#1.13.2016

[ignis-et-equi]

Do I tell the date how much I like him?! When do I do this?! How do I tell him?! What about the distance?! Am I rushing into things?!

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Demi Lovato, Jessica Simpson & More: Star Sightings 1.13.2016

Demi Lovato, Jessica Simpson & More: Star Sightings 1.13.2016

[ignis-et-equi]

Oh my god. The date went so well.

I find myself lamenting over the fact that this guy lives in California because I seriously want to see him again. He was so sweet and gentlemanly. I was very nervous when he showed up and we went to dinner. But he was patient with me and got me to come out of my shell. It’s the little things he did, like offering his arm for mine to loop all through the evening and teasing me gently. Despite being practically destitute, he tried very hard to pay for dinner even though I’d already told him I would take care of it.

Afterwards, I took him to the dog park in town (mostly because I think of Welcome to Nightvale when I think about the dog park). We climbed up the skate ramps and that’s when he kissed me. It was sweet and assertive. My nerves melted away. I couldn’t get enough but he eventually convinced me to explore the unfinished playground. I have a fear of heights, and climbing while in a dress was certainly not how I’d foreseen the evening, but again, he was patient and sweet as I got my ass up there and admired the view with him. For a while after, we walked around the lake and found benches to sit on to admire the stars in the freezing cold. He made me laugh, we kissed some more, and talked about Star Wars. I was pleased to find that he adored Rey and thinks she’s the most bad ass Jedi in Star Wars history.

Eventually, we headed back to the truck and made our way to my place. Or so I thought until he passed up my driveway. He wouldn’t tell me why as he turned around and headed to the highschool two minutes from my house.

He got out of the truck after parking and asked if I was coming with him. I gave him a skeptical look but followed. He opened the door to the horse trailer he’d been towing (he’s picking up his horses today) and invited me in. I don’t know how long we spent in there, but it wasn’t enough. He kissed me and bit me and things got heated for while. It was absolutely lovely.

When we were too cold to keep going, I lit up a cigarette and sat on the lip of the bed of his truck as I petted his hair and we talked a bit. We went home shortly there after. Surprisingly enough, my parents let him stay the night, so I put on Fullmetal Alchemist and he laid his head in my lap for more hair petting. Not 15 minutes into the first episode he had passed out.

I stayed awake most of the night, my head on his chest, anime in the background. I fell in love with those moments. It’s the most peaceful I’ve felt since Faire, possibly since before then.

Around 7 I made him a cup of coffee and put on Firefly before waking him. We watched an episode and he loved it, but I wanted to save the rest for long distance dates in the future if he’s open to it. So I played more FMA. He ended up staying two episodes past when he was supposed to leave. We spent the morning sipping our coffee, cuddling each other and my cats, and stealing kisses before he had to go.

It’s only been four hours or so since he left, but it feels like years. I miss him. I miss feeling safe. I wish we had more time together, but I have to say, he’s probably the best guy I’ve been out with.