#091925

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Michael posted on his IG story — Sept. 19th, 2025

[nhalexhale]

I feel like setting myself on fire

Then my outside would match my insides

I burn every second of every day

I want to explode

I want to self destruct and bring everyone with me

I want to violence

I want justice

I want to be heard and seen

This rage inside me is too much; it yearns for violence like bashing my head into drywall or punching flesh on flesh until skin breaks and blood flows like release

Sweet release that pain brings— it makes me feel alive and not numb

numbing myself is all I can I do to be able to move forward because every day I see them, the people who were suppose to protect me and everyday I see the proof of betrayal on my body

it tears me up inside. the way I just want to unzip this skin of mine and float away, away from everything and dissipate into the clouds like I use to daydream as a kid

Rage envy shame— they circulate in me, in my veins, in my very being and I can’t shake it off fuck

No one can save me. no one can fix me

I can only do it myself