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[ithoughtitwasreal]

afraid of winter and fall although it is one season now and i generally enjoy them more than summer or spring, im scared of the loneliness it makes me feel, makes me feel like ill be susceptible to a relationship of some sort again. im afraid of the memory of running to the bus with my rabbit after through a painfully cold night and the bus not stopping for me, then another bus not waiting for me. i feel like i used to be a lot stronger. these days i mostly just sleep and work. i was under constant stress and it retained although the reasons arent there anymore. i dont see myself meeting anyone who would want to be with me anytime soon as i mostly go to work and nowhere else. dont really meet anyone either. but the trend for my relationship has been a rebound anyway, and the "eh, good enough" option to kind of profit from ("at least we profited from each other for some time" - my recent ex about our breakup) and complain to, and i just cannot take this ever again. so despite the fact that mostly working and sleeping is generally fine by me, i expect myself to start feeling dreadful and insane in a few months from now and to find someone who will once again find me good enough because no better options have appeared and consider me solid 5/10 ("not like youll be a supermodel") although after some time its just sunken cost fallacy

[ithoughtitwasreal]

im insufferably fantasizing about leaving everyone and everything behind, i keep looking at appliances i could move on my own without a car, i keep looking at portable batteries. i keep wishing i could be the one to leave people because i think there is less guilt when you consider yourself a bad person anyway than there is pain from someone else leaving

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