MONACHOPSIS
JUDE KINCADE
( NOUN )
IS A SUMMARY OF PARTS. A FAULTY, HOPELESS, SPASM OF NERVES CASED IN FLESH, SCARRED BY MASTERS WHOSE WANTS ECLIPSED HIS NEEDS.
jude has always been a presentation of lies, a something not someone. so when the percentages no longer stand pleasant, he surprises himself. for no longer was he a subject, prostrating before a DRAGON, who scaled him a mistake, coiling his heart with lances factored of disdain & revulsion. no longer was he a TRINKET played by cunning hands, & wolfish optics.
no he was finally himself. an amalgamation of self-defined ideals , who BLOSSOMED an arc of vigor upon his tongue. WORKING flesh free of bashful beginnings. & so he goes after LUCAS, prizes him with a new jude, sweet words contained within an all-encompassing kiss. in a way lucas has taken the dais of his heart from ZERO, ( in a way though, because in moments his flesh becomes zero’s .)
he stands tall, PRIDE apparent, confident, he demands respect. with lucas things are good, delightful may define the circumstance better, open & free. but a shadow always watches. a shadow always whispers on beginnings.
& slowly jude feels lost again.
tenderness given has an ashen aftertaste, & tenderness taken has a melancholic bite. the sheen is diluted, and he DESPISES himself for this. loathing the fact he’s presented as a LIE once more.
but it is in those moments ZERO forgoes the secret ,
& it is in those moments he shows DECENCY over beguilement , & sets jude free.