#{mun speaking}

[oc-culture]

With this new dashboard design its no wonder people wont reblog stuff anymore.

It just takes to many clicks to even get to the proper reblog...

Even I find myself tired of it...

[eternalstarlights]

Hello everyone! I just want to thank everyone who has followed and roleplay with me for another fun year. It is now the 10th year for me!

I know I am currently on hiatus, so thank you for being patient with me. Cheers for more fun times together!

Also, just a note, a lot of you have multiple blogs so I am only going to tag one of your blogs.

@featherchan, @frozcnlight, @fallesto, @praeteritus-memories, @frost-eyed-autumn, @thehealerhairpin, @a-hell-of-a-lot-of-muses, @demon-blood-youths, @diverse-hearts, @purpletsuki, @visionsofecho, @battleboulder, and to the mysterious anon who send me Granblue Fantasy asks! (Sorry, I haven’t answer your last one yet!)

Happy 10 years of rping with each other! :)

[the-hundred-tons-lda]

If you think it's okay to harass other bloggers for the characters they play get off my fucking blog.

[redheartedtramp]

Attention Typhlosion fans - and various other Pokemon that got hit in the Pokemon Gigaleak.

I'd like to remind you all that the leaks are unreleased, non-canon content. It's little more than fanfiction, no different from Disney keeping stacks of porn drawn by their employees.

So stop sending death threats to my Typhlosion or I WILL have him burn your ass.

He can only be so chill for so long.

[askwonshovalier]

[ Hi !! Mun here ~

Thank you very much for following me here on this askblog ! I hope you enjoy your time with me :)

Please look forward to the story of WxS chevaliers ! ]

[saiyanandproud]

I'm having very mixed feelings about this blog lately.

They're complex and difficult to put into words, but I felt the need to articulate them so I could reason on them better, maybe get some advice. I've put the whole reflection under 'read more', as it turned out to be quite a long one -- if anyone ends up reading it, I appreciate the time put into it.

As I realised this blog was created nearly 10 years ago, I reasoned it went through so many different phases: at first, it was strictly Dragon Ball-related (and so was the community I mostly interacted with); then, as the DB community became narrower, I opened it to more side-verses to allow for flexibility, and Mariko interacted with muses belonging to different universes -- her being a Time Patroller allowed for different possibilities with it. Lately, however, I feel like the potential for interactions has narrowed down further. Partly because the number of people I regularly interacted with became smaller, and partly because the frequency of interaction grew more sporadic.

At first it was mostly because of people being busy, which happens; but even then, as soon as I'd get a prompt or a chance for a reply, I would quickly jump on it, because I still loved writing Mariko and keeping her relationships alive and active. Lately, however, I realised there was a lack of engagement on my part too. I don't know if it was because I was waiting for replies more often than I would be writing them: my replies were often quick to come to my mind, so I would usually write them down and post them almost instantly, which I understand it's not always the case, and the fact that I would then have to wait for a while was a necessary consequence of it.

But on top of that, as the community I interacted with narrowed down, so did the chances of writing something beyond casual responses to asks. Along with waiting becoming more frequent than engagement, this all boiled down to a point where I now often look at this blog and feel it has become, for lack of better words, pointless -- and at times, so has its muse.

I do still like Mariko as a character, I'm still fond of her and of the unexpressed written potential she has; but as the opportunities for it are running shorter, I'm wondering if putting any energies into this blog still has a point, as the frustration over the lack of chances to write her is becoming more frequent and intense than the pleasure I get from writing her when I can. Even the random asks I get only feel like short-terms interaction, or even just a simple Q&A single session, and so I wonder whether I feel like answering them at all, because I often think it’ll land nowhere. I have many asks in my inbox that have been abandoned there for months because of this, when I would usually never pass a chance to write, and the more I see them, the more it saddens me. As an extension, even Mariko now feels uninteresting -- not just in the way I am afraid people would perceive her as such, but even to me, because given the current situation for potential interactions, I don’t think she has much to offer.

I guess it all ended up creating a negative loop: I used to reply instantly and then wait; waiting became more common; opportunities feel more “low commitment"; initiative now feels heavier and enthusiasm doesn’t come as automatically. Which leads to the next issue: the problem is that I'm also picky. I like intense threads, I like plotting, I like engagement and brainstorming. I'm always up for it, but I'm also very selective about who I'd like to participate on it with, and at the same time I understand it's probably not everyone's cup of tea, or people are too busy to dedicate too much time to it. I don't think I've ever lacked initiative when I was interested in a potential mutual, but I also don't like to be the one prodding the other more frequently. That's not a matter of pride, it's just because I've experienced both mutual engagement and one-sided one, and when the latter happens more often, I just assume the other person is probably not as interested; in this case, I just prefer to not insist further and risk passing as annoying, and instead adjust to whatever comes my way whenever the other person feels like interacting.

While it can be a bit disheartening, I know it's part of the whole RP deal. I’ve seen the RP landscape changing across the years, and as community engagement evolves, so do engagement methods. Maybe short interactions are just more frequent recently, as people might not have the time/energy/motivation to plan for something long-term, but I feel it’s not a style of writing that keeps me motivated. Maybe it's just physiological -- sometimes, what used to work for you just doesn't anymore. Maybe it will again, maybe not. But even then, I feel guilty about it, and I tell myself I should still love a soil that gives me my favourite fruits, even if it now only happens rarely. It’s just that, as of lately, the bitterness that comes with frustration over this change overtakes the gratification of the little chances of enjoyment I get.

I also feel bad towards Mariko as my own creation, as I feel I’m not giving her the dedication I wish I could give her as a character; but lately, the more I look at her, the more I wonder “what am I supposed to do with you?”. Even drawing her saddens me, as I realise the scenarios I put into my art are just projections of what I wish I could explore in writing, but lack the chances to. With this, I realise these are also constraints that come with writing only one muse, as the range of potential interactions always boils down to one character. I have other single-muses blogs, but in Mariko's case, I feel she's very rooted in a certain role/range of actions, and can't be easily isekai-ed in other verses without proper plotting (and even then, again, there's the whole deal of how much people wish to commit to plotting and engage in it, or if I feel the effort put in it is worth it). Maybe I expect too much of her when it comes to writing, I’m not sure. I've considered making a multimuse blog too, but the enthusiasm over the idea fluctuates a lot; I'm very "all in" when I'm into a character/story, and I'm not sure this same enthusiasm would work when writing many characters at once.

This being said, I'd like to say this is a call for "hey, if it hasn't been clear already, I'm happy to write with you!" -- in a way, I wish I could say it is, but it wouldn’t be fully true, because given my current mood about this whole issue, I'm not sure how I feel about my own will to engage on this blog. I wish I felt different about -- better, more enthusiastic, more motivated -- I've tried to prompt myself to do so, but after a while, the mood drops again.

I realise posting about it and saying stuff like this is basically shooting in my own foot, as I doubt it’d make anyone more motivated about reaching out (if anything, quite the contrary). On top of that, I feel even more guilty about writing all this stuff, because I was often the one upset by seeing posts like this, but this confusion has been haunting me for a while, and I felt the need to articulate it somewhere, black on white, to get it out of my system (and since this is my RP blog, well, I guess it was the most fitting place to write this stuff).

I don't know. I'm still very confused about it all, but it was a confusion I needed to externalise. I wanted to do something with it, and I decided to post it here so it wouldn’t just be put in a drawer until it comes back to bother me again. After all, clarity comes through articulation.

That being said, this post was not made with the intent of keeping people at distance, but if anything, the opposite: if anyone feels like throwing their two cents at me about it, tell me if any of this mess resonates with them, share experiences that might reframe mine, they're welcome to. Hopefully it'd help clearing up my mind further.

[daily-nyoengland]

This is a new blog dedicated to collecting posts about Nyo England. Probably going to be very fanart heavy, but I'd also like to include fic, moodboards, and whatever else I can find here on Tumblr. If you find something you think belongs here, send it my way via asks, submissions, or DMs. This blog is mostly run by queue.

[scramjettracy]

OOC: mun here!

Quick admin post about tags as I try to make this a blog where you can easily ensure you only see the stuff you want to and the rest doesn’t overwhelm your dash - so here’s some thoughts on how to navigate this blog or what to filter if there are some bits that don’t bring you joy!

(I’m really big on filters, not always to hide stuff forever but just to curate what I see when I open the dash and what I then deliberately seek out).

(I will make the blue stuff into proper links later)

If the longer narrative stories aren’t what you are wanting when you follow the thunderbirds RP tag or this blog then you can just filter the #thunderscenes tag. I’ll work on some title tags for each of the stories too so you can filter them individually.

Or only look at the #thundersocials tag.

If the bro angst isn’t for you (I know we get carried away but it’s a fun challenge to write and I take any opportunity the fic muse gives me right now!) then I use #thunderfamilyangst tag pretty consistently for that.

As per pinned post this version of Scott isn’t in a relationship right now but would like to be. He gets asked about it a lot and replies to a percentage of those but if you’re at all uncomfortable with romance or sex or your preferred version of Scott is already happily settled down with one of the many options the fandom holds dear for him I’ll tag #romanticflyboy from now (and gradually go back and tag past ones). He’s desperate to be Chief Scout one day so he tries to be a wholesome and good example but sometimes he might be a little cheeky, there might be innuendo, occasionally there’s a hint of him being a little uh… reckless with his heart, or he’s responding to other posts which are a bit more risqué so I’ll use #adultflyboy. The thunderthirstbot ones are a given, I ain’t gonna go and re tag all those 😉.

Although I said it wasn’t going to feature much initially, the whole bereznik past thing has popped up in places. If that’s isn’t your bag / headcanon I’m going to go back and tag those with #powScott.

And finally I have started to use the blog to explore the idea of Scott finally getting some professional help to process everything instead of just pushing through to be strong for everyone else and live up to what he feels is expected of him. I’m trying to be realistic so it isn’t all butterflies and fairies but I’m intending it to be very positive on the topic of getting help, for all that it’s hard. Again, if that isn’t for you no judgment here at all - I’m going to go back tag everything directly relating to that as #mentalhealthScott so should be an easy filter.

I’m going to keep answering random asks and putting up a good amount of frivolous and fun stuff too so even if you filter all the serious stuff the flyboy should still be worth a follow :)

Very keen on this blog to be a safe place for everyone so please do let me know if there is anything else you’d like me to tag or flag etc or if I missed one do ‘share’ the link with me in a DM and I’ll fix asap.

I’ll link to this from pinned post once I’ve updated that, so for my own reference I’ll start dropping the other tags I commonly use below and make some links and stuff. Essentially this is a work in progress for my compulsive need to categorise everything to feel free to use or ignore as you please 🙃

Full tags list for ScramJetTracy

#flyboy thoughts (original posts)

#scott answers (ask responses)

#big brothering (responses to other RP blogs)

#tb1 community engagement (responses to non-RP blogs)

#smotherhen is go

#Scott loves pie

#dancing Scott

#Scott talks flying things

#Scott on birds

#Scott on memes (spoiler - he’s usually clueless)

#pen & ink

#ceo life

#scott in troll mode

#spectrum rp