#-trigger2

[companionwolf]

Toasted strawberry poptart good. (Stands up and immediately)

[companionwolf]

Me: You know I'm worried about the consistent line of 'there's at least 1 Trigger in the system who got kidnapped by higherups and turned into an attack dog' in our dreams

The higherup who I didn't know was there: stop thinking about that Now

Me:

[companionwolf]

Previous fronters, I am 'Missile. Missile. Missile.''ing you. Why can't you sleep. 'We are terrified' ...Give me a different answer. 'We're just going to call out.' That's not good! That's really bad! Ah!

[companionwolf]

My want to play an Ace Combat game (unstoppable force) vs our chronic fatigue (immovable object) (AC is like a...54% brain and focus series for us and I have 23% both right now TwT)

[companionwolf]

Oct. 9, 2025 | 3:15pm | Trigger-2

Emotions you're having, if any and can verbalize: sleepy, calm, slightly proud of myself (for journaling)

Level of presence (back of head scale; 1 = totally checked out, 5 = totally present): 3.5? A little more than the typical 3

What do you feel in your body?: it's a bit heavy and tense; the back hurts, but there's a sense of light feeling energy internally-- it may be our meds?

What thoughts are you having?: not many; pondering evening activities, mostly

ORIENT

Date & time-- Thursday Oct. 9, 2025; 3:18pm

Body age: 25

Situation: Just finished journaling for 10 mins. Now I am sitting in the downstairs living room.

ANCHOR

3 things I see--the warm gold glow of the cube shaded lamp; the striped towel on the end of the couch, on its arm-- it's got dark blue and light blues stripes, along with white; Cobalt's Comfy Friends Vaporeon plushie Fish, she's wearing a pink hat and sitting up on the exercise bike desk

3 things I hear--an airplane passing overhead; a clock ticking somewhere faintly; the dog licking their lips and making wet mouth noises; the SOMA stream (Simon talking)

3 things I feel-- my right heel pressing into the edge of the soft chair, somewhat forcibly; the ball chain of our dog tags, it's slightly cold; my clothes on my body (namely shirt), it's a bit tight

Did you ground?: Yes

How do you feel after grounding?: In terms of BAHS, aybe a little further along, to a 3.6? MAYBE 3.7, but not a 3.75 or higher; I feel more relaxed and alert; body feels a little looser; still not thinking many thoughts though

[companionwolf]

Renovations are mostly done, it's just a matter of practicing visualization of them to make sure they stick properly.

[companionwolf]

Notes for revisions to our cards--

Make light text dark (+ bigger?)

Make the feelings/emotions cards just the symbol + the word (so they can be used more smoothly)

Make the cards double sided (cover + blank card can be together)

Keep a slight and even (as best as we can) edge of clear lamination

...Maybe go to office depot or something if you really don't want to spend hours doing the assembly yourself (it will take hours, it already has, this is unavoidable)

If you're doing it yourself, I believe the correct orientation for double sided printing is flip on long edge

[companionwolf]

Working on communication cards for us, very loosely based on the template from @raposar and using symbols from @cytochrome-symbolz (:

(This isn't the finished product - we need to do the other half of the action words, feelings + emotions, phrases, and questions, plus a blank card - and honestly, we might do a second one with some edits since we've had some thoughts on how to make these more readable as we've been assembling.)