Oct 31, 2017
a monster
#rant#negative doodles#lot of eyes#a monster#.....just waiting#really everytime i try to look at my future and how I am?#i have no idea what will happen since i so fucking much dont know#that thing of everyone will leave me?#bullshit.#I will make everyone go away as I always do#i dont know what is wrong with me#like really#it looks like i get bored or some shit bcs every time i go and have friends i slowly go away from them and get anxiety over it and when isee#nope too late#I have almost twenty years of this shit. I dont know how to keep being friends with peopl#before i thought that people leave me. but i make them go away. I enjoy the moment and it looks like its over the nextmoment#.....i wish i could know how to learn but it looks like i just dont want to? and i dont know what to do with myself because cmon you can#please do it stop being this way#but i see that is way difficult to learn being different. it looks so easy but its fucking not.#im a hypocrite#a monster.