matt after that last anon:
seen from United States

seen from United States

seen from Türkiye
seen from China

seen from Angola
seen from United States
seen from China
seen from China
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seen from Sweden
seen from Sweden

seen from Sweden
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matt after that last anon:
💏 - heartofthepractice
get your smooches from matt! accepting.
2. … goodnight.there were brief, rare moments when matt forgot himself and let his guard down. times when the emotional turmoil within bled out and into his collected and impeccably suited persona, and others when he simply relaxed from the cast-iron hold he had on himself and tried a new thing called living. closing a case with a smashing victory, devastating their stomachs at a local eatery before throwing back a few well-earned drinks and trading rounds of slurry banter at josie’s until they were all giggles and brief touches and sharp intakes of breath. it was the balmy and nostalgic familiarity of it all that pushed him into a false sense of security. it felt like one of those perfect moments, crystallised in time and hidden from the eyes of the watchers who would have him cursed before he could take any shred of solace for himself; it was an illusion of course, for there was no such blessing for the murdock boys. but somehow it felt as if the pleasantries of the evening had slowly and inevitably built up to that culmination upon the threadbare steps to foggy’s apartment, and matt felt a strange kind of warmth blossom across his chest, rising to his collar and dusting his cheeks with a renewed shade of pink that was even lovelier than that which had painted them after a few drinks. it was the ebb and flow of an old comfort merging with a novel form of trepidation. they’d fallen uncharacteristically quiet, and it wasn’t one of their usual comfortable silences - it was rife with anticipation. he felt the unmistakable fluttering in his stomach, the pleasant tingling at the back of his knees, and heard the loud thumping in the cage of foggy’s ribs. he was an open book, and matt hated himself for skimming through the pages of such an intimate diary, like he didn’t have a choice. but he read the signs, he always did. and he knew– he knew, and was helplessly deaf to it: it was a siren’s call that he couldn’t heed, a quiet yearning he had to ignore. and while true ignorance would have been bliss, this was the kind that fuelled the gut consuming guilt of prying into his best and oldest friend’s most intimate secrets. it was life ultimate’s slap in the face: to have nothing if not foggy’s tell-tale heart and the song of his lungs, to be unable to read and address the nervous anticipation in his face or the glistening hope in his eyes. he didn’t know how to stay the tender yet visceral instinct that came over him as he leaned in to kiss the damp side of foggy’s open mouth. it was not long enough to catch the bated breath between foggy’s lips, but it was enough to remember himself before he could slip into a long forbidden comfort and do some irreparable damage to the only relationship he ever managed to hold onto. he drew back quickly and offered a wanly placid smile, as if nothing happened, emotion once more tucked quietly behind red shades and a practiced façade. behind him, a street lamp flickered and gave way to darkness.in another life, perhaps …“goodnight, foggy.”
@heartofthepractice