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[givsmn2k05]

maybe it's just cause I'm stoned but I noticed something about Rose I adore. finally got the last push I needed to pick up Doctor Who again, my old love, after seeing the Doctor's new regeneration. so I'm rewatching back from 9

I'm in the classical S1E10 The Doctor Dances aka Are You My Mummy pt. 2. it's the scene from which the true title is named after

I absolutely adore how Rose flirts. perhaps it is cause we are close in age that I am so fond of her also. she's not entirely subtle, but she's not in your face either. there's a sweet coyness to her advancements. I've noticed it before but finally found a few words to describe it. side note

it's not just the way she flirts, but in another way, in which she loves. she loves the adventure. she's so remarkable and I wish I knew the order in which to string my silly little words to truly encapsulate and convey my observation. a simple example, her empathy and love turned a tortured soilder rewritten down to the cells to hate and exterminate, into something that could experience mercy, fear, understand love, and so forth. granted it could not handle it in the end, but that's not the point

more side notes

she very comfortable with the Doctor. thrill seeking, literally leaving not only a boyfriend behind, but her Mother, and a whole life too, for this wild adventure with a mad man, to understate

I love their banterful dynamic. the trust too, which plays so deeply into it. it's all so heartwarming and makes my feel mushy mushy. also it's the mad crush I have on Billie Piper but that's besides the point

am so envious of Rose, as I think many are. she's not a perfect character, she makes mistakes, but she almost always makes it out of disaster, as just a girl. not as a genius Time Lord, granted he is much help, but as a girl, who loves, and cares, and is exploratory, adventurous

[givsmn2k05]

stoned again. I notice a certain dynamic between Martha and the Doctor

she's somewhat of a rebound for the Doctor. he's seemingly often oblivious to her affections e.i. when they shared a bed in S3E3 The Shakespeare Code and various other instances

whole Rose loves the Doctor, Martha "loves" the Doctor, worships him. Rose worshipped him too, but I feel Martha idolizes him. I wonder if the Doctor relishes that, it reminds him of his Rose. he takes opportunities to be reminded of his Rose. taking Martha to the same planets e.i. New New Earth in S3E4 Gridlock and repeating dialogue. at first he was resistant to keep Martha as his constant companion, insisting so for a number of episodes. he seems to seek reminders of Rose, her hopefulness, excitability, youth, but not the vulnerability. multiple instances where Martha attempts to get closer to the Doctor, only for him to shut down and shut her out. though also on occasion, he shares a tidbit with her. I don't remember many instances where the Doctor would shut Rose down so blatantly

Martha worships and idolizes the Doctor, like when she received the TARDIS key, she held out her hands in a way I can't succinctly describe, but it reminds me of bowing in prayer, palms up in praise and deference. her expression, reverence, everything

while I think the Doctor to be unattainable, he was closer and more "human" to Rose. she brought him closer to his humanity, he's quite literally a genocide survivor and that's clearly shown in Nine's run. for Martha, that worship isn't nearly as reciprocated. obviously he's wounded for having lost someone he so deeply cared for so maybe it all boils down to that

[givsmn2k05]

perhaps someone more observant than I can explain it to me. S3E12 Utopia, less than 10 minutes in. the Doctor sees Jack Harkness running towards the TARDIS, ignores him, and promptly takes off. in the following scenes, the Doctor is completely aloof. Jack looks to be dead and the Doctor is unbothered, even when Jack states the Doctor abandoned him, the Doctor's response is "did I? busy life. moving on."

what is that ??? why ???

nevermind Martha being sharply reminded of where she stands with the man, Especially when Rose is brought up

obviously the Doctor gets more excitable at the mention of Rose, but why did he react to Jack that way? other than Jack dying, Bad Wolf, leaving him years into the future, etc. etc. the two seemed to be on good terms. what did I miss?