#(l)x

[notallfay]

It's so great to be able to buy your #doll new things in person. I saw @holliehoops's Isabel in this #barbie skirt at our last doll meet and had a great and mighty need. It's shiny, and my spirit animal is a magpie, because it comes in goth colours and likes shiny things! #bjd #balljointeddoll #doll #dolls #dollstagram #instabjd #momonita #구체관절인형 (at Manchester Arndale) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtyYlVEAscw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ap8867hlkm08

[prklfe]

i'm 10,000% sure this has already been discussed but i am so on board with this 'she's my collar' having been written b 2-d about murdoc and his' relationship just with the pronouns switched to female ones to try and hide it, but imo murdoc's not that daft and knows the song is about their relationship but couldn't part with such a good track and begrudgingly allowed it be put on humanz. and here is a dumb analyzation of that —

If I could take her down and run, then I'd call her 'Cause she's standing drama, she knows I'll call her

if he could stop murdoc from doing all the awful things he does to both him and others, but specifically in this song to him, he’d call him out and talk directly with him because he’s just starting shit for no reason. but he can’t control him and doesn’t have the resources to protect himself in the event that he tried, so he doesn’t stop him, he doesn’t “call him”

I clear my system, I don't need no other This is my persona, secret lover (she's my collar) Nothing to be justified in Just something, you should feel nada

take some pills, get your mind off of it. it doesn’t matter, this is just how it is and who would he be without murdoc - who “adopted” him and “gave him” his job. ‘clear your system, you’re not thinking straight, take some more. remember who you are, you’re not stuart, you’re 2-d. this is your persona, and i’m your secret lover. this isn’t anything, this happens all the time, you shouldn’t feel anything about it, you’re “used to it” now that it’s happened so many times.’

I know she lies, I know she's my caller I sense her in my mind, she's my collar

he knows that murdoc does whatever he wants, nearly everything he says holds the potential to be a lie. he’s the one that’s always calling him to fix his mess ups, always the one in the apron dusting up the broken bottles or forcing him away from another fight. oppositely, due to the dynamic of the relationship, murdoc’s in his mind constantly as a second voice to doubt him. (gemini’s, we’ll talk about this symbolism later) every decision 2d makes is determined by what he thinks murdoc would think about it, he’s on a leash, can only do what he thinks murdoc would want him to

She's my serpentine, she's my collar I send a message never call her

murdoc is the weight on his shoulders, despite his love, he’s the snake choking him and keeping him in one place. the second line refers back to the beginning of this post, he messages - hints - never calls him out on his behavior.

I'm yellow, he was blue It's nothing that he could hide We made agreement though Whenever we were so alive I died a thousand times I did what I had to do Hey, that's just how it goes I'm still coming back to you

2-d’s way of attempting to justify his mistreatment. they’re opposites, so what? at the time they met there was nothing 2-d could hide, he was essentially a dead state to him and when he did come to was too oblivious and drugged not to confess everything to him. they made the agreement to be in the band, he agreed to this, he should suffer the consequences of it. murdoc’s been through so much already, he’s just doing what he needs to do to get things done. at least he still comes home to the same place.

thank you for reading this if you did i know this is totally unnecessary but ,,,, it’s my favorite song off the album and i couldn’t help myself.