i think the main reason i joined the navy is because of money. i know that sounds bad but its not out of greed, its in the interest of my family. i cant wait to be able to support my mum and my siblings. i hate knowing how my mum feels like shit every time she says that she cant get something for us or when she asks us for help with the bills. i hate seeing the look of guilt on her face when i come home at 10pm from working 12 hours a day at two separate jobs. i dont wanna see my family suffer. not only my current family, but my future family as well. i want my kids to feel like their mother can provide for them, and that they dont feel like they need a job to get by. i want my honey to know that he has a women that gets shit done and can support his children. i want my mum to be proud of the daughter she raised and i want her to know that all those years of struggling and pain can finally be put to rest. i want the people i care about to know that they can rely on me, and that i can take care of them. yes, im saying that im joining the navy, not for myself, but for money. and although that makes me sound like a terrible, terrible person, it still beats the shit out of how terrible i feel right now.
