Sep 16, 2019
why do i feel things so intensely? why can’t i be upset for a moment and just let it go? i hate anger. i hate feeling white, hot rage. it’s the most uncomfortable emotion. it’s vulnerability but in a negative way. it’s so weird being aware of it, too, thinking that i need to stop feeling this angry right now, yet continuing to feel it anyway.
and it spreads and it lingers and its entirely too much sometimes.
like i’m still angry about something that happened at 4pm and its midnight and it REALLY wasn’t even a big deal. but why do i feel like fire is running throughout me, burning as if it was the moment the sparks first ignited?
i cant sleep. i want to be at ease, and i want to rest already.