✧ I CAN ONLY WONDER WHY I CAN’T SEE IN COLOR WITHOUT YOU ; ( spotify )( youtube )
MAYBE YOU COULD KISS ME, BUT YOU’LL KILL ME YOU LIGHT UP THE DARK IN ME
bury a friend - billie eilish
talk fast - 5 seconds of summer
death of me - pvris
kiss me kill me - la bouquet
sucker - gndr
criminal - grey
my strange addiction - billie eilish
fall - palisades
follow you - bring me the horizon
take - nekokat
fire alarm - castlecomer
bad romance - halestorm
teeth - 5 seconds of summer
savage - lights
trigger - major lazer
new rules - kream remix
i love you - billie eilish
morphine - lights
my my my! - troye sivan
collar full - panic! at the disco
paper rings - taylor swift
through glass - hands like houses
too good (acoustic) - breathe carolina
“what does this mean to you? what we’re doing?”
“it’s, y’know…” he stalls briefly, deliberately, a light pause and a crooked smile and hands in jihoon’s shirt, casual, as if jihoon might finish the sentence for him. but he knows he won’t, and the pit widens beneath him and, still, he is blind, “i kinda love it.”
his grip on jihoon’s wrist loosens, smile returning, but this time with a light chuckle and a tinge of melancholy behind it, “we should’ve gone to disneyland.”
“i love it too,” he says, and it’s not just because he does. none of this is about truth. it’s about the pain. hurting him isn’t enough. he needs to twist the knife of it; he needs to gut him, and he digs the knife in, slow, straight through him as he breaks the silence. “but i don’t love you.”
“spencer,” he says, firm, forcing the fear out of his voice. “if you survive this, i’ll go anywhere you want with you.” he wants to go to disneyland. he wants to go there and every mundane place on the planet with him. he wants to follow spencer to the end of this earth, into every possible world, everywhere they do and don’t belong.
