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[gowonxrk]

♔ {2018.08} - update

{although i’ve been absent throughout most of august baby won was really busy with her life so there are a bunch of ic changes again! i’ll break down the most important here for everyone interested - another (more detailed) timeline for my own purpose will be posted by the beginning of september in hopes i’ll update that one each month so i have everything i need in one place anybody noticing that i’m a freak for lists and stuff...? that’s the ravenclaw within me i guess... but yeah! to put it short chaewon is totally overworking herself throughout most of august and will continue to do so in september, the exact reasons for that are under the read more~

– chaewon is still working at the clothing store located at the streets of hongdae but she switched her shifts so that she works monday-wednesday eight hours a day and saturday regularly eight hours as well (more often then not she actually has to stay for up to ten hours on saturday but she doesn’t complain) – aside from working chaewon has some fixed kind of schedule from august 7th on including overall seven different dance classes (hip hop/ballet/lyrical though she only attends hip hop and lyrical every week twice, the others change every now and then) spread over five days as well as repeating schedules for photoshootings, video recordings and the alike – with such a tight schedule and her commitment to sowon (more onto that further down) she barely has any time for something else: especially scrolling through her sns, following the happenings at the mga’s and staying in contact with friends has been hard for her during this month and she tells herself to make some more room for social interaction in september again – her sleep rhythm suffers most from her behavior as she is sleeping way too less and by putting in more and more activities she’s cutting short on it even more - regularly she’s sleeping for about four to five hours a night – in exchange for all those sacrifices chaewon can see a drastic improvement in her dancing of the past month, she’s still uncomfortable with some styles as jazz or contemporary but she’s working up her muscles enough by using all her hiphop and ballet classes – as she’s getting better chaewon also gets more confident, during classes she’s dancing in the front more often and talking to the other students and the teacher for feedback - she knows she lacks a lot but she’s giving her best to become better – chaewon also tries her best to upload her sns constantly but notices how she’s often neglecting instagram and only posts there once every two or three days (opposed to her previous two-three posts every day) – she still tries to do more live content and keep her followers entertained - in her opinion a strong fanbase would be as important as her skills to convince people that she’s worth the time and money to become a trainee – chaewon’s makeup and hair tutorials on youtube are getting simpler and more on a ‘daily routine’ side with the weeks passing; one one hand they’re simpler and quicker to explain, on the other hand her skin shows various signs of exhaustion (mainly dryness, dark circles, minor breakouts) so she can start with her full foundation without having to show her bare face to the camera – the newest passion of chaewon is her own established ‘sowon foundation’ – as her sister soobin is working at the samsung medical center in seoul and chaewon went to visit her every now and then she got in contact with the daily life of a doctor, especially meeting sick children - knowing there’s a whole ward dedicated to children and at least two dozens of them being incurably sick chaewon decided she had to do something – after starting the website and donating her own money as the first one in late july she shared her thoughts on it through her sns and encouraged people to donate as well so that they could make some of those children happy by fulfilling their wishes (therefore she called it sowon) and against all odds it turned out to be working just fine with over 500,000 won being donated within the first four weeks – she is really proud of what she achieved and gives updates on the foundation as well as hosting some giveaways in order to motivate people to donate, she is putting almost as much afford into sowon as she puts into becoming a trainee – so to sum it up: right now chaewon is kind of self-destructive though for the right reasons and notices it but chooses to ignore it in order to achieve something, the chances of her having a break down within the next weeks is high but she refuses to listen to anyone telling her to stop