly puts the phone to her ear, not knowing what to expect and maybe she should have read properly because when she hears Hakyeon’s voice in her ear, there’s a lump in her throat and she both feels like crying her heart out and throwing up. Not sure which one is going to happen first.

She isn’t sure what Hakyeon means by those words, she feels too tired to think. And… well. She has to see Hakyeon to talk to him.

He is the father of the life she is carrying, after all. 

[jeongaeul]

☆

send me a ☆ for our muses to stargaze together

It was still quite early when Gaeul arrived in front of the Planetarium, the queue to walk in empty of anyone else even though the doors were already opened but she wasn’t surprised: she had specifically picked a weekday to go there as she knew that there wouldn’t be a lot of people and she’d be able to look at the fake sky and stars without much problems. It was always more difficult to focus on what the professor was explaining when there was a constant buzz in the background because of the many people who were murmuring and mumbling stuff that probably had nothing to do about the stars. 

Giving her ticket to the lady at the entrance, she then walked into the round room and sat down on a a red seat that immediately leaned backwards and with a light squeak Gaeul found herself staring up at the ceiling. In a few minutes, the room would grow dark and the night sky, along the constellations and the most famous stars would appear while the MC would be explaining how the system solar was working. It was rather fascinating and Gaeul couldn’t hide her excitement on her face, a smile forming on her lips almost like a child who came there for the first time. 

The seat next to hers made a sound and she turned her head curiously. The smile fell off of her face at the sight of the familiar person who was staring up at the ceiling but before she could say something, the doors were closed, the room turned dark and a soft music filled it up. Gaeul ended being unable to focus on the stars with Hakyeon’s presence next to her - especially when he kept on sending her glances and despite her curiosity, she was way too distracted, questions that had nothing to do with the universe running around in her head. Why was he here? Coincidence or did he follow her? Did he lose his mind? Maybe it’s just fate? Ahhh. Mystery. 

( At some point though, she ended up kicking his leg. Hard. )

[jeongaeul]

“She loves me, she loves me not… oh.” hakyeon

VALENTINE’S INSPIRED MEMES

The all too familiar voice had Gaeul looking up from her phone as she stepped out of the elevator. Her eyebrows furrowed slightly firstly in confusion and secondly in worry at the sight of Hakyeon sitting in front of her door, his head tilted down. A soft sigh slipped past her red painted lips and she walked over to him, crouching down to face him while she wondered why he was there, if he was okay, if something had happened to me– they may have broken up but it didn’t mean that she was able to stop caring about him. 

“Hakyeon.” She called to try and get his attention. He looked up at her and she felt relieved to see that he didn’t seem to be drunk or hurt. Well, at least not physically hurt… She couldn’t say for sure that he wasn’t emotionally hurt anymore. “Hakyeon, what are you doing…? Are you alright…? Come on, let’s get you inside or you’re going to catch a cold.” 

Her voice was soft but firm before she tried to tug him upwards so he could walk inside of her place. It wasn’t the best solution for them, it would probably not help them to heal properly but Gaeul knew that she couldn’t leave him outside in this state. She still cared, too much. 

[jeongaeul]

Do you have a Valentine yet?” hakyeon

VALENTINE’S INSPIRED MEMES

“I don’t.” Gaeul replied honestly although the tone of her voice remained soft, almost unsure of how to talk to Hakyeon. They weren’t even talking face to face, he had called her and she had answered - she didn’t even know why but she felt that letting her phone ring endlessly wasn’t the right thing to do. Maybe she was wrong, but what did she know anyway? Every single of her choices lately seemed wrong. 

Running her fingers through her cat’s soft fur, she let the silence linger for a while longer. She didn’t want to ask him if he had a Valentine. That wouldn’t help her or even him to heal and move on - because that was why they had broken up, right? Because her heart had been unable to heal even after he came back. A soft sigh left her lips. “I have things to do so…” She trailed off, easily imagining the disappointment on Hakyeon’s face at this moment. She knew him by heart. “You…Uhm, yeah, bye.” 

[jeongaeul]

“don’t walk away.”

three word starters

When she had bumped into the demi-god in the middle of an otherwise empty street, Gaeul had been unable to look up at the sky with a small glare as she mentally accused the Olympus Gods and Goddesses of ruining her life. Out of all the places she could have bumped into Hakyeon, it had to be in a small city out of Seoul where the population was mostly consisting of elders – it did not feel like a coincidence but she was pretty sure it wasn’t fate either. Either Hakyeon was stalking her - which she highly doubted - either it had to do with the high powers up there,  in the sky. “Not subtle.” She muttered under her breath. And then, she looked down at where his tanned fingers were delicately wrapped around her thin wrist. The warmth spreading through their skins felt both familiar and foreign. 

Inhaling deeply, she gathered all of her self-control so she was able to look at Hakyeon. The pleading look in his eyes had her almost breaking down but she had to be strong – he deserved better than her, she knew it. She was unable to love, to give him the love he needed and wanted from her. “Please let me go.” She whispered but made no move to walk away. She was a walking contradiction; she wasn’t understanding herself anymore and if there was one person she should have been running away from, it wasn’t Hakyeon but herself. 

“I can’t stay, I’m sorry.” She was always feeling sorry lately. It was tiring. “I have a bus to catch, if I miss it I’ll have to find a place to sleep in this village and I’m not sure that there’s even a motel so…” She trailed off, biting down on her lower lip. Adventures usually didn’t scare her. “I have to go.” 

[jeongaeul]

“don’t forget me.”

three word starters

The slurred speech that reached her ear just before dawn had Gaeul wondering for how long Hakyeon had been drinking. And many more questions came tumbling down but she never let them slip past her lips and instead just listened to him muttering nonsense, her name sometimes coming out in the middle of  a one-sided conversation he was having. Bringing her legs to her chest, she leaned her forehead against her knees and found herself attacked with one particular thought: it was her fault if Hakyeon called her in such state. She had been the one who broke up with him. 

Her eyes flitted over to the empty space of her bed that he used to fill with his firm, tanned body. Cassiopeia bumped her head against her stomach and Gaeul looked down at the kitten who was looking up at her expectantly. Right, it was in the past now. It was difficult but she needed to keep on living her life, she needed to take care of herself and her cats and lingering in the past was only bringing back unnecessary pain and hurtful memories. 

“Go to sleep Hakyeon.” I will not forget you. “I’m hanging up now. Good night.” Please take care of yourself.