it wasn’t like tae was against traveling as a whole — he just didn’t really want to go there. even mere mention of it had his face souring and his tone falling, which obviously opened the door for questions. but surely it was within his rights? like, his family was from there and the ex lived there and the idea of even catching a glimpse of the guy had his jaw tense. let alone the idea of lucien seeing him. and it wasn’t just the ex — it was lucien and all his goons. tae just … knew it wasn’t easy to stay under the radar there? and the last thing he wanted was for alex to be spotted with him and suddenly become a target for that fools psychopathic tendencies. maybe if they weren’t looking for him it could be fine, but that fell to the chance of not running into anyone — why risk it? there were plenty of other beaches!
tae was more stuck on alex’s words, though. why did he have to tell alex all of it? it was a lot, and most of it was his own fault anyway! he also couldn't wrap his head around how it was a lie? he suddenly had a lot of thoughts and questions and tae could feel his skin getting hot as his annoyance bubbled into anger, even if he was sort of holding his tongue. maybe he wasn’t watching his tone, but he was watching his words. “i told you about whatever you fuckin’ asked about, that’s not lyin’.” tae wasn’t sure the other man wanted all the details, anyway. sure, he was missing some key bits of tae’s relationship history — but he would tell him if he asked.
“y’asked why i look like this and i fuckin’ told you—“ not that it had been asked so crudely, but the point stands! tae wasn’t trying to keep secrets or lie … he just didn’t think alex needed to hear all that. or more so if he wanted to he would have thought to ask the question? “i told you why i don’t want to go—“ well, tae might’ve literally said ‘and some other fuckin’ stuff’ after explaining, rather simply, he wouldn’t go because his ex lives there. it was just a lot! did alex really want him to get into it here, now, in the car? they could, but — it was a lot.
tae found himself actually scoffing after a moment, “do i even fuckin’ look like someone that would like the beach?” well — maybe, actually. if he dressed appropriately, and maybe someone gave him those arm floaties. or a life vest. and if alex stayed very close to him the entire time. and there were no children around. god knows the closest he got to swimming was the shallow end of jisung’s pool, one arm on the wall or securely wrapped around one of the other men. tae definitely could not swim, thanks. and that thing didn’t have waves or sharks or crabs or his crazy ex or sand—
“pick a different place and s’fine.” yeah, because the beach was the actual issue here.