#;kangjoon

[rkyooa]

fall to pieces.

the day is tough, after all is said and done, but she didn’t expect the night to be worse. she figured the initial shock and pain from the break up would start to ease and maybe she’d be emotionally exhausted and be able to sleep because of it. boy, was she wrong. a year and a half, gone just like that. 

on the one hand she gets it, and that’s why she didn’t give seulgi a hard time over it. shiah was just as ambitious, and she knows seulgi had been training for longer than she had. the desire to make sure everything goes right was something shiah more than understood. it just... sucked. she didn’t want to feel like she wasn’t worth fighting for, or that it was so easy to be dropped at the sight of debut, but... well, that’s kind of how she felt. what made all of that difficult was how well she understood the reason behind it. how could she be mad when she couldn’t blame her? heartbreak was easier to deal with when she could be angry about it, that’s how she dealt with toshi leaving her out of nowhere. this was rough, because she couldn’t be mad, so she didn’t know how to cope, and it was driving her absolutely insane. 

why kangjoon was the one who came to mind to turn to, shiah didn’t know. maybe it was the long lost crush she had had on him once upon a time, maybe it was the fact that she used to vent to him about toshi, past lovers, so her mind landed on him. either way, everything was a blur, and suddenly she had her phone on her ear while she laid in her bed and his ringtone playing through the ear phone as the call attempted to connect.

“pick up, please... oppa, pick up...”

@rkkangjoon

[rkyooa]

okay!

the eval for this month was definitely a fun one, and shiah was going all out with it. her and minhee were an amazing duo when they put their heads together, and since they were allowed to work with trainees from other companies, this seemed like the perfect opportunity to pull out another impeccable performance. the two had settled on one of the most ridiculous and campy acts in k-pop; strawberry milk. they were going to do their song ok! but... well, shiah had nothing in terms of costumes for something like that. 

so she turned to kangjoon.

he had awesome halloween costumes, so he must have known of some places she could go to to look for costumes, and perhaps she could drag him along to go shopping with her and pick out the necessary pieces to make awesome costumes for them both. “oppa!” she called in the middle of the hall in royal, spying him and narrowing her eyes at him playfully before heading over to him. “i require your services. do you know any good costume shops around the city?”

@rkkangjoon

[rkyooa]

round about.

lately things had been pretty awkward and stressful for shiah romantically, what with her ex always coming around now, constantly in and out of her life to do her head in, and that little crush she had on kangjoon creeping up on her every now and then. recently with minho being around so much, it was hard to focus on anything, so she was working on shutting off all her emotions so she could stay focused on her training. she had really improved on her rapping as of late. she was proud of how far she had come, satisfied that if need be, she could fill a rapper role instead of a singer role in a group (or do both, of course). now it was time to look back to her singing abilities and perfect them to the point of being acceptable in a group. 

how the heck could she do that when her head was a mess?

she sat in the cafeteria, poking at her salad, frustrated thoughts swimming through her brain as always. they consumed her to the point where she didn’t even notice what was going on around her. sometimes other trainees whispered about her when she ate alone, sometimes people would approach her, see how swamped she was, and then leave, and sometimes people were bold and brave enough to sit with her in her zoned out state. today, it seemed, kangjoon had picked the latter. shiah looked up at him, pulling from her thoughts, that familiar jolt jumping in her chest, though she was basically immune to it now. she smiled at him, her smile a little sad looking. “hey, how goes it?”

@rkkangjoon

[rkyooa]

hallowith me?

most things had been looking down for shiah lately. the rooms within royal were less and less occupied, many friends and... others... had dropped out of her life, her family situation was on the rocks to say the least, and now it seemed that her health was even starting to decline - she was tired almost all the time, she got tired way too easily now and she didn’t know why. she would have to start investing in some energy drinks or protein shakes or something. ugh, protein shakes, her stomach was already doing flip flops at the idea of that.

even with all that negativity piling up, though, she had found herself thinking - more like daydreaming - about something, or someone, else entirely. ever since he had walked into that rehearsal room and pressed that water bottle to her cheek she hadn’t been able to get the handsome man off her mind. as much as she wanted to deny it, when she caught herself smiling stupidly at a water bottle of all things she knew it was true: yoo shiah had a crush. 

she was allowed to have a crush, of course. it was healthy, actually. she needed to move on to better, brighter things, think about possibilities rather than dwell on the murky past. the only thing she didn’t like about it were the nerves and butterflies she felt whenever she saw him in the hallway or when he said hi to her. it was silly, as if she was in high school again, but she couldn’t help it. he was really cute too, after all. so she found herself trying to build up the nerve to ask him to spend time with her outside of training. 

the first time she had tried had been a complete bust. she had waited around by the front doors of the royal building for hours, only to find out from another trainee that kangjoon had been at seocho that day instead. the second time she tried to approach him some other person walked right up to him and asked to hang out, right as she was walking up to him. she had to close her mouth and non-chalantly act like she was just trying to move past them to get out of the building. yeah, not embarrassing at all. this third time would be the charm though, because she had a plan. 

it was halloween and even though she was dying from that physical fitness test, she knew they were both in the same building and so far no one else was in sight besides him. she had her costume in her bag, ready to change into. she wasn’t quite in a party mood but she had set her heart on going out and at least seeing the other costumes people had made for tonight in the hongdae area. lots of people dressed up and walked around or went to clubs in that area on halloween, so it would be fun to just walk around and maybe hand out candy to people. maybe, just maybe, kangjoon would want to go with her. 

she had to take a deep breath and pep herself up a bit before approaching him, but once she did she did so with confidence and a sweet smile. “hey kangjoon! tough evaluation today, huh?” she bounced on her toes, trying to fight the urge to bite her lip - gosh, was he cute! “i was wondering if you had any plans for halloween? i know there are some parties going on and all but i was planning to walk around hongdae for a bit, maybe hand out some candy. did you maybe want to come with me? just for a little bit, anyways, i wouldn’t want to ruin any of your plans.”

@rkkangjoon

[rkyooa]

new face.

while being serious and truly developing skill was important, having funny, entertaining things up her sleeve for variety was also important. the great thing about new face by psy was that it was the perfect balance of both since the dance was high energy and actually a display of her skill as a dancer while it was just plain funny that a tiny girl like shiah would do some aggressive psy choreography. the weekly idol mcs wouldn’t know what hit them when they saw shiah’s new face.

as stated before though, the dance was high energy. a lot of the moves were very big, and if they weren’t she had to make them big so it’d be that much funnier. another run through of the choreography and shiah found herself on the ground, covered in sweat, completely exhausted. hos psy managed to keep some weight on while doing dances like this all the time was beyond her.

this wasn’t her best moment to catch her in, but do you think the universe would let her have a break? nope. while she rested there, eyes closed with the temptation to fall asleep right there, she heard the door open. she heavily debated whether she should bother looking up at them or not. it was probably dahye who would end up laying next to her. when the person hadn’t made their way over to her that’s when shiah dared a peak, her eyes blasting wide when she saw it was a boy she didn’t know. “uh.. hi? yes hi. hello. i’m.. i’m shiah. and i’m sorry.” 

@rkkangjoon

[rkyooa]

[/txt - Yooe] Oppa is wishing you a Happy Birthday, Yooe

[ kkt; joonpa ] awww, thanks oppa! i appreciate it <3 

[rkyooa]

.chocolate lotus

Just like his grandmother had always taught him, Kang Joon knew he had to return the favor and show his gratitude. A month ago he had surprisingly received chocolate from Yooa. But since he just knew how to make homemade dishes (mostly based on meat and stuff) he didn’t dared to make some himself in order to return it on White Day. So when he heard about Chococon, he was somewhat relieved. He didn’t intended to be a asshole, so this was the only way to thank her properly.

From the way Yooa always behaved around him Kang Joon had noticed her little crush on him, he appreciated her feelings, but didn’t approached her about it because of the contract tieing both of them down. In particular he didn’t really thought intended to do something about it at all, if she never confessed, there wouldn’t be any need in rejection. Sounded pretty much what a asshole would do, but it was his way to protect both her and his dream of getting to the very top. Even when he had moved on, there was still a tiny part of him missing Rose, and he wouldn’t ever make the same mistake and date someone from Royal. The chance of falling apart was just too high. And regardless everything, he hadn’t pretty much thought about Yooa in that way yet. Probably shouldn’t as well.

So he just goes out, rushing through Chococon, not even paying much attention about everything that can be done, just fastly grabbing something which might be of Yooa’s type. He is still a little allergic to happy couples after all. When he turns around the corner, his amber coloured eyes noticed a chocolate lotus which seemed pretty perfect. It reminded of him but at the same time, remembered her of the flower he was representing in the Royal Garden, the same garden she was blooming in as well. They weren’t supposed to let their friendship rot away.

As soon as he had bought the present, he returned to the Royal building, in hope of meeting the female he was supposed to give it to. Upon seeing her, he approached her with a big, cheerful smile. “Yooa! Come with me for a second, I have a little for you!”

As well as the Valentines chocolates turned out, she knew better than to expect anything back from Kangjoon, or from any boy for that matter, on White Day. Her previous relationship hadn’t worked out due to her dedication to the trainee life, and she was far too busy to meet anyone new too, and dating within the company? That seemed like a disaster waiting to happen. Maybe she would just surprise Dahye with some chocolates and call it a day.

As usual, she spent the day in the practice studio, working on her rapping, spending the whole day on it as always. One would think she’d be bored of it by now but her determination wouldn’t allow for that to happen. The coach had come to really like her by now, but with that amount of time spent together you’d have to either love or hate the person. She felt lucky it was the ‘love’ side that she fell on with him. She had progressed a lot, but there was still a long way to go if she wanted it to be a viable skill to show off. If Royal knew anything about her, though, it was that she would power through until she achieved what she wanted to achieve. 

She was on a small break, meant for her to eat which she was getting more accustomed to now. She wandered slowly in a small routine around the door of her studio she had been in most of the day already, stretching her arms as she took bites of a sandwich. She needed to stay limber so she could avoid soreness of course. That was when she heard his voice. She hadn’t been expecting it, he had caught her off guard, sending a blush over her cheeks. She forced herself to swallow, setting the food down with the rest of her packed meal, wiping her hands off before turning to him, trying to smile. 

“Kangjoon oppa! Hi!” She gave a small wave, hoping to God she didn’t have any crumbs on her mouth. “Hm? You have... wait what?” He had something for her? She was confused beyond belief, but she gave a nod and began to follow him. What on earth could he have for her? It wasn’t... no, it couldn’t be. There was no way.