I'm sure you've seen the other letters by now, and I don't really want to keep writing the same thing over and over again. It makes me just want to burn these letters, but the stakes are to high for that. There's to many people who are going to die again for my cowardice.
I don't want forgiveness, but I do want you to know I didn't know about the wedding. I didn't know that they were coming. I've got no reason to think you'll believe me, and it's fine if you don't but I didn't. I didn't know about the flat either. I didn't realize they were targets until after it happened and the smoke cleared.
Don't take that as me being innocent, because I don't know what I would have done if I had known. I don't know if it would have been any different, or if it would have been worse. Them not trusting me kept a lot of red off of my hands but it didn't take the smoke out of my lungs Lily.
I am sorry. I am sorry that I've left broken pieces behind me and for all that I've done. I'm sorry Lily. I'm sorry you'll have to deal with all of this.
For what it's worth I did love you all.