#;seonho

[rkyooa]

beginning’s end.

with less than a month away from her contract’s end, shiah didn’t have much else on her mind. she had managed to find a way to balance her trainee life with the rest of her life, but she knew any shot at debut was ways away. she had made a home in royal though, and she really couldn’t see herself anywhere else. she just hoped they wanted her to stay another two years, but was she ready to spend the next two years waiting for debut? she needed a challenge, and things had just gotten easier in recent months for her. 

so many thoughts were swimming through her head, and yet she couldn’t settle on what she truly wanted. she could always go back to modelling, maybe even go to school for fashion design. she wasn’t much of an actress but she could always give that a try too, or be a back up dancer. she had options, all of which she was sure her dad would support, but still... which option was the right option?

things only complicate further when she sees seonho in the halls at royal, and she can’t help but stop him. “seonho!” she figured it might be easier for him. he was young, he could still do school while training to be an idol and it’d be fine. for shiah, it wasn’t as easy. she was older now, an adult. still, his thoughts might be helpful. “so... contract renewal is soon. do you know what you’re gonna do?”

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[rkyooa]

teardrop.

the past week had been a ghost. shiah had been walking around as a shell of herself, and everything around her was veiled in a blurry translucence, as if it all were apparitions. something that had been so sure to her, something she had a good chunk of her hopes set on had disappeared out of her life and she didn’t know how to handle it. to cope for now, she had locked her emotions up, refusing to let herself fall apart and spill all of her inner chaos everywhere. she had stuff to do, people to see, she had to keep it together, but this... it wasn’t keeping it together, it was being a robot, and she needed to let this out somewhere before it became too much and she just burst at the seams.

the first person she spotted when she had finally decided to let it out was seonho, and it was almost as if it were fated to happen that way. he was the other trainee that had been signed at the same time as her and dahye, so maybe he’d understand a bit of what she was going through. she didn’t know exactly how close they had become, but she and dahye were best friends, determined to debut together, it had been a promise, but it wasn’t going to happen that way now. 

she goes up to seonho and takes his hand, giving him a sad smile as her eyes glistening with the brink of tears ready to flow. she brings him wordlessly to an empty studio, ducking to the side so no one could see them through the small window on the door if they walked by. she leaned against the wall, looking to him, no longer masking her pain and simply letting it read on her face. “dahye’s gone. she terminated her contract.” and from there she saw nothing but a greyish blur. 

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[rkyooa]

foods? foods.

shiah had only been part of one episode of dream knights, and filming for that alone had been exhausted. now she knew why she never wanted to be an actress, because filming was at ridiculous hours and never ended. you couldn’t go home and sleep until every single shot was captured, and if that meant being up and acting for more than 24 hours straight, then that’s what it meant. the industry was severely toxic, there was no denying that, but shiah couldn’t really do much to change that. she could only help those being affected.

so, she decided to make her way to the set one day with some goodiebags for the boys who were all still filming (and one for ella as well, of course). luckily, one of her closest friends within royal itself, seonho, was one of the first boys she bumped into. “seonho!” she skips over and gives him a giant, squishy hug, and since he’s much younger than her she knows he has to take it whether he wants it or not. perks of being the noona. 

“ah, you must be working so hard! i hope you’re not too tired. i brought you some food to help you keep going!” she hands him his bag which has a couple wrapped sandwiches, some fruits, and a couple protein bars inside, along with a bottle of water and a juice pouch. “you need to keep your sugar up! and stay hydrated!”

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[junerk]

sleepy times.

training, finishing school and exams, graduating, dealing with an overbearing mother-- all of this had piled up on him, but he was finally able to scratch two of those things off the list. now that he had his degree he could just focus on training and making his mom happy, he didn’t have to worry about anything else, which was really, really nice. still, now that it was over and he had pushed through it all, his body was collapsing in on itself and exhaustion was taking over. 

so when he waddled on home and found seonho on the couch, his immediate reaction was to use him as a bed and just fall asleep. he kicks his shoes off, drops his coat and scarf on the ground in a trail towards the couch, and then just melts on top of the younger boy, closing his eyes and already feeling half asleep. “hi.” is all he manages, his arms sort of, kind of moving to somewhat hug him in an attempt to try and make this affection rather than defeat of his energy and stamina. 

“how are you?” he mumbles, face buried in his shoulder, voice low. soon the snores would be coming too. 

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