This December marked ten years of my posting fanfiction online. Between ff.net and AO3, I've shared more than a thousand fics (some best forgotten, at this point). On AO3 alone, I've posted well over 2 million words of writing. I feel that I've learned so much about the craft of writing, the essentials of character development, and limitless range of interpretation. My favorite accomplishments are the completion of several novel and novella-length works, and of course, my collaborative AU project with @abadpoetwithdreams and @wearetakingthehobbitstogallifrey. To celebrate, I'm sharing fifty personal favorites/milestones below:
25 One-Shots:
an imaginary line (2020) - The Silmarillion - What if Maedhros, in Himring, taught the ravens to speak?
and one to call home (2021) - Friday Night Lights - It’s the fear. It’s the hope. It’s the dream, the beginning of everything, head coach of the Dillon Panthers, so much riding on the choice to stay and stay and stay—
half omen, half hope (2019) - The Guest - This is what nobody ever tells you about fear: sometimes, you survive it.
the darkness drops again (but now I know) (2017) - Star Wars - Everything that Kylo Ren ever was is breaking like a wave.
as old as your omens (2018) - Queen's Thief series - Lose a hand, love the sword that took it. (She is the sword.)
sorry about the blood in your mouth (I wish it was mine) (2018) - Stranger Things - Steve is hanging by a thread.
time, a maniac scattering dust (2018) - MCU: Avengers/Iron Man/Captain America - "I am" is so much easier to explain than "I am not."
we are not traitors but the lights go out (2018) - Queen's Thief series - Attolia feels as if she alone kills in cold blood.
the best lack all conviction (2016) - Daredevil - Matt’s first fear, when the world is stone-still and silent around him, is that he’s going to die. His second is that he’s going to live.
I will be a gun (and it's you I'll come for) (2019) - The Guest/
손 - Do priests wear black because they carry sin, or so that they can hide it better?
lonely as a cloud (2018) - MCU: Avengers/Thor - “How much of it is real?” Thor asks, because he always, always wants to know. Loki’s brow furrows. The flowers falter and fade. “None of it,” he says flatly.
never all at once (2017) - MCU: Captain America - Bucky never stops falling, and Steve never stops running, and worst of all is that both of them keep living, on and on, as though the train that ran that mountain pass still has them by the hands, metal and metal.
a blur of conquerors (2019) - My Country: The New Age/
나의 나라 - For Bang-won, stillness is an art.
we are truth-speakers (2016) - Supernatural - Sam and Dean discover J.R.R. Tolkien.
if gold rusts (what then can iron do) (2016) - MCU: Avengers/Captain America - He doesn’t know where this leaves him. He doesn’t know why everyone leaves him.
the blackbird's tale (2017) - Scarlet Heart Ryeo/
달의 연인-보보경심 려 - She is a princess before she is a girl, a queen before she is a mother.
land of the living (2017) - The Chronicles of Narnia - Susan had thought that this would be the simplest place to start.
here is my hand that will not harm you (2021) - Big Little Lies - Perry seemed like the answer to everything. Sometimes he still does.
his skin barely keeping him inside (2018) - The Vampire Diaries - Somewhere between trying to be a better man and snapping Jeremy Gilbert’s neck, you lost your way. That much is obvious. Less obvious is how you can come back from it.
let us love him at right angles (and each other not at all) (2018) - The Lord of the Rings - "They were so alike, him and my father."
we shall have spring again (2016) - The Chronicles of Narnia - Winter is long, long ago. Edmund doesn’t know why it just won’t leave him alone.
Penultimate (2016) - MCU: Captain America - Steve wonders what would happen if he never stopped running.
it does not do to dwell on dreams (and forget to live) (2016) - White Collar - Sometimes, Peter wonders if Neal only smiles when he lies.
praying with a gun (2018) - Sherlock - All the dates are wrong, and all the data.
all love is time travel (2021) - Once Upon a Time - Killian has long been a captain, and so he does not show weakness or indecision unless he wishes to.
5 Multi-Chaps:
Fixing on the Hour (2018, revised 2021) - Pride and Prejudice - In which Darcy Williams meets Eli Bennett, tries to be the best at everything, and maybe loses the chip on her shoulder.
Match (2018) - Emma - Emmett Woodhouse returns home from college, and sets about fixing everything but himself.
nor are we forgiven (which brings us back) (2018) - Star Wars - Sometimes going back to the beginning is farther back than you expect.
the way it all melted (like ice melts) (2016) - Supernatural - In January 2001, the Winchesters hunt Grendel, and Sam's life begins to take him away.
what our hearts used to be (2019) - Scarlet Heart Ryeo/
달의 연인-보보경심 려 - Maybe she dreamed of an ancient kingdom so that she could save a modern empire.
10 Fics from 2022:
The Figurehead (WIP) - Stranger Things - When the first flakes of living ash begin to fall, Steve isn’t ready. He’s never ready. That’s not what counts.
the second hand unwinds (Multi-Chap) - Stranger Things - Steve will be damned if this is the end. Steve is damned already if he has to watch Nancy die in front of him.
love is not a victory march - Friday Night Lights - Fear is something that has always been tied up with Tyra’s understanding of home.
tide me death, betide me life - Stranger Things - Robin’s something of an expert in the business of looking at Steve Harrington for the wrong reasons.
see my heart burning in the distance - Friday Night Lights - For now it’s enough to be free. It’s enough to be unrecognizable. Most of the time, it’s enough to leave.
the heart is slow to learn - Stranger Things - It’s the day after the end of the world, and Nancy can’t sleep.
of green fires lit on the soil of the earth - Friday Night Lights - It’s just been so long since Eric had anyone to talk to about this.
and last year's leaves are smoke in every lane - Stranger Things - “A classic,” Robin says, though no one asked for her opinion. She has the tape in hand. “I always thought Laszlo gets short shrift, you know? He’s so heroic. And Bogart was short. But the heart wants what it wants, right?”
staring into all man's plateglass, faces, questioning after who loves - Stranger Things - Jonathan quirks half a smile in her direction. “Do you want to be right, or do you want me to have lunch with you?”
and yet shall mourn - MCU: Spiderman- There are times when MJ is sure she’s splitting in two, self and not-self, or maybe, self and truer self. Which—what the hell, again? Who is she, if she isn’t herself?
10 Gold Rush Silmarillion AU Fics:
no better hope - Fingon sets forth on his impossible mission.
within the hollow crown - Maedhros' life ends in every way but death.
steadfast as the hills of stone - Fingon is not done healing his cousin. His cousin does not particularly want to be healed.
between the jealous mountains (shall we mourn) - Vengeance is a long road--longer for some than others.
in their eyes (shall shine the holy glimmers of goodbyes) - Gwindor thought it would be enough, to love in a place of safety.
the tabernacle (reconstructed) - This is the land of plenty (or something like that).
chase winter from the human face - What sort of budding doctor am I?
our possible life - On Christmas Eve, Maedhros asks Estrela a favor.
the song I sing again and again - The night may not be young, but they are.
shatter my dream (with the aid of reality) - Who is he? Pater noster, he whispers to himself, of himself.
