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[n0va-collective]

Maybe I’ve just been repressing everyone else in my system because I want to do things my way and heal at my own terms and I haven’t been taking into consideration everyone else that isn’t okay and that also needs their own time in front aughghghagai

[n0va-collective]

Ok vent time

I have to manage my schedule better, make proper time for work, studies, social life and my hobbies but it’s just so much for me at the moment, I’ve been falling behind in literally everything and ever since my break up I haven’t had any ground to stand on you know? Any sort of rock, even indulging in my hyperfixations have been draining me because it feels like a responsibility now and I don’t know what to do.

I’ve never been good with managing my shit and I aways relied on my head mates to be able to keep up with everything but I haven’t been able to interact with anyone it’s been a few months now (usually we co-front a lot but now it’s been more clean switches with full amnesia more than anything), it’s just been so lonely and I haven’t been able to do anything but the bare minimum to keep myself sane, there’s one headmate I interact with sometimes and I got so attached to him because I guess it brings a sense of stability but I cannot physically let my own guard down and let him take over to help me out.

I guess I’m a bit of a control freak in a way, I don’t want people to help me because I should be able to do it myself? So I try to and I fail but I’m too stubborn to actually stop pretending that things are okay and let anyone help me.

It just feels like everything is about to blow up but looking for a way out is too much work, it requires a lot of discipline, responsibility and self awareness so it’s easier to just accept it, brace for impact and try to pick myself back up later.

[n0va-collective]

Life is strange style game about DID where the main character has to deal with some crazy supernatural plot while also dealing with random backsitting comments from head mates that are co-fronting.

“I cannot believe you just did that omggg you suck at this lol”

“Bro the item we were looking for was RIGHT THERE how did you not see it? Booo give me front”

Also maybe each alter has a different skill set so when a switch happens suddenly you suck at a puzzle solving and finding hidden items but you’re fucking goated at fighting enemies and confrontation or something like that

[n0va-collective]

Funny how our gatekeeper made this blog for him to use but he never did so i repurposed it for everyone else to be able to have a place to yap and NO ONE EVER DID LMFAO

It’s my blog now i guess

[dmhatesmefordruidcrimes]

[family guy death pose]

[tabris-the-seventeenth-angel]

ignore the last post we're going to be fine. we got a 1310 when we took a test completely cold back in april. we've studied, just a while ago

[ieatratsyummy]

The craziest thing that happened in the dsmp fandom imo was that one popular dsmp fanartist randomly getting super into drawing Jesus and biblical characters and we all just accepted that.