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[bxebxee]

And now for the next…

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뭐 드실래요?

Yoongi picks a cheap place two minutes away from the bus stop. It’s a busy, mom-and-pop shop that specializes in soup bowls.

“이모, 돼지국밥 2개요,” Yoongi orders for the two of you without thinking. The words barely leave his mouth before he catches himself. “아… 죄송해요… 습관이라…”

You smile and shake your head, waving off his apology. “아니에요. 돼지국밥 좋아해요.”

“이 집 정말 맛있어요,” Yoongi says, pulling out the chair for you to sit on in an odd, forward show of consideration. Not that Yoongi was ever rude, but he wasn’t the pull-chair-out kind of guy around the office. “맛집 급 이에요.”

“기대할게요.” It’s a little funny how you pass this place practically every day going to and from work, and you’ve never been here. The small restaurant is almost like a piece of furniture in the background of your life, an unmoving fixture that’s forgotten until the need arises.

There are minimal side dishes at this restaurant which is a little inconvenient because it really forces you to talk to Yoongi.

“불편하면 미안해요,” he apologizes yet again, “제 생각이 좀 짧았어요. 근데 이기적인 말 해도될까요?” When you nod, he takes a deep breath and speaks, “전 지금 너무 좋아요. 김주임이랑 단두리 밥먹는거. 너무 좋아요. 날라갈 거같아요. 애도 아닌데 제가 왜이러죠?”

You blink three times, unsure if you’re dreaming. To say this is unlike him would be an understatement. The food arrives and you’re saved from responding immediately to his uncharacteristic statements.

“혼란스러워요,” you finally say after three bites. “대리님 같지 않아서…”

He nods. “이해해요.”

Yoongi doesn’t push for more that night. He walks you to the bus stop and waits with you like a gentleman, but leaves it at that. A creepier man would have probably offered to escort you home, but Yoongi knows how to respect boundaries since this is so far beyond early that nothing has even begun.

He does ask you to text him when you’re home safe, and you agree.

“번호 딸려고 한게 아니에요.”

You cock your head to the side to look at him, narrowing your eyes as if to will the truth out of him. A bubble of self-deprecating laughter comes forth from Yoongi’s throat because he’s caught.

“번호 딸려고만 한게 아니에요,” he corrects himself sheepishly.

“대리님 정말…” you giggle, saving his contact anyway. “선수는 아니네요.”

“저 선수 맞거든요. 번호 딴거 보소!”

You shake your head. “딴게 아니고 제가 그냥 준거에요.”

You bus arrives, and you smile one last time. “저녁 잘먹었습니다,” you thank him, “조심히 들어가세요.”

[bxebxee]

I’m trying this out…

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“퇴근 안하세요?”

It’s a quarter past nine in the evening, and you are still plugging away at data mining for the quarterly spend analysis. The excel sheet has another four thousand lines left, and you know it’s going to take you another couple of hours. And yes, while you know your life would be so much easier if you knew how to do a vlookup properly or bothered to learn macros, who had the time in this day and age? You’d rather catch up on the dramas you missed.

“아직요,” you reply, tucking a stray hair behind your ear. “대리님은… 지금 가시게요?”

Min Yoongi nods, “도저히 못하겠어요. 머리도 안돌아가는데 뭐하러 여기 있어요. 내일 와서 마무리 할꺼에요.” Yoongi collects his effects as he shuts down his computer. Normally he’s the first one out the door, but he’s also behind on additional projects unloaded unto your section.

“너무 늦게 계시지 마세요. 어짜피 월급 안올려 줘요.” His tone is joking, but he’s dead serious. Min Yoongi is a firm believer of doing the bare minimum of what corporate asked for. You don’t quite agree with his approach considering you want to run a section by the time you’re thirty.

“들어가세요,” you call out as he waves while exiting.

You have three thousand, nine hundred, forty-seven lines left when Yoongi comes back.

“김주임,” he levels, fixing you with a hard look. “내일 하세요. 늦었는데 지하철역 까지 데려다 드릴게요.”

“아… 전 괜찮은데-”

He cuts you off with a sigh. “다 압니다. 김주임 일 열심히 꼼꼼하게 잘 하는거 다 압니다. 근데 이렇게까지 해도 이익 별로 없어요.”

Bullseye, right on target. You should have known that someone as astute and intelligent would have caught onto your ambition.

“과장님이 보고 내일까지 준비 해놓레요,” you confess, letting your coworker with just the slightest bit more seniority know of the near impossible demand.

“있는거 드리고 나머진 다음주 까지 드리겠습니다 라고 하면 되잖아요. 과장님 딱딱한 분이 아닌거 아시잖아요.” Yoongi isn’t wrong, but you rarely miss deadlines.

You heave a sigh because no one ever wants to be at work, but you’re still here because you have to be. Going home is sounding more and more attractive as Yoongi continues to sell you on the idea that putting in so much work would yield to nothing.

“그럼… 딱 5분만…”

Yoongi nods, mouth curving up into a relieved smile. “기다릴께요.”

He waits while you save all copies of your work. Unable to resist temptation, you email yourself the documents. Maybe you’d be able to resist the call of the television. (Who were you kidding? There was no way you’d be able to concentrate at home.)

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The night air feels good against your skin after spending nearly fourteen hours indoors in front of the computer screen. You stretch before taking a few steps next to Yoongi. His shirt is wrinkled after a long days work, a common sign of the office worker’s plight.

“야근 한지 오래됬죠?” you ask with a small smile when you notice how beat he looks.

“처음 입니다.”

“헐…” is your immediate response. Yoongi had been in the office for at least a good six months before you were hired too.

“전 야근 같은거 안해요. 돈 좀 올려 주면 모를테구…”

You chuckle half-heartedly, too tired to really find all of the humor in his words. Yoongi mirrors the same exhausted, huff of air that was supposed to be some semblance of a laugh.

“극한직업 민윤기…”

Yoongi spots a restaurant that doesn’t look too crowded, and he wonders if you’d even consider it.

“혹시… 식사 부터 하실래요?”

[bxebxee]

잘

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“너 잘 빤다…”

늉기를 한 입으로 삼키는게 어렵다. 근데 몇년 동안 늉기랑 같이 연습하면서 기술이 늘었다. 목구멍에 걸리면서 신음 소리를 작게 만들었다. 늉기에 바능은…

“시발…”

욕이 참… 쉽게 나왔다. 근데 늉기는 어렸을때부터 욕을 입에 매달리고 살았기 때문에 그 소리가 어색하지 않았다.

감사하다는 말 없이 늉기는 내 입 안으로 더 깊이 쑤셔넣고 머리도 잡았다.

“다 삼켜 마셔라… 시. 발. 년. 아.”

[bxebxee]

“방에서 하자”

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늉기랑 자고싶다. 늦은밤에 술한잔 하다가 내가 이런 접근을 한다: “뭐하러 택시 타고 숙소로 가… 그냥 내 집으로 가자. 가까운데…”

들어가자마자 옷을 벗고 키스 하게된다.

“방에서 하자.” 난 침대에서 할 생각 이었는데 늉기는 내 말 전혀 신경 쓰지 않고 계속 키스를 한다.

에어컨도 없는 더운 집에서 늉기가 날보면서 한 손으로 천천히 딸친다. 나도 모르게 무릅 꿇게 된다.

[bxebxee]

It’s only a split second of thought, but if feels like longer.

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혹시… 식사 부터 하실래요?

You blink a few times at the unexpected question. Min Yoongi asking you to eat dinner? Alone? This is the same man who always makes it a point to back out of company dinners if he could help it. You had always thought he had some weird aversion to socializing.

“너무 늦기 전에 한끼 하면 제가 집에가서 라면을 안먹을 것같아서,” he explains, “그리고 뭐… 전 혼자 잘 먹는데 김주임은…”

“저도 혼자서 잘 먹어요,” you respond coolly, unsure of what his real intentions are. He had never expressed an interest in socializing with anyone in the office past what was necessary, and his reason was a little flimsy. “너무 잘 먹어서 문제일 뿐 이죠.”

“아… 좀… 갑작스러웠으면 죄송해요,” Yoongi apologizes in a sheepish voice.

“죄송 할만큼은 아니구요 그냥 대리님이 원래 하시던거가 아니라서 좀 신기해서요. ‘왜 나한테?’ 뭐, 이런생각 일뿐이에요,” you explain with a reassuring smile.

You hear him clear his throat as he tugs on the collar of his shirt. It’s good that the two of you stand near the bus stop so that other people may walk by without running into the two of you.

“김주임이 궁금해요,” Yoongi finally tells you, voice clear and with no question as to what he just confessed. And even if he weren’t clear, you aren’t the type to just let things slide. “궁금해졌어요.”

There are about fifty things running through your mind, but the main thing that you keep thinking of is…

“언제부터 그랬어요?”

Yoongi purses his lip and looks away for a second before looking back at you fully and answering, “단체 회식 때부터 그랬습니다.”

“아,” you nod, “꽤 오래 됐네요.” Almost two months, in fact.

“솔직히 전 동료 한테 이런 감정 가지는게 위험하다고 생각합니다. 근데….” Yoongi pauses for one second to gauge your reaction and continues when you don’t look like you’re about to yell at him. “군데 김주임이 자꾸 신경 쓰이네요. 안 그러려고 했는데…”

It’s surprising because he’s never gave off a single impression that he had any thoughts about you whatsoever. You agree with him that relationships between coworkers is ill-advised, but now you’re more curious as to why he likes you rather than scared of the consequences. It’s not as if your company had an anti-fraternization rule between coworkers of an equal level.

“뭐 드실래요?” you ask.

And when Min Yoongi smiles at you fully, it somehow shakes you more than you care to admit.

[jsoessj]

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매일 스마트폰을 사용하고, 컴퓨터로도 자주 검색하면서 구글, 빙, 네이버 등 검색 엔진을 자주 이용하고 있습니다. 빙 검색의 경우 엣지 브라우저 사용량에 비하면 점유율이 너무 낮은 것 같지만, 아마도 그럴 만한 이유가 있는 것 같습니다. 몇 가지 검색