Jan 11, 2025
Guy who felt super attached to fucked up characters for years and years only to feel guilty for "not being as traumatized and mentally fucked up enough" to "deserve" to relate to those characters, only to now look back on his life and current experiences with new diagnoses and stuff and go "no yeah dude, you were pretty valid dw."
#guy who loved and still loves and vibes hard with characters (usually villains cuz. y'know 🙄) with d.i.d. like 2 face and harley quinn#also moon knight once i learned about him a little later and watched his show and got super emotional about it and did research on him#also me about many characters with serious ptsd like batman. wolverine. especially bucky barnes who's got this dissociative component#also sally face i believe. idk if that was more a focus on depression but he means a lot to me and went through some shit.#but yeah. there are def others but i can't remember the rn (go figure). also shoutout to deadpool. 2 for 1 (not that most d.i.d. havers#don't already have like. some type of p.t.s.d sinfe the significant trauma early on would've lead to the disord in the firat place but wtvr)#spaceman rambles#guy who thought he was being a spoiled little shit for crying himself to sleep at night wishing he could get adopted by other parents#then felt like he was not valid for imagining himself getting adopted by batman cuz “that's for orphans. and#im lucky enough to have a roof over my head etc“ meanwhile *gestures vaguely at the horrors and fact i was patoting my mother's words#young me's proces of rationalization was truly something#*parroting#also no one has to deserve to relate to any character. again. young me rationale is not sound. he was running on survival mode and anxiety#kin who you want. who gives a fuck#rant vent thing