#0725.

[korudoyoko]

                                                      07.25 - 01.25 - ...

Today is the day that makes me feel proud and happy of me, my significant other and us as an entity. I’m happy that today we mark half year milestone in our lives as a couple, and I have to say, that I’m definitely amazed that so much time has already passed. Even though we knew each other for definitely more than half a year, last six months made me see even more hidden parts of my lover. I saw and felt things that I have never expected them to make me see and feel. From all the people, I did not think that I would fall in love with someone like them...

And since I did, when I decided that my heart feels the safest and delighted there, in those hands, I couldn’t wish for anything more excellent. I know that I found that someone that I am willing to share my future with. I know for sure, that it’s the person that I can see myself continue growing, evolving, learning, loving with. I know that there’s no one else that I wish other than them.

It does sound like I’m completely fallen for love and perchance I indeed am. Blinded by love and all the wonderful things that the person makes me feel, however I know that it’s something two sided. For once I feel safe and secure about my choices and I know that I will be there to offer them the same feeling. I’m certain that this is a bond that can’t be easily cut off and even if there might be someone trying this, it won’t be that effortless for them.

Perhaps that’s just my heart overflowing with love and joy, that’s why these words are spitting out so easily, but even if, it is how I feel and it is how the person makes me feel.

I know that love is something to be cherished, something that grows, something that needs to be handled with care, and even though I have told myself many years that I wouldn’t want any of this, because I have “more important goals in life”, I am more than ready to do it all. To keep our love safe, let it grow, let it spread, let it evolve and be taken care of. The six months that we have shared together, all the cheerful and all the saddening things that we went through already, all the excitement, all the lust, and possible breaks and chipping of the heart, we’re together and it’s nothing I’d like to change. I’m happy with all the celebrations we had every single month, I’m more than happy and thankful that I could spend my time with you every time it was needed. We moved in together, we started to live as a little family, we gave each other things we could and wanted, we were there for each other when it was the most needed. I’m  thankful for every single day we have spent together and I’m even thankful for the days we’ve spent apart, because once I’d see you, my love would catch up from all the days and I could love you more than I ever thought I am capable of.

I know I can be real with you and you’re real with me. You make me see even more colours in this life, and I hope I can do that to you, as well.

I love you. More than my words and doings may tell. ♡

[korudoyoko]

Exactly one year ago…

We both had the courage. We both agreed. We entered a relationship. I got to call you my boyfriend for the first time.

I can’t believe a year has passed since I got to call that precious being mine. Time sure flies fast and it still feels incredibly weird that so much of it has passed since it all started, and yet I feel like I’ve been with him for eternity. And even if, I’d go for many eternities like that, really. The year we had together has dyed my world in way more colours that I could even imagine to exist. I’ve managed to learn about love again and saw so many sides of it… Both good and bad ones. I’ve learned about passion again, I’ve learned about forgiveness, about butterflies in the stomach, the anger caused by the significant other. All of these things can not be separated, both white and black parts add up to a wholesome relationship and I wouldn’t want anything else. I feel like this year I’ve been put to school to just… Learn what true love is… And I fell in love itself. I kept falling in love with him over and over and I’m sure it’ll continue happening. I simply wouldn’t change a thing. I still can not believe that so much has happened throughout the year together. We moved in together, we travelled, we had new (fluffy!) family members add up, we got engaged, we… We got married. Despite only dating for one year. And yet knowing each other for such a long time. All these years that we’ve known each other have lead us to this and I couldn’t be happier.

I still can not wait for all the things we have planned in the future, I can not wait for all the feelings we’ll get to feel - the ones that lift our spirits up, the ones that tries to crush us and yet only makes us sturdier. It’s been one of the greatest years in my life and I’m glad that you’re part of them.

Happy one year anniversary, @sugimancr. I love you. ❤

[korudoyoko]

Despite knowing each other for more than ten years, still - the mark of nine months being together feels quite amazing and important. Being friends with a person for such a long time, being colleagues, working together on the same goals… It’s definitely wonderful. I got to learn a lot about him, I saw various sides of what a person can be, what a great person and a friend he is, however with these nine months I saw so many new things I would have never learnt about if I wouldn’t have initiated the kiss, that I was sure to end up as a joke or something to be brushed off… And yet it wasn’t. Not for me, not for him. During these nine months I feel like we’ve gone through fire and ice. We had our fights, we had our love. We still do and I know what we feel for each other is genuine and it’s something that can not fade away. Not easily, not just like that. We shared so many beautiful days together, filled with laughter and the most joyous feelings. We had days filled with tears and trembling hands, our heads overflowing with anger and sadness, and yet… All of this would only add up to love. Which keeps growing bigger. I can’t wait to see even more hidden parts that I was unable to discover throughout the decade and I hope to bring out something new in him. I did not think that my love that was budding in the depths of me, years ago, would actually evolve to such a wonderful thing. That the thoughts and feelings I kept pushing away for years would end up reality. The things I felt in the past looked so silly at first, and yet the patience and the waiting paid off. Even if I did not expect it to come true. All of this makes me feel like there’s always something more in this world. Something amazing. That life is beautiful and filled with surprises. And you, are still the biggest one in my life. Happy nine months (and by now two days plus), @sugimancr ❤

[korudoyoko]

Perhaps to finally let it out. Perhaps just to ramble to self. And to you.

In the end there aren't things I wouldn't do for you. In the end, there's only you who matters more than other things and other people, no matter how strange, and perhaps cold it might sound towards others. No matter how much I'd like or love someone, you'll always be the brightest, warmest kind of flame inside of me.

Seemingly the four months that we shared closer than ever, made me change more than I would have noticed at first. They still make me grow, evolve, become someone better for you and for my own self. Perhaps it takes some time for my stubborn self to get back on ground and listen to you, try and shape myself again, but in the end I know that I couldn't manage it the other way. If I stopped growing with you, the existence would lose its meaning.

Who would have thought that after such a long search around the world, you appeared then and there, where I last expected to run into someone like you. It feels like we've found each other on such a perfect time that even Gods could be jealous. Everything was perfectly falling to their places. And they still are, piece by piece. Until we're whole. Until we are fulfilled. Whole. Step by step.

And I wouldn't change anything about the things now. I wouldn't trade you to anyone else. I could have made a mistake and chosen someone who I didn't need. I still could be given possibilities that would occur over and over. But my road goes to you, in the very end. My whole entity is linked with yours.

I'm ready to give up so much, grow even more, evolve, find my old and new parts, become the best self it's possible. I never felt so selfless and so ready for a life with someone.

I promise, it'll be worth it. All of it.