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o3﹕ a text sent out of worry .
𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 : hey, uh. i'm sorry i kind of lost it there for a couple of months. 𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 : i haven't heard anything from you. i know having to step down has been hard on you.
𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 (not delivered) : it was hard on me too. 𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 : just let me know you're alive. i miss you, you know. i didn't want you to think otherwise.
𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 (not delivered) : i've already lost so much, i can't lose you too.
17﹕ a text during a breakdown / panic attack .
𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 : i can't take it anymore. this quiet.
𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 : i'm not perfect. i'm washed up. i can't protect you, ifrit. i tell you you need me, but i'm the one who needs you. 𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 : i need you like i needed him.
𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 : i don't even know who i am anymore.
𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 : i wish you were in my head. i wish i could hear you, i wish i could feel you all the time. it's so lonely, now.
( one hour later )
𝚜𝚖𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 ⇾ 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 : i'm sorry ifrit.